why are you still here?

how have you been?
are you happy?

i wish we could talk like before, like nothing's ever changed, nothing's ever happened to effect a change... but we both know that's impossible.

i'm here because i reinstalled my operating system and - for the first time ever - forgot to transfer my bookmarks. all those links lost... several websites, several blogs, several photo albums, a handful of recipes and how-tos... links to my ancient life. i've always felt that i'm no good at severing ties, but trying to recover those links taught me that i'm more talented in forgetting than i thought.

so many people i've lost touch with, for various reasons. so many terminated relationships that not even the ubiquitous facebook can remedy. i've not only lost touch with all of you, but with myself as well.

perhaps it's just as well... we are different people now, aren't we?


i've tried so hard to forget it all... to remember just enough to know to stay away.
and now even that is fading...
posted by melody at 9/04/2008 04:59:00 p.m.