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Sunday, March 27, 2005
well, this is it... going to delete everything from the computer, and then reinstall windows... it's always at this moment that u begin to think: there really isn't anything wrong with my computer... it isn't going THAT slow... if there was spyware the antivirus program should be able to find it.. alas, it must be done. Thursday, March 24, 2005
coming across bones. i'm not ready to lose my dead... "漠視是慘絕人寰的虐殺" did i write that? i don't even remember anymore... Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Friday, March 18, 2005
Deadlines. just when i thought i could relax for a bit, more work comes along... i thought i was almost done with my research project in terms of data collection. i had four 3-inch binders of interviews to read and "score", and i was starting on the last binder, when i realized that many of the 70 interviews were cut off. now we are reprinting everything that is missing, and i will get those at the end of next week to score. i don't know how much there is, hopefully not another 4 binders of it... meanwhile the deadlines are fast approaching, and i don't even know what we plan to do to the data yet. there's also the problem of reliability, since we have been falling behind on that... what if after all this work, the data is unreliable and we have to score all over again? i can't bear to imagine it... this project is really turning out to be too much work. i had all these ambitions of comparing the 1946 paper interviews to the 1996 video interviews too. *sigh* and in this very crucial period, i just had to get sick... i spend every day sitting at the table with a pile of papers and a cup of lemon honey water now... Sunday, March 06, 2005
以前說過 我想活在張震嶽的歌裡 現在聽 mavis 不用說想 - 我已經活在她的世界裡 you re not my sunshine my fucking sunshine you always leave me without a sign ever you kiss me with full of feeling you hurt me then say that no hard feeling //mavis//you re not my sunshine// ...... perhaps with better english. Friday, March 04, 2005
何苦再殘酷的互相折磨 (It starts with) One thing / I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The clock ticks life away It's so unreal Didn't look out below Watch the time go right out the window Trying to hold on / but didn't even know Wasted it all just to Watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter One thing / I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme To remind myself how I tried so hard In spite of the way you were mocking me Acting like I was part of your property Remembering all the times you fought with me I'm surprised it got so (far) Things aren't the way they were before You wouldn't even recognize me anymore Not that you knew me back then But it all comes back to me In the end You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I've put my trust in you Pushed as far as I can go For all this There's only one thing you should know I tried so hard And got so far But in the end It doesn't even matter I had to fall To lose it all But in the end It doesn't even matter // linkin park // in the end // but in the end it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter i don't even factor it doesn't even matter in the end in the end in the bitter bitter end it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter it doesn't even matter i don't even matter never mattered never ever mattered in the beginning it doesn't even matter doesn't even matter i will get used to it (or have) because nothing even matters nothing even matters nothing even matters Tuesday, March 01, 2005
kill me, just kill me right now!! i hate statistics... i hate anything to do with math i hate boring theories with cryptic greek letters mainly, i just hate it cuz i don't get it. yay, i will go into the midterm in 3 hours without understanding a single thing. the worst part is, i'm so fustrated i can't even seem to memorize some basic equations. i am going to fail miserably, miserably i tell you... the really odd thing is, i've been dreading this midterm for a while, but i haven't had a single anxiety attack about it tonight. perhaps i'm too tired for anxiety attacks...
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