oooh, i just can't resist this week's fridayfive. i think everyone should answer this week's friday five... (yes, that was a hint...)

1. What do you most want to be remembered for?
for being a good friend. for being the person who was always there. tho i'm not quite sure i'm like that anymore... it never pays off... ppl never notice or appreciate or care, so after a while i just end up hurting myself... i still try tho.

2. What quotation best fits your outlook on life?
somedays:
"frankly my dear, i don't give a damn." -- rhett butler, "gone with the wind".

other days:
"only those who risk going too far can possibly
find out how far one can go. " -- T.S. Eliot.

3. What single achievement are you most proud of in the past year?
eh... passing math 101? ha no i'm not proud of that. it's more like i'm ashamed i came so close to failing it...
i guess, strictly speaking the past 12 months, then i'm kinda proud i graduated w/ 4.0 GPA and full scholarship... oh... i think i'm most proud of that point grey scholar medal... the best i've ever gotten before that were certificates, that was my first medal, and extra good b/c i wasn't expecting it at all... and extra extra good b/c dad wasn't expecting it at all either -- he was asking me before if i get to go up and recieve something, and i felt like i was disappointing him when i said no... that was a happy moment, standing up there w/ all them geeks, heh heh. i heard they have that photo of us geeks in the counselling room right now. david's parents saw it when they went to talk about david's brother and they were nagging him, kekeke.

4. What about the past ten years?
the past TEN YEARS??? geez, i'm only 19... heh.
i'm proud that i've survived this long living by myself, getting used to this country, etc.
but given the choice this is still not the path that i want for myself... as i've said many times...
there's really no place like home.

5. If you were asked to give a child a single piece of advice to guide them through life, what would you say?
appreciate your parents.
treasure your time with them.
NEVER tell them that they are annoying.
you have no idea how much that hurts their feelings.
posted by melody at 5/30/2003 05:03:00 p.m.

ah... feel so better after a shower.
let's recount my day in a little bit more detail...

i got the not so smart guy as physics lab partner again, but towards the end of the lab i found out that he's twnese, and so are the girl and guy who are always partners and always look over... even tho i was late today and went to the washroom godzillion times etc etc we still managed to finish the lab by 2:30pm... i think it's b/c everyone knows that zheng marks super easy now so nobody really cares to do a good job anymore. we'll end up with 9 or 9.5 anyway, heh.

i was really tired this morning but i had a feeling we were gonna have an in class assignment today, and we did, so good thing i went... while i was getting my hot chocolate during my break tho i passed a counter that read "teach english". i kinda walked past it, then stepped backwards back, and the nice woman there asked me if i was interested in teaching english.. hell yeah.. heh. the booth was promoting a teacher's education thing, where u get 100 hours of education that leads up to a TEFL english teaching certificate so u can teach english about anywhere in the world. not highschool english or stuff like that tho, but if u wanted to set up a english tutoring place or something. this might be a good alternative for me... with the TEFL certificate i can charge up to $25+/hour for normal english tutoring... HOWEVER, the 100 hour course costs $885, plus $45 for the textbook... so if i do charge $25/hour, it'll take me 37 hours to earn that amount back... hmm. it seems like a better investment than say, spending $460 retaking math 101... heh. gonna think about it as a serious option. i'm still gonna complete my undergraduate degree anyway, but private english tutors can make quite a bit of money... probably not as much as "dan the tutor" tho, heh heh.

"the pianst" was a great movie... i'd highly recommend that u go see it, so i'm not gonna ruin it for u... all i'm gonna say is that it's really good... tho i think it could've been better... it's not the best nazi/jew film i've seen, and i didn't really get the feeling that he was inseparable from his piano music... and i'm not exactly sure either if it was an oscar-worthy performance... but i forgot who he was up against for the oscar already... ppl never seem to remember the nominees. untill they die, anyway (ie dorothy dandridge).

so today i spent 14.5 hours in ubc... that's kinda freaky. well i left for 2.5 hours to eat... but that was about it... i was prepared to spend my break sleeping in my car tho, i even brought my blanket and parked in a corner so i'd have privacy and little sunlight... but my stomach felt sick so i didn't have lunch and had to venture out to get congee during my break... then i had a very very very strong cup of tazo "awake" (tea) during psyc and amazingly it kept me awake!

the second half of psyc today was really interesting... the first half of class was spent almost entirely talking about motion sickness, and in the end i started to feel sick, but the second half more than made up for that.. we talked about stuff commonly identified as optical illusions, and we looked at tons of optical illusions. sandy didn't come today so i sat behind apple and her friends. it was hilarious -- apple couldn't see 90% of the optical illusion stuff, even after we all tried to explain and the prof pointed it all out and changed the slide, she was still confused, heh heh. i was joking how what if they prof put an optical illusion on the test and asked which kind it was, and she couldn't even see what is illusionary about the photo?? heh heh heh~ then we watched a video about how we sense body position and stuff, which was amusing but just dizzifying after a while, and we left early~ that was a good class, tho i don't really want to study the material... *sigh*

there's nothing much to say about today... if there was anything interesting, i can no longer remember anyway... been really losing sleep for the past week or two, always keeping myself busy... even now when i can totally go to sleep, i stay here anyway... don't know why at all. i wish i wasn't tired, i want to finish reading "the wars", it's pretty interesting.

oh yeah. i got 70% on my last physics midterm, = class average again. i'm satisfied... heh. i wish i could learn to work hard... this is what i WISH i could do next year:
1) study hard and get good grades. get very good grades to compensate for this screwed up year... hopefully good enuff to get a scholarship, education is expensive...
2) work either at some high pay place like white spot or internship that might build up to something, or highschool tutoring if no employer hires me.
3) be more healthy... i should watch my diet, rest more, exercise some, and i should drop a few pounds... like... 10 pounds... ha~
4) sleep somewhat regularly
5) do a good job on clubwork, actually find a lot of cash sponsors so i don't feel useless. i'm considering joining perspectives too, the chinese/english student newspaper of ubc... i need the writing practice...

i signed up for the parkade pass lottery, but if i don't get that i think i'm not gonna buy one... since we have to pay $120 for u-pass i might as well use it... so some days i'll bus, maybe some days i'll get rides, and if i'm really running late then i'll drive and park in b-lot... so now i'm even kinda hoping i DON'T get the lottery, heh. the thing is, w/o a parking pass i won't be able to just go into ubc to study all the time... hmm.

for next next week, i have physics on thursday morning, psyc test on thursday night, and 12 hours later i have physics final.. i'm considering staying in ubc for 27 hours, haha~ it seems wasteful to go home for 12 hours, where i'll get distracted by 10 million things... but it'll also be weird to stay in ubc... sleep in office or car... hmm... we'll see, we'll see. it all depends on how prepared for my exam i am...

now i'd better go sleep... have psyc experiments till about 5pm tmw... my mini-jobs, heh.
posted by melody at 5/30/2003 04:39:00 p.m.

4:50am slept
9:00am woke up
9:30am physics
12:30pm physics lab
3:00pm eat w/ jenny
5:00pm clean jenny's car
6:00pm psychology
9:00pm dinner in office
9:30pm watched the pianst in sub w/ roz
12:30am home
12:55am exhausted.
posted by melody at 5/30/2003 03:57:00 p.m.

it took me a good 90 minutes to figure out my schedule for next year, but i've got it now:

term 1:
psyc 260 001
psyc 260 L02
biol 200 101
biol 200 T46
japn 200 002
chem 233 122
chem 233 L15

term 2:
psyc 260 001
psyc 260 L02
japn 201 002
biol 201 201
psyc 300A 902
(i might take comtemporary issues in psyc instead if they let me take 300A before completing 100 in summer...)

might add an english course, or re-take math 101, which i've decided not to complete during summer. :p

now i'm so tired and i still have to do physics pre-lab?? naw, f-it, i'll do that tmw... btwn 11:45-12:30, heh.

today went to the psyc test, where i was supposed to put my hand in an iced water bucket and express my pain feelings and fill out questions. however, my assigned partner was a no-show so i only had to fill out questions and still got my $10 famous players gift certificate. :) i found out tho that IF i had done the ice water thing, i would have to have a monitoring thing stuck to my chest and i would also be videotaped and observed from another room thru a one-sided glass/mirror window. that's freaky... heh, that's what roz is gonna have to do. i also got contacted by two more experiments i signed up for, and i'm gonna be doing those on friday. so friday i will earn $20, since both of those experiments pay money. YAY!!

WOW!!! i just saw celicas racing on tv... toyota pro/celebrity race... heh. they're fast... but they're also really basic.. and have ugly designs on the side. *sigh* i wanna see a celicagarage "track meet"... heh heh

after psyc experiment i went to dewi's and helped wash jenny's RSX... i realize i have VERY different standards of "car clean" than everyone else... heh. they were pretty much done cleaning the car but i rescrubbed it everywhere anyway, heh. i think the camping trip really hurt the car... as in the engine was sizzling hot from going 220km/h constantly, and then the bugs that went SPLAT on the front got cooked... and damaged the paint, since they haven't waxed it in the past year... -____-" makes me want to wax my car even more now... hopefully i'm gonna do that next weekend, after david's done his midterms... he needs to wax the altezza... am i the only person who waxes my car (or paint protector) at least once per 6 months??!! ohh yeah, more car related stuff: i removed the "downtown toyota" sign on the back, hee~ might remove the metal "toyota" plate and add a "TRD" one... might... but prolly can't afford to... me and buubuu are gonna take out $10/week starting now so we can really celebrate 3rd year anniversary in august... (yes, we're very poor, we have to save up to have one day of fun. feel free to pity us and then please proceed to sponsor our celebration, heh).

oh, and i forgot to blog this last time... but i was on ubc highway at night, and when i almsot reached dewi's house i decided to go back to ubc just for the heck of it, heh.. and that's when i realized that the ENTIRE time i've been coming up from the beach, i've been in SECOND GEAR........ i don't even want to think about it... all the way from beach to dewi's house on second gear, going the speed i was going..... x__X"......... yeah ok gotta stop thinking about it.... so stupid of me.

we went to eat at "place under the place" after car washing... so many ppl went! me jenny roz ann dewi and pin~ that's considered "so many ppl" these days... heh. i think pin was extremely bored, cuz we were all talking about university stuff, like which courses we're taking next year, majors, etc... heh perhaps he was also puzzled when ann and I rejoiced over our respective 51D in physics and 50D in math, hahaha.

after that i went to buubuu's... didn't do anything much except reading... now i've finished reading "the scarlett letter" and am halfway thru "the wars", but am also totally behind in my psyc reading again, :p

i don't think david's parents are very happy about me sleeping in his bed... (no, not WITH him, i lay there reading my book). *sigh* conservative parents... what do they think we do? after 3 years all we do is hold hands and then turn away to blush or something???

stayed there till 10:30.... got bubble tea on dunbar, then came home... now it's past 1am already, i should totally go to sleep so that i won't fall asleep in psyc again, but i don't feel like sleeping... this is so typical of me. i think i'll go do other things now... read some more or something, wanna finish that half-read and un-read list this summer. and add harry potter 5 to that list too. it's expected to arrive btwn june25th-july1st... i ordered it from amazon.ca. contrary to what ppl think of online shopping, amazon.ca has great service and great delivery... i e-mailed them about changing my order and someone actually personally replied me and changed it for me within 24hours... not computer automated answer or plz check FAQ or anything like that... she even apologized that amazon.ca was not able to offer this type of order chaning service in the account page yet, and promised that the feature will be added soon. heh. now THAT'S good service. most ppl in chapters won't be that nice to u, nevermind give u 40% off and free shipping.

damnit everyone's finding jobs! dewi's gonna go do that apprenticeship thing in japan at a cake shop for the summer, roz is applying EVERYWHERE, jenny is applying to gap and sportschek and bank internship... i'm just like... doing psyc tests.... heh. i want to work at mcdonald's for the summer to accumulate "restaurant" experience, so that i can work in whitespot in the future... or starbucks... i think i'll just apply to sushi Q for now to see if i can get it first... mcdonald's is a REALLY undesirable job... tho i don't even know if i'm gonna get off my ass and apply... it gives me a headache to work on my resume, b/c there's nothing to put on it. *sigh*
posted by melody at 5/29/2003 04:31:00 p.m.

wow, roz solved the "road to nice" puzzler.
(i'm really starting to be a physics geek, puzzler?! as in the puzzler assignment for labs??? heh)
i kinda screwed up the question i think... u're supposed to think up a question to ask both of them.
and u're supposed to ask "which road will the person beside u pick?"
and they'll both tell u the wrong road...
very very smart. the question i've been wondering about for years has been solved!!

okie. time to recall what i did today... i kinda slacked off and didn't study at all last night, even tho i only ended up sleeping for 2 hours... took my physics test, i think i did ok... 50-65% probably. assuming they're giving part marks, heh.

went to buubuu's for my break, watched some tv and finally washed our cars.
we watched this show called monster garage, and their goal of the day was to alter a 98' white beetle into a swamp boat and race it. in my opinion they just tore apart and ruined a perfectly good beetle... and the beetle was TOTALLY sinking while they were racing it, but they finished the race just moments before the water was gonna pour into the windows, and they didn't say anything during the commentary of the race about it sinking... like the audience can't tell... heh.

had to go search for sponge to wash car. i found those lint-less towels i use in IGA! excellent. my old one (not old at all, i've only used it once) is kinda ruined b/c i used it to wax my car last time and i was so exhausted afterwards i didn't rinse it out... :p so we washed our cars... had to rush a bit for mine cuz david had to pick up his brother. then after he got back he took so long to meticulously wash his eclipse, it ended up so much cleaner than mine, damn!! heh heh. too bad tho, right after i washed my it accumulated a very thin film of tree-dust stuff, and a blob of bird poop landed on the lower right corner of my windshield, damn!! all that hard work.. i even wiped the inside, and i climbed into my trunk to wipe the rear window, heh. i did everything except vacuuming, too exhausted...

went to eat sushi Q and kinda gobbled it down... pick up david's brother from matthew's... then went to class... today was the first time i fell asleep in psyc class. it was so boring!! talking about sensory system and mainly about the eye. its components and functions... i slept thru the explanation of the eye's parts and functions... it's ok, i can read about it in my biol textbook.. heh.

i think psyc class is good for me in the sense that i sit w/ sandy and her two twnese friends... good mandarin practice... i now officially suck at all three languages verbally... the only language i can write well is english, but my speech is all screwed up lately, can't pronounce words or finish sentences... maybe i'm just over-worked... i never let myself rest these days...

went to the beach after class just for the heck of it... sat there listening to songs and singing while waiting for chinese tv to finish, but nobody wanted to go to stb... :( roz didn't want to go out, winnie was "studying" (she didn't even pick up), ann was playing w/ shao on swings... o-e. everyone said they're free tmw, but tmw is such a bad day to hang out for me...

jenny ended up going tho. i got the feeling that she didn't really care about going, till her mom overheard the phone conversation and wouldn't let her go, so she ended up wanting to go, hahaha~ only stayed for a short while... talk talk talk talk talk. saw smart/harvard janice again! didn't bother to go over and say hi tho... intimidatedness!! haha~ if i see her again in stb in the future when i have a decided major, then i'll talk to her.. otherwise it'll just remind me of how my plans for post-secondary are not working out at all... -___-"

i'm really really really tired right now, but i still don't want to sleep, *sigh*. i have so many books i'm supposed to read... not just psyc/chem/phys... i mean novels... let's see how many novels i'm half-way thru.
1) the scarlett letter
2) the english patient
3) at the full and change of the moon
4) emma
5) 小荳荳大哈佛
6) a dog's life
7) there's more but i don't think i intend to finish them...

and then books i've bought or borrowed but haven't touched yet
1) the wars
2) lolita
3) frankenstein
4) the obedient wife
5) the blue room

*sigh*... no time, no time...
posted by melody at 5/28/2003 02:39:00 p.m.

oh dear god... i can't believe i didn't remember to blog this...
on monday btwn 6-6:30pm, i saw TWO ferraris...
there was a dark blue 360 modena (nic's car) driving up arbutus, which is nice, but it had a pretty big blob of bird poop on the engine hood which kinda ruined it...
but when i got to my block, there was a parked sterling silver-light blue 360 spyder!!!
that image is gonna stick in my head for a long long long time...
my DREAM CAR!! in my DREAM COLOR!! FUCK!!! so nice!!!
so there's 2+ 360 spyder/modena of that color in vancouver then... the last time i saw one (while i was on a bus too) i'm pretty sure it was just modena (non-convertible version)...
whyyy.. why are ppl in vancouver so damn rich...!!!

anyway, back to reporting the sighting of the 360 spyder... me n buubuu saw it... then buubuu turned b/c he didn't wanna park near it, haha... but when we parked in front of my house and got off, the spyder was already gone... already gone!!! *sigh* so so so SO nice... *dreamy sigh*

would i kill for one of those? sure...

wait.. can that sentence be used against me in the future as incriminating evidence??
oh well, it's just blogger... u can erase what u've said, and convince ppl u've never said it... heh.

anyway, change of topic. i came across this thing in my psyc textbook last time... see if u're smart enuff...
and then try it on a buddy to make fun of them, heh.

u're driving a bus with 12 passengers.
at the first stop, 6 passengers get off.
at the second stop, 4 passengers get off.
at the third stop one passenger gets off,
but three new passengers board the bus.

what color are the driver's eyes?

did u get it? if u didn't then too bad... u'll just have to torment urself thinking about it. it shouldn't be hard tho... if u can solve THIS tho, maybe i'll reward u with something...

u're going to nice from paris. u come to a fork in the road and u don't know which way to go. u meet two ppl, A always lies, and B always tells the truth. A tells u to turn left, B tells u to turn right. which is the correct road?

this riddle has been puzzling me for YEARS. literally YEARS. it was in an agenda from highschool.. actually i came across it before that too, and i NEVER figured it out.

come to think of it... something like over half an year ago i asked ppl why they thought my blog-title is 4.5% acidic, and i said i'll post the answer 100 days later... it's way over 100 days, and i still haven't... oh well. i'll get to that someday....... for now tho, hint: 4.5% ACETIC acid...
posted by melody at 5/27/2003 07:32:00 p.m.

i haven't blogged about saturday yet, have i...
buubuu came at 8am-ish and we made up from fighting the night before, except i had a weird dream about him right before he got here, and i kinda didn't really wake up from my dream, and was mad at him about something related to the dream content, heh. i can't remember much about it myself, but he was REALLY confused, heh heh. it was like.. i was still dreaming, except he was really there, not just in a dream... yes... i had to get up at 10am for cass bbq tho.. picked up winnie, met up with jenny, went to ceci's, waited forEVER to leave... jackie drove...

the location (whytecliff) was a big disappointment... it was also lightly raining too, *sigh*. the best part of the bbq was elvis' puppy boy boy, sooo freaking cute!! he is COMPELETLY like koka, except he doesn't bite, and he's not a cocker spaniel... yes.. heh. but the softness of fur and behaviour is comepletely the same.. and the EARS... ^_________^

now that it's 2 days away i don't have much to say about the bbq anymore... it was alright, i cooked and ate A LOT of chicken wings, as usual... the annoying thing of the day was when a lot of ppl were playing on the swings, and i kept on thinking about physics class clicker question... ie. if there's two ppl on the swing instead of one person, what will happen to the frequency? how about what if the person on the swing was standing up instead of sitting? *fustrated sigh*

and they were asking capt'n vitasoy what color she's gonna dye her hair next. someone suggested orange, then someone suggested yellow, then someone suggested half side orange half side yellow, then someone suggested she should dye it orange then perm it and b/c mcdonald jeje (parody of ronald mcdonald), hahaha~

there were crows there... towards the end one crow swooped down and grabbed a piece of raw steak from the container and they fought over it... ardee took the beef home... wonder if they ate it........ heh.

what else...? i don't think there's much else about the bbq... after getting home i was soo sleepy, but i watched tv instead of sleeping... forgot what i watched tho... then went to eat dou fa w/ buubuu, then met up with jenny/winnie/pin at the jap place (aka yamakiya)... i THINK that was saturday.. uhh... ok i'm not really sure now... hahaha. oh yeah... it was.... b/c mom called while i was eating dou fa and she told me the details on my aunt's car crash. she hasn't called me since... wonder how things are back there...

i ordered beef tongue and chicken skin in yamakiya, now is that REALLY so gross? those are like... some of the best stick things they have... i still maintain that the yamakiya in tw is better tho.

i think... we went home after yamakiya... all the while making funny faces at cars... well not funny faces... everytime this car full of ppl passed us we would shake our heads from side to side just to confuse them, heh... and then there was the rav w/ two girls who supposedly cut in front of jenny's car when they were going to richmond and almost killed them, so they were mad about that, heh... i guess they noticed we were staring at them.. pin pointed his middle finger at them and the girl saw but i didn't see that, so when i made eye-contact w/ her i just waved... and she waved back... and pin said he just pointed his middle finger... i was like... oops.... yar... ok this is the WORST blog entry EVER... why are u still reading... get a life... go do something else... heh.
posted by melody at 5/27/2003 06:52:00 p.m.

i need to learn to blog when i'm NOT tired for once.. *sigh*
today was an alright day.. alright for a monday, anyway... since mondays i'm supposed to be stressing over my physics midterms on tuesday... btw, if u haven't gotten used to it yet... most of my posts are sometime btwn 1-7am, so what u read in the beginning of tuesday's post, is often about "monday"... not like u really care... but.. yeah.

anyway... events and schedule for monday:
2pm - woke up from a disturbing dream... don't really want to discuss it... or remember it... it didn't make sense at all...
2-3pm - got a call from a woman, judging from her voice she's caucasion (or just by a hunch...) she asked if my parents were home, i said no, she said something "oh alright then" and she was going to hang up, when i asked if i may ask who's calling. she responded "no." and proceeded to hang up on me... so of course i was like wtf... called *69, got the 800 #, and called back, but it was a voice message that said something about they called to offer us a product or service and blah blah... that kinda disturbed me for a while...
4pm - buubuu got here. we watched jungle jack on maury... if u don't know, maury is kinda like jenny jones type of show, except i think it's better... and jungle jack comes to the show every once in a while apparently, to showcase some rare wild animals.. there were a lot of cool stuff... rodents that looked like deer, legless lizard that looked like a snake, a rodent that jumped around exactly like a kangaroo... very interesting... makes me want a pet even more... heh. i still remember how i used to want a lizard type pet... not quite as much anymore...
5pm - went to eat at "the place under the place". haven't been there for so long, it's always been glouchester or i-cafe lately... they changed the afternoon specials menu so i guess i'll be going more again, heh heh. had to count coins and get $2 from david's car to pay for food, so sad.. heh.
6pm - home
7-8pm - watched friends.. funny friends
8:30pm - persuaded jenny to go to stb to study w/ me. we circled around the block like 3 times till we were sure there were seats and found a parking space... HEY, i actually parallel parked!! i was slow, but i didn't have to re-park... YAY! tho it might've just been fluky, i dunno... i really need to find a day and just practice parallel parking... seriously... ai.
11:11pm - left stb, got $ at the bank. must remember to change my youth account into a chequeing account tmw, b/c it's 3 months after my b-day, and they're gonna close my account and disable my atm card if i don't change into another type of account. >___< finally returned i-spy, but 12 hours too late, damnit... now i have late charge on my blockbuster card AGAIN. i should really stop renting videos... everytime i go there's a late charge... damnit.
11:40pm - got to bread garden to do some studying... in my bad judgement i ordered a full order of caesar salad, 80% of it is still sitting on my bed in its plastic container right now... bread garden reaaally sucks... and there's too many ppl there, that are NOT studying... wasn't really able to read my physics text, so eventually started doing the practice exam... kinda understood it.. not really... no.. i just plugged #s into equations, heh.
12:30am - went to the beeeeach. stopped at mac's for some gum first.. then beach, beach, beach... so nice b/c there's almost no one there today. well actually i drove a bit further down, and some ppl were having bbq... or just a fire... i wanna have a bonfire, damnit. i don't think i've ever been around a real bonfire, EVER... didn't go to the one in gr8 camp... i remember me and dewi saying we're just gonna check out the dance and then go to bonfire, but we just stayed at the dance the entire night, heh...
1 something am - drove home w/ windows down and volume 48. i'm gonna go deaf real soon if i keep this up... but then the need for volume... heehee
2am - home. e-mail. icq. then tv...
3am - blog.

*yawn*. i should study some more for physics... memorize some equations and learn how to use them at least... but i'm so tired. and i really couldn't care less... rather brain dead right now...
posted by melody at 5/27/2003 06:26:00 p.m.

i spent another 1.5 hours on trying to make the webcounter work today, but i've failed yet again... this time not b/c the counter isn't working or displaying properly, but b/c blogger wouldn't let me make changes to my template. actually it still won't. it's so freaking annoying... GRR.

anyway, i'll pick up where i left off last time and finish documenting my friday and saturday, tho i can barely remember now, it's so early in the morning...

i can't remember where i left off actually... but friday night i went to bubble tea at edge with jenny and pin, since they were the only ones free (or in other words not already out). we found out that edge is hiring but u have to work for no wages for 2 weeks... plus the hazardous work environment (smokiness) and dress code (generally rather revealing clothing)... -______-" pin kinda danced to the techno music, and he's still addicted to it right now... he's been trying to be a human beatbox, except with techno music... heh. after that we went to save winnie from icon and went back to jenny's for scrabble. it's amazing how long winnie and pin can just sit there and play scrabble for...

i went to the beach after driving and pin home, and stayed there for a little bit... except this time instead of sitting there quietly i turned my stereo volume wayyyyy up high... i haven't listened to my elva cd for quite a while... the shunza+elva mix of "and i know"... mmmm... i'm now listening to music in my car at volume 42, full bass, full tremble... kinda fearing the day that i'll be listening to it at full volume(62)....

got home at 4am on saturday morning, but i didn't sleep till 7:30am... i was all prepped to go sleep at 6:30am, but i decided to check e-mail, and i got an e-mail from my mom telling me that my youngest aunt (claire and willing's mom) was in a car accident and was in intensive care at the hospital, the situation was life-threatening... 31 hours ago i found out that she was riding her motorcycle/scooter and to avoid a bicycle rider she stopped abruptly and apparently flew off the scooter. there's blood in her brain and if the blood clots they'll have to surgically remove it and that presents the greatest threat right now, aside from as-of-yet unidentified brain damage. she's gained some conciousness but isn't really acting like herself, and can't fully identify people. she is numb in her left legs and half of her face is completely swollen, she tore the muscles near her eye and thus is unable to open it. hearing all this is so horrifying and hurts so much especially since i just finished learning about all the functions about the parts of the brain in psyc...

i don't think i really know what i am supposed to be doing with this information... i feel like there's nothing i can do... i should probably give claire and willing a call, but i have no idea what to say, i know it'll just end up with both of us crying on the phone, and i don't think that's gonna help anyone... whatever i do right now i feel a small pitch of pain, that i shouldn't be enjoying myself, i shouldn't be eating meat, or whatever... not that it would make a difference... but if only i could feel like i was doing something... or just to take my mind off it...

it's so unfair... u meet some ppl in life,and u think to urself, it seems as though they're always getting the worse end in everything, but things never seem to start to get good for them...

i wish i could do something to make it better, to make claire and willing and grandma and my mom and everyone back in tw feel better, but i can't... i'm all the way over here, and everything and everyone is so so so unbearably far away... this is the first summer i'm not in tw... and it hurts beyond description...
posted by melody at 5/26/2003 09:38:00 p.m.

just to get myself started, here are the late friday fives.
and heck, if i can't wake up enuff after these questions, at least u'll have SOMETHING to read, so as ur visit is in vain. :p

tho i gotta warn u... this is the most shallow, most boring, most pointless issue of fridayfive EVER.

1. What brand of toothpaste do you use?
colgate. they seem to have ten thousand different types of toothpaste... i generally just pick up anything that says "whitening/cavity fighting" on it... i just bought a tube of the bright sparkly aqua blue packaged toothpaste... it doesn't taste so good. :p
i used to use "黑人牙膏" tho, in hawaii as well as in taiwan.. dunno where i can buy it here? it tastes good... heh

2. What brand of toilet paper do you prefer?
umm, that... red packaged one... i think it's called premium. or something... actually i buy whatever's double pleated but also cheap in costco. wow... life would be hard for any brand of toilet paper that costco decides not to sell. heh heh~

3. What brand(s) of shoes do you wear?
umm... too many. all my shoes that can actually be called brand name are sneakers tho... right now i'm most often caught in my white nike airs w/ the bright orange nike mark. i also love most ethnies boarding shoes, and addidas. and the newest jordan shoes... and if reebox EVER comes up w/ a better design w/ DMX, i'll buy it for sure... i don't get it... when DMX just came out reebox made good shoes... i had a pair that lasted like.. for as long as i remember... it might still be in tw i think... (yeah my feet never grow, like my height).

4. What brand of soda do you drink?
mugs root beer, sprite, and coca-cola, in order of preference.

5. What brand of gum do you chew?
dentyne ice, peppermint.

see... i told u this week's question sucked... i can't even find ways to babble more in my answers... *sigh*

slept till 1pm or something today, watched a bit of tv, went to glouchester w/ buubuu where they took FOREVER to give us our drinks AGAIN... got home and just turned on the tv when jenny came to the rescue... and i mean that she called and we went studying at dunbar stb... i consider that rescue, cuz i really need to raise my GPA if i wanna do what i wanna do(biopsychology). so studying psyc was fun, even tho 1.5+ hours in stb and i only read like 5 pages of the text i think... i actively processed the material and took notes, haha. after that jenny had to go out for dinner, so she dropped me off to study in ubc. heh i thought she was gonna come back at 9ish to study. :p

i went to angus to study, and i must've walked around for like 10 minutes trying to find an empty classroom.. i didn't know so many ppl liked studying alone in classrooms in angus on a sunday in the summer... so weird. but i finally found an empty room on the 4th floor~ ah it's nice to study alone in a bright and well ventilated room...and i sat back facing the door and facing the window, so there was kinda a view too, of the sky and clouds, heh. as i predicted my attention started waning around 9pm, but i continued to study till like 10:30pm.. so unbelievable... that means i studied for nearly 5 hours straight today... too bad i only brought the psyc textbook tho, and i was so interested in chapter 4 i didn't really preview chapter 5 as i intended to, which really sucks becuz my psyc tests aren't cumulative and chapter 4 will never be tested again... :p

after that jenny came to pick me up, heh it became more like she chauffeured me to and out of ubc, :p. we ended up in 圓香 where i had dinner~ i really shouldn't eat w/ ppl, i should just have drinks... b/c i'm often the source of noise, whether sensible or not.. heh. saw the guy who used to be on pw badminton team there, i remember his name was david, and i remembered the match in either gr11 or 12 when pg played pw, and the line-up was like... jenny and xxx vs jenny and jenny, david and michael vs david and david, heh. that was an interesting match. can't remember if we won... i'm guessing our jennys won, but our davids lost... :p (i told u there's a lot of davids...)

and i also remembered the first time i wrote an SAT test in tutor class that pw david was there too, and he gave up near the end and went "fuck. a b c, a b c, a b c..." and he ended up still getting 10 points higher than me... heh heh. i think i had 1190 on my first SAT test... such improvement... but NOOO, NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE POSH IVY LEAGUE!! heh heh heh~

i finally mastered one lighter trick. well, not really mastered, but it works 4 out of 5 times now... :p

finally watched the recorded second half of "hitler: the rise to evil"... it was good! better than the first half. it got me all interested in the WWII nazi atrocities again... even tho they didn't talk about that stuff in the movie. they only covered hitler's "rise to evil", heh. from him being a soldier in WWI to him growing into power and becoming absolute ruler of germany. i can't help but think that the movie is filmed thru tinted lenses tho... cuz i'm the kinda person who believes that everyone has their redeeming qualities. whether or not everyone's redeeming qualities can make up for their faults is one thing, but everyone DOES have these values, and i don't think they portrayed any in the movie... i think the only part in the movie where ppl didn't feel negative towards hitler would be when he was listening to wagner's music, and was completely and utterly moved by it...

on a lighter note, i remembered my biggest joke of the day, heh heh... on the way to richmond, we found out that gas is now 64.9! and this is what i said...
"wow... 64.9! and it'll probably go down even more after the war ends!"
"....................................... what?"
"oh................. did the war.... already end..........?"
"AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!"
posted by melody at 5/26/2003 09:21:00 p.m.

i'm testing... if u haven't figured that out yet...
posted by melody at 5/26/2003 04:23:00 p.m.

bogus
posted by melody at 5/26/2003 04:18:00 p.m.

baa
posted by melody at 5/26/2003 04:01:00 p.m.

whoopeedo, no shower, but back w/ a survey. tho i'm gonna have to delete a lot of questions that i've already answered during my survey craze a while ago...

[HAVE YOU EVER...]
Loved someobdy so much it makes you cry?: too many times. u'd think i'd learn...
Drank alcohol?: thankfully, no.
Done drungs?: no...
Broken the law?: erm... small ones... i think... no felonies
Ran away from home?: not really
Broken a bone?: NOPE, i'm all intact, whoopee! *touch wood*
Cheated on a test?: is there any other way to pass? heh
Skinny Dipped?: no, freeze... well i did as a kid. wait... do u mean skinny dip in underwear or TOTALLY NAKED... cuz if it's the latter then of course no... lemmie tell u a little story about this little type of fish, very very very small fish... they're blind, but they usually live as a parasite in the fish gills of larger fish, they way they get there is, they follow the nitrogen in the gills. however, human urine contains nitrogen... so if u peed in the lake, these fish have been known to swim up the urine duct... and on their way up, they open their fins (or is it scales, can't remember) and cut u ALL THE WAY UP. it's really really really gross. and painful. DO NOT PEE IN LAKES/PONDS ETC.
Played strip poker?: *ahem*
Played Truth or Dare?: yes, but crappy truth or dare, b/c everyone knows everything already
Flashed Someone?: sure.... flashed my highbeam lights at them... heh.
Mooned Someone?: what's mooned someone... go naked u mean? i'm confused...
Kissed anybody?: yes
Kissed someone you didn't know?: WHAT? no.
Been on a talk show/Game show?: no.. well... i was the audience on super sunday, heh heh.
Been in a fight?: catfight!! heh. come to think of it, i don't think i've been in CATfights. normal fights yes, but that was very very long ago, i'm a changed woman, i swear... i won't bite or anything... u can come closer....
Rode in a fire truck?: nope
Got hit by a car?: nope. wait, lemmie think... nope. unless u count the dumbass Z3 girl who bumped into the back of my car, grrr.
Been on a plane?: back and forth and back and forth.. ugh i'm so sick of planes.
Come close to dying?: i don't think so... unless u count those times when i almost could've died jay-walking or not shoulder-checking when i change lanes, etc...
Snuck online?: why does anyone have to sneak to go online...?
Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride?: yes~
Eaten a worm/mud pie?: oh god GROSS!
Swam in the ocean?: yes, but just playfully, never swam far. or i might've in hawaii, can't really remember.
Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up?: yeah, but i can't remember them... i remember there was this one dream that had me wake up in tears once... i remember i was in tw.... in my newer apartment... but i can't remember at all what it's about... i'm pretty sure it's in one of my journals somewhere.. hmm maybe i should go find out...

[WHAT ABOUT...]
Abortion?: no. but somehow there has been weird rumors about it before, heh.
Under Age Drinking?: nope.
Rap?: rap...? as a joke, yes.... heh. but i really really really suck.
Slow Jams?: what's "slow jam"...
Country?: oh are we talking about whether or not i LIKE these genres of music??? if that's what u're asking, then some country are ok... like that celebrity song, b/c the mtv was so good... heh.
Alternative?: i never understood what "alternative" stands for...
Heavy Metal?: UGH. NO. there are very very very few exceptions. and i have to be in the mood for it too...
Classical?: no. no. no.
Oldies?: sure, why not... not the happy giddy oldies tho, it has to be those timeless ones... heh.
Soap Operas?: friends!! 70's show!!
(ok this is like the worst survey)
Chores?: chores??? as in laundry, dishes, garbage, etc?? HELL NO!

[WHAT IS...]
The kinkiest thing you've ever done and with who?: that question is so twisted i'm not even gonna bother thinking about it
The worst song you've ever heard?: when that keith guy on american idol tried to sing "like a virgin"... or... anything by shaggy, ugh.
Best song you've ever heard?: BEST??? u can't name one favourite... that's impossible....
The most emabarrassing CD in your collection?: umm lemmie think... if ppl were to come look they'd probably be most shocked by the eric suen cds... i think. but cds that i'd be embarrassed to let other ppl know about? lemmie go take a look... no... i'm not embarrassed by any of them. maybe i'm embarrassd b/c i have a couple juno and twins songs in my burned cds... and cookies. :p
Your bedroom like?: messy. filthy. gross. haha. oh did u mean what it's SUPPOSED to be like? :p. single bed, bookshelf, workstation-type desk, lamp, 3 wardroob thingies, big mirrored doors for the closet... brownish walls, beigh carpet, all furniture is wood... half of it is from ikea.. there's also computer chair and the poang (from ikea)... yar... that's my room... and a window...
You favorite thing for breakfast?: hot chocolate from blue chip cookie made by the nice brunette guy. food-wise maybe... err... the french toast that mom makes. haven't had that for years... literally. *weep*
You favorite thing for lunch?: as in pick something from what i would normally have for lunch? maybe korean bbq...? or.. oh, japanese food... sushi, zaru soba, etc.
You favorite thing for dinner?: ribs. steak. etc. bring on the red meat. with mashed potatoes on the side.
Your house like?: i don't have a house, but my apartment is really nice... it's just me who messed it up, so my apartment unit doens't look as good as it should. the last couple who lived here (actually the only people who lived here before me) made a really nice place out of it, with a lot of expensive furniture... i remember a very impressive bombay bed that my real estate agent said was $3000+... o___0"

[WHICH IS BETTER...]
Coke or Pepsi?: always coca-cola!
Oranges or apples?: apples. well, i'd prefer mandarins over apples maybe...
One pillow or two?: 1 is good for me.
Pools or hot tubs?: pool... i need to be able to swim around..
Tall or short?: umm, for starbucks coffee, i'd really prefer grande... heh. for myself, i wish i was more like 5'3, and hopefully that extra 1.5 inches can all go to my legs...
TV or radio? TV~ well.. only if there's something good on.. otherwise music is better....
Bike or rollerblade?: bike~
Dress or Skirt?: can i pick neither...? i don't really like skirts/dresses... if i have to pick then skirt that goes below my knees....
T-shirt or tanktop?: t-shirts to hide flabby arms, heh heh.
Sweet or Dil Pickles? there's a difference...?
Chips or popcorn?: umm... umm... umm... ooh this is hard. for everyday, chips. for movies, popcorn, with lots of margarine..
Peace/ying yang/smiley face?: peace... i remember buying an earring with the peace symbol dangling down when i was a kid. i didn't know that it was the peace symbol, i just thought it was fascinating... i was actually disappointed to find out it was the peace symbol, b/c it made me feel almost like what a nazi symbol makes ppl feel... powerful....... heh. they should have a better symbol for peace...
Movies or TV?: movies
Music or Computers?: OMG, why would u make anyone make such a tough choice?? err... err... .music...
Telephone or TV?: hmm... depends on the show, depends on the show. i guess tv... it's been a long time since i had a good phone conversation.
McDonalds or Burger King?: BURGER KING! WHOPPER!
Dairy Queen or TCBY?: what's TCBY... i don't like dairy queen. more instinctively than b/c of the food... i've never had dairy queen.. ever....
Beach or Pool?: beach. b/c there's sand... and buoyancy force...
Internet or Phone?: internet... i think... umm... yes...
Day or Night?: this is the last person's answer: "night. so i can sho off my xenon headlight! MUAHAHAHHAHA BLIND THE OTHERS!!!!" --> that is so freaking evil... i hate ppl w/ xenon headlights... i mean, they're cool, but they really really hurt... *sigh*. but i like night better too.. i function better, i think better, i feel better... and there's no cops... need for speed... heh.
Swing or Slide?: swing~ unless it's one of those really cool, really long, really high slides...

[ARE YOU...]
A Vegetarian?: no... i like veggies a lot more than the avg kid, but no.. can't live w/o meat.
A good student?: i used to be... not anymore... well, if u're judging by GPA... if u're judging by study habits or class attendance then i was never a good student.
A good Driver?: umm... i would have to say... no... well i'm a responsible driver... if there's passengers i keep a lot more alert than usual...
Good at sports?: no.. i suck. i suck sooo much.
A good singer?: nope. can't carry a tune. at all. i'm tonedeaf. this survey is hurting my self-esteem...
Good Actor/ Actress?: sure...? i'm good at making ppl believe what i want them to believe.. but if i had to act in a play or movie, i think i'm the kinda person that can't really get into character...
Sexy/Sporty?: definetly not sporty. not the sexy type either.
Romantic? i try to be, but if u go out w/ buubuu it's kinda hard... if u keep up ur romantic expectations u're just gonna get disappointed. :p

[HAVE YOU EVER HAD...]
Chicken Pox?: yes (hahaha, cow pox, small pox...)
Strep Throat?: what's that...?
Mono?: huh?
Flu?: WHO HASN'T??
Cold?: see previous ans.
Stitches?: i don't think so.. oh, i think i got a couple when they had to remove a glass bit from my foot. i was like two or three years old, and i stepped on a broken piece of glass, and it hurt but i didn't want to tell my parents, i forgot why... so i walked around on my foot w/ the glass in it for a day or two before my mom noticed and took me to the doctor, and they had to have it surgically removed. they didn't do a very good job tho, there's still this lump on the bottom of my foot... feels more like a callouse...
Bloody Nose?: yup. the thing is... i only get really really small nose bleeds, like the blood doesn't actually drip out of my nose. i've only had a real nose bleed like once or twice in my life. in fact, i only recall having it ONCE. and i remember thinking "wow i NEVER have nose bleeds". and that was when my grandpa from dad's side was still alive, so that was like... before gr.3...?
Surgery?: to remove that piece of glass...
Someone say they hate you?: yeah i bet a lot of ppl hate me. heh.
Someone besides your family say they love you?: yes

you have a bf or gf?: yes
you have a crush on someone?: yes
you wish you could live somewhere else?: yes... *sigh*
you think about suicide?: not lately. not seriously... not... much...
you believe in online dating?: no... i think once u log off, the feeling kinda fades, and u kinda get on with ur "real" life... until the next time u log on...
others find you attractive?: the wrong ppl usually do. heh heh.
you want more piercings?: YES!! still want one ear hole on the side on right ear. or two... heh. i kinda still wanna try a nose ring too...
you want more tatoos?: i don't have any yet... but i'd like a couple. but not till they've perfected laser removal of tatoos, and i can afford it... so no time in the near future, heh.
you drink?: nooope. never.
you do drugs?: no...
you like cleaning?: ugh i hate cleaning. i do it once every couple months tho...
you write in cursive or print?: print. i can't write cursive. like, seriously, i don't know how.
you carry a donor card?: nope... i've been thinking about getting one, but then i'm not exactly sure how i feel about it yet.. especially after dissection class in biol140... ppl have no respect for the things they dissect...

oh what...? that was it? o-e. anyway, # questions deleted: 3.
o-e... better go shower now. it's 6am, and we have to meet up for cass bbq at 10:30am... *yawn* no sleep again...? damn i think i'm having one of my fake fevers again.. >________<"
posted by melody at 5/24/2003 09:09:00 p.m.

it's been a while, hasn't it... been kinda busy.

currently listening to: shunza, "dear shunza"
i luv the first track of this cd, even tho it's more of a prelude track... it's mixed with those old radio song quality... it goes:
"baby it's cold outside and i don't wonder why things go on in my life and i know that i should get myself together oh baby it's out of reach i don't know why baby what's going on can't telll me why baby it's cold outside and i don't wonder why... (fade out)"

anyway, let's see where i left off... i think the last documented day was tuesday, so wednesday...

i slept till 2ish on wednesday... watched some tv and then went to eat pho in richmond with jenny and david... since wednesday was another one of those days that david said he'll come see me, and i wait and wait and wait forever till i just can't wait anymore... after that me and jenny went to richmond center, supposedly to check out possible jobs and purchase more AE shirts... the only things i got were jugo juice and a gap kids job application form... which i have filled out but haven't handed in yet. it seems so futile to me, sincre my work experience colomn (which takes up 2/3 of the front page) is absolutely empty. i can't even think of any temporary jobs or even one day jobs that i can put on there... and they don't ask for highschool GPA, heh. i should've gotten a job in gr11/12 when my resume still looked good... damnit. and also, if i handed in the application form, i would be up against jenny, since she's applying for the same job. and her work experience columns are full.... haha. unless i give a REALLY good interview... not really... :p

by the time we got back to vancouver it was 7pm already, which really really sucked, cuz i had a big psyc test on thursday... and i couldn't study on thursday either cuz i had psyc research experiment and physics lab from 12-4pm... so i went straight to koerner library to try to concentrate, but i couldn't.. i spent quite some time filling out the gap thing, and then studying a bit for my physics lab... then i tried to go over the class notes for psyc, and in the end all i accomplished was to read intro+2 chapters of my notes and do the intro section questions for the study guide... sooo little. that was partially b/c when i really started concentrating and studying w/ the study guide, i found out that the library was closing.. at 10pm!! they close at 10PM in the summer!! damnit, ppl still need to study in the summer!!! ai. near 10pm too i somehow started getting a lot of calls, from the psyc research ppl, from david.. i don't get it, when u whisper into the phone "i'm in the LIBRARY", does that mean NOTHING to ppl? why do they expect u to carry on a normal conversation? AI. (i'm somehow very irritated right now.. maybe it's my triggered memory of the psyc test. :P)

after that i saw buubuu for like 10 minutes... got some macdonald's, got some miss vickie's garlic and herbs chips at sev... such a rip-off... the same chips at blockbuster is $2.99, at safeway is $3.29 (surprisingly), and at sev it's $3.49. tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk. finally really settled down to study at 11ish...studied NON-STOP till 4:30am and collapsed.. set the alarm clock for 6:10am, really got up at 7am.. tried to study but got so dizzy, so i kinda half-studied and half-slept till i finally gave up at 10am, slept till 11am... rushed to go do the psyc research study...

the psyc study was kinda interesting... they got... oh wait... i'm not supposed to say anything about it b/c other ppl might still participate in the study... but what is the likelihood that someone who will participate in the same study will see this blog and understand what the study is all about? heh. basically what the person was trying to prove is that if u have rather low self-esteem, u will be tempted to compare urself w/ others. that is so true, especially illustrated by 3 questions on the test... well, it works in my case.
1. are u anticipating to see ur performance on these psyc tests? (extremely so)
2. are u anticipating to see the other person's performance on these psyc tests? (not really)
3. are u anticipating to compare ur performance on these psyc tests w/ the other person? (yes)

we got to pick some psyc tests for the other person to do, and some for ourselves to do. however, we found out in the end that we don't actually do the tests.. heh. damnit, i wanted to see how i performed... i think the tests i chose for myself were... self-esteem test, social sensitivity test, umm... i dunno what else... i remember there were also other interesting tests like jealousy test, emotional intelligence test, verbal intelligence test... aww, i wanna do the tests... heh.

the partner i got for the psyc research experiment was also in my psyc 100 class, tho we weren't allowed to talk to each other during the test... it's kinda impolite but i didn't ask for her name, even tho we talked for a bit after the psyc experiment, and again in class before the test... :P i was asking her about the test material and she told me she hasn't gone since the first class cuz the prof is so slow, heh. she's right tho, most if not all of the stuff on the test turned out to be in the textbook, but then the lectures are so interesting...

after psyc test i got some subway and went to study in the office... i think i go to the office too much... i finally fell asleep around 4:50-5:15... so little sleep, waking up every 5 minutes to shut off my cell alarm clock... right after i finally got up eugene came to the office to study too, so i finally really woke up and focused on what i was reading... but too bad, i still don't think i did very good on the test... all the MC questions were drawn from the text reading, which he told us beforehand, but i didn't expect them to be so detailed. and for a lot of questions all the answers are right but we had to pick the best one.. and my SAT MC deduction skills weren't applicable to the exam, heh. i hope i did alright. or rather i hope that i did good relative to other ppl, heh. it was hard trying to go over my exam a second time.. 6 short answers and 80 multiple choice... cuz when i started going over my answers everyone started to leave. well not everyone, more like.. the 240 people there all started to get up to leave ONE BY ONE... so it was non-stop noise of ppl leaving... ugh.

oh, oh, OH... this girl in my psyc class had the super expensive triple5soul jacket. yes, the $140.00 jacket.. *weep* rich ppl... damn rich ppl. damn rich skinny ppl. heh heh... it's ok... she's not pretty... she's not pretty... ok that doesn't make me feel better......

i really wanted to do stuff after psyc test... get starbucks or something... since all i had that day was a 6-inch sub.. but roz wanted to stay home, jenny was watching matrix.. everyone else was prolly watching friends or chinese tv... *sigh* i found out later that jenny n peter catched the 8:30pm matrix, nooooo, i could've gone. >___< now i'll have to find someone else to watch it with... can't count on david going to see it with me. he's promised to watch a thousand movies with me. b/c of him i still haven't seen lord of the rings: two towers. can u believe that? i can't believe that... GRRR.

i think i still ended up sleeping late on thursday night... something like 12 something, or 1am... that's kinda early for me already tho. :p then was today(friday)... as usual, got up to go to physics...

kinda bombed my last physics midterm, got 55%. well at least i passed. the marker was mean this time tho, i didn't get any pity marks... i didn't even get marks for writing down and manipulating the correct formulas (i plugged in wrong numbers)... damn... i thought physics works in a part mark basis?? *sigh* this time the class average was 60%, which means that if they scaled it i would prolly get a failing mark, since the range was pretty extreme... a few ppl got PERFECT... freaks. girl next to me (name's yang btw) got... 85%? prolly a bad mark for her, heh.

kinda a disappointing morning, cuz there was physics, and there was my physics mark... but especially disappointing cuz my hot chocolate wasn't hot... heh. every morning on tuesdays thursdays and fridays, i always get a medium hot chocolate from blue chip cookies. i go there so often that i fear not leaving tip... which is weird, b/c prolly only 10% or less of the ppl who go to coffee shops actually tip the cahsier... the hot chocolate is $3.05, so i usually pay $3.10... yeah... only 5 cents.. but 5 cents 3 times per week for the entire summer is gonna build up... heh.

anyway, yeah... today the usual nice guy didn't make my hot chocolate, the chubby blonde guy w/ glasses did.. he produces uneven results.. somedays he makes ok drinks, somedays he makes "warm" chocolate w/ way too much whip cream. *sigh*

went home after class, slept for quite a while... weirdly i was having trouble sleeping... which is weird, considering how tired i was... phoned jenny at 3ish to make sure she's not coming to live w/ me soon, so i didn't have to clean up the place, then i slept smoothly till 5pm, heh. i was waiting for david to come see me, he promised he would, and he promised we'd have dinner, and he also promised last time that next time we have dinner out we'd have mongolian bbq... as i mentioned last time, i've been craving mongolian bbq for 7 months... but no. he didn't come... i called at 5:30, he said he'd be done within 2 hours.. he wasn't. it became 9pm, i started expecting him to show up, but he didn't. it was 9:30, i thought alright, i haven't ate ANYTHING the entire day, we can go eat al u can eat jap food. but no, by 10pm he still wasn't here. i called, and he was EATING WITH HIS CLUB FRIENDS. so fuck it, why am i always sitting home like an iddiot wasting my time and waiting for him? why am i spending my entire life waiting for this guy? why the fuck did i stay in vancouver b/c of him?? i don't think i've ever been more annoyed by waiting... i'm so tired of his fucking promises that he'll be here as soon as he can, soon, soon, soon. yeah, if soon means hours and hours till there's no time for anything and no where to go.

damnit... i don't feel like blogging anymore, and i haven't even gotten to tonight, which is actually worth blogging about.. screw it.. i'll shower and see if i still want to ramble on.
posted by melody at 5/24/2003 08:01:00 p.m.

"u ask me if i love u
and i choke on my reply
i'd rather hurt u honestly
than mislead u with a lie
and who am i to judge u
on what u say or do
i'm only just beginning
to see the real u

and sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and i have to close my eyes
and hide

i wanna hold u till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold u
till the fear in me subsides

romance and all its strategy
keeps me battling with my pride
but through all the insecurity
some tenderness survives
i'm just another artist(?)
still trapped within my truth
a hesitant prize fighter
still trapped within my youth

at times i'd like to break u
and drive u to your knees
at times i'd like to brealk thru
and hold u endlessly

at times i understand u
and i know how hard u try
i watch my love command u
and i watch love pass me by
at times i think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again

sometimes when we touch
the honesty's too much
and i have to close my eyes
and hide

i wanna hold ya till i die
till we both break down and cry
i wanna hold u
till the fear in me subsides
subsides"

-- ron steward, "sometimes when we touch"

such a good song.
don't know what's with me and old songs these days.
i don't agree that putting lyrics and jokes in blogs is a waste of space...
if u see something good or hear something good, then it's common courtesy to share, isn't it?

reading roz and jenny's blogs about the japn exchange students... *sigh* i don't really remember a lot about being in japan anymore... maybe b/c i don't really think about it. i don't think about a lot of things... not necessarily because i want to forget them... i guess it just slips my mind sometimes, to remember to remember. this morning in the shower i realized that i haven't seen mom for over 3 months, and i haven't seen dad for over 5 months... i would've cried, but i knew i couldn't very well attend a full day of class with swollen, irritated eyes. it hurts to realize ur responsibilities...

my new citizenship card is lying on my desk right now. even the face on it seems foreign to me... i have a lot of my IDs laid out in front of me actually...
internation student identity card, "name: Lu, H.T.", "student at: Point Grey"
ubc library/AMS card, "name: Lu, Melody Hsiao-Tzu", "undergraduate"
driver's license, "name: Lu, Hsiao-Tzu", "birthdate: 1984/02/27"
citizenship card, "name "Lu, Melody Hsiao-Tzu", "birthdate: 1984/01/27"

nothing on these identification cards seem to agree with each other, or are correct... i'm not even born in january.. if they don't pass the correction and let me change it to feburary, then in canada for all legal purposes i will be born in january. i'll be a month older b/c some dumbass at citizenship and immigrations didn't see the footnote for the birthdate correction on my landing paper... and somehow this makes me melancholy...

am i too melodramatic? i guess i must be...
somehow whenever i question my identity, i start thinking about junior high first year in taiwan... why is that? do i identify myself with that girl that year? or is it just b/c that's where i feel like i left off from, when i left home?

i may have a place here, actually own it too, for a change... i have my car, friends, i have my life here. but not for a second am i able to identify it as a home... this is the first time i've lived in a city consecutively for over 5 years... sometimes, times like right now, i want nothing more than to leave this place... and i don't even know why.
posted by melody at 5/21/2003 04:56:00 p.m.

just watched "introducing dorothy dandridge" on tv and now i'm watching some other movie that i just know i've already seen, but i have no idea what happens in it or what it's about... it's called "point of no return" or something like that...

anyway, if u haven't, u must watch "introducing dorothy dandridge", especially if u don't even know who the woman is... she was the first african american woman to be nominated for an oscar for best actress for her role as carmen. in the movie she's played by halle berry, who was the first african american woman to win an oscar for best actress. that's the best coincidence ever~ or... not really a coincidence... but... yeah... when halle berry won the oscar i remembered this movie... esp. b/c she included dorothy dandridge in her speech. anyway yeah, go watch the movie! it's good!

got to class late again this morning so i didn't have time to look over what little notes i made about physics... i think i failed that midterm, or if i'm lucky i just managed to pass, i don't know... *sigh* it's alright tho, it's only 5%.. and my lab TA marks so easily i think i'll have like 90% for my lab section. actually for the past two labs i have 92.5% average, YAY! heh heh. i still have to pass my physics final tho, that'll be the big thing.

for the first time today i got a lab partner who was obviously planning on copying me, heh. we finished the experiment alright tho. then i went to buubuu's, kinda slept for a bit, then had a very quick dinner with his family. it was kinda freaky, having dinner with his ENTIRE family (well, missing one sister...) but it wasn't as freaky as i thought... i need to learn more polite cantonese... like language u would use to bf's parents... all the cantonese i've learned are slangish, extrememly casual.. oh... not very PRish eh. :p

maybe i should stop blogging during commercial breaks, my thoughts kinda break off and... don't make sense.. like so. heh.
posted by melody at 5/21/2003 03:43:00 p.m.

taking a much needed but not quite deserved break from studying physics... *sigh*

kinda wasted my day again... i was supposed to sleep till 3pm and then lock myself up somewhere in ubc and study till night time... but as u might expect, that is not what i did at all...

kinda got up at 12ish, had lunch with (crazy) peter... i have to figure out a better way to differentiate and notate ppl's names... (and by differentiate i don't mean taking the slope of...)
so. goals to accomplish
i can't keep on calling shaolin and shaopin both as "shao"
i should stop the whole "our peter", "crazy peter", "narcisstic peter" thing...
it's weird to refer to jim as "cu
there's gotta be a better way to separate "jenny" from "jenn" too.

i don't seem to have problems separating davids tho... :p

anyway... right... lunch... was... ok... i guess waking up early ruined my appetite... completely... didn't want to eat at all... ok now i get sick when i try thinking about lunch... it was TOO EARLY!! -____-" half of lunch was spent w/ peter's st. george friends... i still can't quite name what's wrong w/ private school guys, but there seriously is something wrong w/ them... it's either the things they talk about, or their perspectives on them... or maybe it's just that different experiences shape ppl and i'm suffering from some sort of mild cultural shock... yeah... that must be it... private school kids are indeed their own species...

went to safeway where i tried persuading peter to buy junk food, and he thought what's her name, jessica baxbaum's sister is cute or something (maybe it's the TASTE of private school guys... they seem to like the fake/bitchy/high maintenance type). then PETCETERA!!! WHEEHEEHEE! i stared at white lab mice for the longest time... it was kinda disgusting tho, cuz it's mating season... which means that all the mice/hampsters etc had enlarged nuts... ridiculously large... ugh ugh ugh. the fish tanks there were disgusting... there were so many dead fish in various fish tanks... one of them was moulding and had weird stuff growing on it... another tank just contained two dead fish floating around... the grossest (is there such a word?) tank contained one kinda rotten dead fish, and one fish was pulling at the dead fish's intenstine (or just strand of half digested food..) and eating it... ultra, ultra gross...

the adoption center was open today... i didn't know we could go in there unattended... till today... heh. there was only one dog there, a pretty big one... i think it felt kinda left out, cuz i spent most of the time looking at the cats, and so did this entire japanese family there... :p can't help it, just like cats a little bit better... if it was a small dog maybe it would've been different. the cats were cool.. there was a white one and i think it had fleas, cuz it kept on grating itself against the cage, and when i helped him scratch he stayed there... which probably wasn't a good idea for me, cuz then what if i get flea eggs under my finger nails... i actually didn't think about that till now.. eww. there was also this really pretty white/grey cat, it looks like a mix of english blue and something w/ longer fur... so cute, even tho it bites and scratches, i like it anyway... it didn't really scratch me anyway.. or maybe i just pulled back my hand in time... hmm...

yeah... happy moment of the day (19th): being in petcetera and looking at the white lab mouse n cats. :)

got home at 4 something... wasted my time... i watched the recorded hitler film thingy... it was alright... kinda too much detail stuffed into 2 hours, and a lot of stuff was left unsaid, kinda expecting u to know... that's not good... i'm still confused about a lot of stuff... the second part looks good tho, it's gonna be on CBS on wednesday at 9pm.

after that i watched some more other tv... (NOT PORN JENNY!!) then i slept for a bit.. got up, more tv... threw in some laundry and went to david's house. except i got gas and stb too... damn, today's the first time in a long while that i miscalculated and the gas overspilled again... a lot of it... >___< i need to wax my car soon, i seriously do... need to find time to wash/wax car, and have to buy the paint restoring pen from toyota and fix that big rock chip... that just reminds me, stupid peter who thinks that to wash car + get interior cleaned for $35 is CHEAP... well he got a parking ticket while we were at lunch, i'll forget his spoiled thoughts for once.

didn't really study at buubuu's... i just organized my physics notes... usually when i re-copy notes i learn the material, but physics sucks, i copied so much but i don't understand a thing... damn. we cooked the really really good ramen instant noodles i bought in tw, sooo sooo good. :) and then david's mom told me to go for dinner tmw... which kinda sux cuz my class starts at 6pm, which would mean they're having dinner at 5pm b/c of me... -____-"

left buubuu's at 12:15am... got parking pass from rozzie... went to mac's to buy gum... passed TD bank... changed my mind, 360-ed in the middle of dunbar to go back to TD... got $... went home... stayed in the garage to listen to a song... listened to it again... heh. then came up, did some more laundry, watched the recorded "mr. personality"....

OH OH OH!! SHE CHOSE WILL, HAYLEY CHOSE WILL!! excellence, heh heh. although i THINK if it were me, i would choose neither... even tho will is alright looking and is afterall a millionaire, i think he might be overly possessive and jealous... (hmm, that sounds like someone i know... *sigh*). and chris' hypnotic stuff is just UGH... i'd probably choose will but not accept the proposal... yar~ but whatever, she made a good choice... and she ended up choosing the richest guy w/o knowing it. that's always cool to some point. it's like joe millionaire really becoming a millionaire. (tho that one didn't work out...)

ai, i can't believe i'm enjoying one of these shows where they get one person to date 20 ppl simultaneously and then u watch them get dumped one by one... heh heh.

mannnn... it's almost 5??? i have to be up and leaving in less than 4 hours... GRR. i think i'm gonna go sleep soon... this isn't worth it... it's only 5%... it's only 5%...

lemmie try to think of my worst moment of the day...
*thinks really hard*
*frowns*
ok i can't decide on one...
for today, that's a good thing...
oh wait... i think i have it...
the worst moment of the day(19th) is RIGHT NOW, b/c i'm getting that dizzy sick feeling from lack of rest, and i know i'm completely unprepared for my physics test, and although i know that everything is going to be alright, sometimes that just doesn't seem like enough... sometimes u just want everything to be more than just "alright", u want everything to be RIGHT... *sigh*

i wish i could just sit here and listen to music and keep on typing up my thoughts, they seem to keep coming right now... of course a lot of it i'm keeping private, :p.

currently listening to : southern all stars "suteki na yume wo kanaemasho"
i have no idea what the lyrics are about, i don't even know exactly what the song title means. but it sounds good... relaxing... it reminds me of "somewhere over the rainbow". but that just might be b/c "somewhere over the rainbow" comes before this song on my mp3 playlist... :p

currently struggling over: whether or not i should go to ACG dance and CSU dance... since none of my closer friends are going, i'd have to stick w/ david and his friends all night... that would suck. but letting david go by himself would suck too... i can't preach self discipline to him cuz i suck at it myself, ai. so this is why priests have to live austere lives... (or at least keep their secrets secret)... otherwise they wouldn't have the right to preach to others...
posted by melody at 5/20/2003 08:05:00 p.m.

*sigh*
still trying to figure out the counter thing. if u scroll down to the end of the page u will see a link to freewebcounter.com. yeah, that's where it's SUPPOSED to display the NUMBER of visitors... but no... it's screwed up... is it just me who really sucks at html, or is every free web counter provider lying?? o-e. if anyone knows how to write a counter... PLEASE contact me...
posted by melody at 5/19/2003 07:57:00 p.m.

Lady Macbeth


Which woman of Shakespeare are you?
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this was a pretty stupid quiz, but i don't mind being lady macbeth... she was cool... most ppl seem to remember her out of all the characters we studied in highschool. i'm not just talking about ppl i know... it's like whenever in an english lecture or discussion group the prof/TA will ask who is most memorable from highschool shakespeare, and ppl would all say lady macbeth. (or hamlet...) it's making me wanna go read macbeth... i keep on getting the plot mixed up with othello... :p

i was watching "adolf hitler: the rise of evil" on tv today.. cbs is featuring two 2-hour* films oh hitler's life... i only watched bits and pieces of it tho, cuz buubuu was here and there were other interesting shows on too. somehow we were both just ridiculously happy to see each other today. :) that was definetly my happy moment of the day. oh well, i recorded the hitler film... i'd watch it now, but then it'll be sunrise by the time i finish... and i need sleep... i intend to lock myself in the library (or ubc) tmw and study study study till they close up. or until 10ish to go bug roz about physics or something...

* damn, i forgot how to put in two numbers at once in a sentence. like, should it be "2 two-hour films", or "two 2-hour films"? it's bothering me.

we went to eat dou-fa at 11ish. mango dou-fa is so good... but one order never seems to be enough... tho two orders might be too much... they should have small and large... or just medium and large. or maybe large and extra-large... haha~

after that me and jenny rushed to rent a video before blockbuster closed. sux, i paid off the debt from returning MIIB late and we got chips, so it was $13... seems like a lot to pay for one movie and one bag of chips, heh heh. the chips (ms vickie's garlic and herb) was really good but it really hurt too... it was beyond crunchy, it was HARD... and so everytime i eat it too i can't hear the words from the movie, heh.

we rented i-spy... it was... ok... very pointless... didn't really make sense... can't stand eddie murphy's talking... he needs to slow down.. slow down!! heh. i think that the selling point of this movie is just owen wilson looking confused and being cute about it, just like that chinese show, something something 記, is just about louis koo looking cute and confused. haha~ :p

oooooh, they're playing this reaaally old TVBS drama with nicholas in it, makes me want chinese tv... since it's at 12:20am-2:20am at night, i can't really go watch it at other ppl's houses... tho nicholas looks dorky in it, and the make-up is soo bad... the thing is, he probably looks dorky cuz he was only... 16 or 17 when he starred in it? i think? i know the series first aired in like... 1998 or 1999... so.. yeah... he was probably... 17ish...

*sigh*, the media totally forgot about nicholas, it's so sad. :( it's all about juno n twins n jade n other ppl now... how can they forget nicholas.. wuuu. even if u don't like him, he is still some sort of legend... to cause so much controversy... haha.

went to the beach for a while after i left jenny's at 3am... well... more like half an hour... or more... i'm not even sure if i go to the beach b/c of the beach... i think it's just a place i go to now... cuz if my goal was the beach, why don't i just go to kits beach, which is 10 blocks away? why do i go all the way to spanish banks? i think it's b/c i like the drive... and also the parking lot is close to the water... hmm. but then when i go alone at night i mostly just stay in the car, listen to music, stare out at the stars and lights across the shore... it's funny how before i never noticed there was a shore, heh heh. it just feels nice to be there... i always wanna just fall asleep... too lazy to drive home, park, etc...

o-e. think i'd better go prep to sleep now, even if i don't want to at all... there are things in life that u know you should do. and u might not like it, but no matter how much u whine and procrasinate, it must be done, and u know it. like paying the bills, or mailing letters, or cleaning the house, or calling shaw cable, or filling my taxes, or changing and managing my bank account, or studying for phys and psyc and labs... (yes, those are the things i need to do tmw).
posted by melody at 5/19/2003 07:34:00 p.m.

this world is too fucking small.

let me resummarize why.
1) i live near a few altered celicas. there's mainly two white ones and one blue one, they're often parked outside on my block.
2) yesterday i saw one of them on broadway and noticed the url www.celicagarage.com on one of them's new spoiler.
3) i visited the website and found all of my "neighbours" profiles and viewed their cars online
4) i found out they had a huge annual spring meet at spanish banks last sunday. i was at spanish banks last sunday.
5) i just went to get dinner at subway. one of my neighbour celicas was also at subway getting subway.

i'm still amazed at how small this world is... heh. but back to that 'neighbour' celica tho, so nice... white GTS, and he REALLY kept it shiny white. *slobbers* it was so nice, and it wasn't overdone... i think, it was lowered, body kit, spoiler, wheel rims, exhaust pipe, and judging from the sound of it he definetly did something to the engine... vroom vroom... now i can retort when david laughs at celica's horsepower, b/c these ppl really boost their engine up to like 250+hp... *slobbers* and i also found out that u can add lamborghini doors on celicas... as in those doors that open upwards... tho it's not very practical, and costs $8000. heh. i guess to some ppl $8000 is small expense... (ie matthew who i heard is spending $30,000 to fix his M3... -____-" that's like almost enuff to buy my car...)

ai~ i wanna go driving now... but it's only 8pm... no speed... and there's probably still ppl at the beach... and oh yeah... i'm supposed to be studying... i'll probably end up with just near passing marks again... and my chem final that i still have to do.. ARGH!!! 好煩吶!!

i guess i have been rather unhappy for the past 3-4 days... except i must've been hiding it well, cuz i didn't even notice myself... i'm ready to blame it on the headaches, but really, am i getting headaches B/C i'm 煩燥? x__X" o-e, now that i mention it, my head's hurting again.

i spent the entire day in bed... all day till 6pm... then as usual there was no one to have dinner w/... there never seems to be anyone to do anything with when i call... or sometimes i end up in scenarios like in "counterparts" by james joyce... in the story, farrington looks forward to go drinking after work all day. he pawns his watch for money, drinks it all up by buying his friends drinks, but by the end of the story he doesn't even feel drunk and regrets spending all that money buying ppl drinks. he ends up feeling grumpy and largely unsatisfied, feeling like he wasted his time and money... that's how i seem to feel a lot of the time these days....... *sigh*
posted by melody at 5/19/2003 11:26:00 a.m.

i found my neighbour, heh

the website put me to shame tho, i went on the msg board and most of the time i had no idea what they were talking about, heh heh. now i've got a headache from viewing tons of photos...

i also found out that they had an annual spring meet at spanish banks last sunday. i'm pretty sure i was at spanish banks last sunday too... damn!! heh heh~

ai, i'd join the club but do they really need an unmodded GT? :p
posted by melody at 5/18/2003 06:32:00 p.m.

i think to conpensate for friday's events, my body decided to rest completely on saturday... or maybe it was just my period. :p hurt so bad... :(
i didn't get up till... late late late afternoon. and i really just stayed in bed all day.. cept i got up to go pick up the car with buubuu, which somehow took something like from 5-7pm... when we got back to my place to get $ n drop off a car, buubuu wanted to finish watching the last quarter of the sacramento-dallas game, so i went to nap while he watched tv, but he watched tv till past 9pm... GRRR. we didn't end up having dinner as planned... i've wanted mongolian bbq for like half an year now, and still no one has been willing to go w/ me... :*( actually i think it might have been longer than half an year, b/c the last time i went was with dad, and the last time he was here was.. OCTOBER??? that can't be right... it's been 7 months??? my god.

anyway... me and buubuu argued and he left and had dinner w/o me. :( then we made up and we went to get food at #9, but then on the way back he pissed me off AGAIN... GRRR. he was driving my car cuz he didn't wanna screw up his tinted windows and i was having a headache, and there was this slow bus and a car ahead of us, so somehow he thought it was okay to pass the car and the bus while going thru an intersection and revving my car up to over 6000rpm... GRRRR. i don't think i've ever gone up to 6000rpm, EVER. this feeling sucks... even other than the car dealer and my dad, i wasn't the first to drive my car. and then david was the first one to go up to 5000rpm, for really no reason, shortly after i got the car.... and just moments before he went up to 6000rpm today, he was just asking if i had ever gone past 6000rpm, and i said no, and he goes ahead and does it. and PAST AN INTERSECTION TOO! anyone with common sense wouldn't have tried to pass the bus and car. anyone with ANY SENSE WHATSOEVER wouldn't have done it thru an INTERSECTION... i'm still mad... i'm still steaming. GRR. a while before that too he didn't even see a pedestrian with a dog crossing the intersection too. i feel like every time i go in the car w/ him now my life is being endangered.

ai, thinking about it is giving me an even bigger headache... think i'm gonna go rest now, tho i'm not sleepy at all... i really should be studying or cleaning... but oh well...

ohhh, have to complete the friday five first. i never seem to do this on fridays anymore...

1. What drinking water do you prefer -- tap, bottle, purifier, etc.?
bottled water i guess. i get my drinking water from safeway's water market thingy. they sell water containers that have a "tap" so it's easy to pour water, and my container is about 8L i think... can't remember. it makes me realize how little water i drink, heh. when i'm too lazy to go to safeway to fill it up tho i drink boiled filtered water. at school i drink bottled dusanj water, but the bottled water i REALLY prefer is the O2 one, i dunno what it's called, but it was the first oxygenated bottled water on the market, i like the blue label one... fyi, oxygenated water is not better for ur body than normal water. it makes no difference...

2. What are your favorite flavor of chips?
is there a grammatical error in the question? "are" and "flavor (singular)"? it's really bothering me. anyway, i'll take it to mean "what is/are ur favourite flavor(s) of chips" then. heh heh
i like sour cream and onion chips the best (esp for the ruffles brand, dunno what it's called). but the spicy flavours from doritos are good too... and i always like chips and salsa... but if we are considering chinese chips too, then the above mentioned will not even make my top 5 list i think. :p

3. Of all the things you can cook, what dish do you like the most?
i can't cook much... in fact i haven't tried cooking in so long i can't even remember what i can make... i guess roasted chicken wings, but i think that's largely b/c bull's eye sauce is so good, heh. or caesar salad, but that also depends more on the dressing... so... yeah... i dun really like my cooking then... heh.

4. How do you have your eggs?
sunny side up, and the yolk has to be liquid. :)

5. Who was the last person who cooked you a meal? How did it turn out?
i think it was hans and various other cass ppl during the camping trip, heh. i had the baked spaghetti in cream of mushroom sauce, pork and chicken leg... it was good.. surprisingly good actually, considering what they had to work with.

i think the friday five should be the friday 50. then it'll be like filling out a long survey every week... :)

it's 2:30am, still kinda early, but most ppl are asleep already anyway. wish there was someone to talk to.. *sigh*

oh yeah, i saw one of the celicas on the block today in front of cactus club, w/ another modified celica that i haven't seen before. i finally found out that they're from celica garage (as in celica garage.com). tho i think that the white celica looked better before it went all out fully modified... before it was just lowered pretty low + white wheel rims. then it got carbon fiber engine cap. now it has body kit and trd spoiler too... that would've looked nice, but then it went all out and had the car white/black schemed... i can't really describe it, this would be where a digicam would come in handy. :p the bumper is painted so that it looks like it has... ok i really can't describe the car. maybe i'll find a pic of it on the website... gonna go check it out now. and then i'll dream of celicas all night, heh heh.
posted by melody at 5/18/2003 05:05:00 p.m.

thought on my mind: jenny's gonna come live with me for 3 days while her dad gets quarintined at home after he comes back from hk, my brain is exploding with the million cleaning procedures i have to go thru to make my place somewhat presentable, heh. usually i clean my place up every time either one of my parents come, but they haven't been here for 3 months, so... i've stopped using the words "messy" and "dirty" to describe my apartment now... i now use "filthy" to describe it. :p

headaches, it's so annoying, my head has been hurting like crazy for the past few days. i don't even have a constant fever, even though it feels like i do... what happens now is that i get occasional small fevers, not exceeding 37.2, but my head continues hurting even after the fever cools down... -____-"

yesterday was one of those too eventful days... had my physics quiz, which really sucks, cuz all the questions were somewhat related, like one answer leads to another, and when i handed it in i realized that i had a different final answer than every other paper i looked at, and i checked the last question like 10 times too... so that means i must've gotten most or all of the questions on the quiz wrong.. damn. the prof told us we should really use the tutorial time when the TAs come in to answer questions at 11:45, but i left anyway, went to the office to read comics again. i think i might be the person who goes to the office the most during summer, heh.

after jenny got off winnie and us went to pg, but as i thought it was day 1 again and oyama wasn't there. again. *sigh* we went to see md. adrian tho, which felt reallly pointless, cuz there's absolutely nothing to talk about, heh heh. we circled around kerrisdale a bit before finally deciding to go to i-cafe, where me and jenny ordered disgusting larksa... well not disgusting, but i just reaaally didn't like it... :( i-cafe ALWAYS takes forever to get u change tho... this is the second time i've had to ask to get change already... evil scheme... where they don't give u change till u ask for it... grrr. don't they know that this way they'll get LESS tip??

after that we went to richmond... my head was really hurting again, i thought we were just gonna go to yaohan, so i went, but we ended up staying in richmond center till 6.... heh heh. shopping was fun tho, even tho i didn't really see much that i wanted, or could afford. :p stared at some more zippo lighters tho... and triple 5 soul jackets. we spent sooooo much time in american eagle picking out t-shirts... got so exhausted from it, mainly b/c i wasn't interested in the t-shirts at first, till the very very end, when i realized just how cheap they were, heh heh. the thing is, i'm so small already, and the t-shirts where in the guys' section, so unless i got XS and stuck it into the dryer, nothing would fit... i ended up buying the same shirt as winnie, a brown and white long sleeve baseball shirt. it's supposed to be double-sided, but the inside says "get on the bone", so i dun think i'm ever gonna wear that side....... heh. the thing is, buubuu tried it on today and he looked good in it... a lot better than i do, anyway. *sigh* i hope the next piece of clothing i buy will finally be for myself... *sigh*

i was gonna go home and sleep a bit before we went to the beach, but rozzie called to see if anyone wants to have dinner w/ her, so i went, since otherwise i'd have nothing to eat before beaching, and i really dun wanna have fastfood again... we went to asa sushi, and the service took FOREVER, as usual, for a friday night... somehow i dun get irritated if the service is slow at asa, but i would at any other restaurant... maybe it's b/c after going there so many times i know how the waiters and kitchen ppl are reallly busy and they never get to take breaks and they feel bad about the slow service too. maybe that's the case at other restaurants too, i just don't know it. *pauses*. yeah, no, the other restaurants have no shame. :p

after dinner i got home and changed and stuff, then drove david to drop off his car at chris' to get his windows tinted. SUCKS, i was following david's car and talking on the phone, david left turned so i had to follow him cuz i didn't know where i was going, so i tried left turning on the yellow light, but this mazda was running the yellow light too, i didn't see him at all b/c of the oncoming left turn car, so we were like a few centimeters away from crashing... x_____X" i think if i wasn't on the phone at the time i'd be a lot more freaked out than i was, cuz then i would've thought about what just happened, heh. that ruined my mood tho, cuz following david's car really really sucks. it already sucks that he gets to go to chris' to get his windows tinted but i only get to go to chris' to get my dents fixed. :(

and then to make things worse, nobody wanted to go to beach anymore, cuz it was quote and unquote cold. pish.. it wasn't cold. but it WAS raining. *sigh* it wasn't supposed to rain... we should've gone on tuesday as planned, since we changed it to the weekend for other ppl but they didn't want to come... after a lot of calling and confusion jenny winnie and pin came tho. but b/c buubuu was picky and annoying and paranoid, peter waited at the beach alone for like.. i dunno.. nearly an hour? felt so bad about it... ai. there was confusion too b/c peter thought that jericho beach was spanish banks... and we had to all meet up (3 cars) and then go to jericho, cuz there was a freakish amount of cops at spanish banks.. soooo many cops!! they had this cool half mini jeep thing too that let them drive on the sand, heh. i wanna play on one of those... hmm.

after arriving at jericho we started burning peter's gr.11 and 12 notes, part I... there was a grad party nearby i think, judging from the noise and the limos... and about 200m away from us there were two ppl burning candles in holes in the sand, winnie thinks it's a cult cuz one of them seemed to be wearing a red cape thing, heh. so we dug a hole too and started burning the notes, but it took amazing long... i dunno how long we were there for... just that it was really long, and cold, and rainy... jenny and pin left after a while too. when we thought we were finally done with all the burning, winnie found a stick and after poking at the fire we realized there were so much unburnt paper underneath... o___0" took soo long, that in the end we were so wet and tired and just rushed back to the car and left... no scenery or chatting, haha. can't help but question myself, is this what i've been looking forward to all week?? wind, cold, rain and smoke? *sigh* have to get my coat dry cleaned now... i'd better do it soon sometime... or handwash it.. hmm. i think i can hand wash it...?
posted by melody at 5/18/2003 04:55:00 p.m.

The Brainteaser Test, from emode.com

melody, you answered 28 out of 30 questions correctly!

Congratulations! Your score is in the 99th percentile. This means that if one hundred people took the test with you, your score would rank higher than 98 of them on average.

When we analyzed your test, we also discovered that when it comes to quantitative ability, you measure in the 100th percentile. This score indicates you have unusually strong abilities when it comes to solving numerical problems. If there is a numerical pattern to be found, you'll find it. You've got a knack for noticing when something "isn't right." Whether you're conscious of it or not, you have an ability to simply understand when something doesn't add up. Also, when it comes to splitting the check, doing taxes, or determining the number of fans in a baseball stadium, you're the one people turn to.

this report doesn't explain why i nearly failed math101, but i don't mind being told i'm smart... heh.
posted by melody at 5/17/2003 06:28:00 p.m.

i think... i have the 3rd best car in my garage... well in my opinion anyway... some other cars prolly cost more, since there's some trucks, big SUVs, etc... but if we're talking about cars i'd rather have... kaka is prolly 2nd or 3rd, heehee. there's also a bmw 330ci, and i like the audi a4 station-wagony one too... well, and if u dun count the occasional appearances of cars that replace the usual cars in the spots... ie. the passat guy changed to a honda motorbike for one day, the usually empty spot contained one of those vintage red roadsters for a couple days, the honda guy changed into the new smaller hummer for a week... heh i wanna drive a new car every week... oh, there's also another older bmw 328 or something, but it's red, and old, and it parks next to the shiny bmw330ci, so, yeah... heh.

damn tim, he just got a slk320(?) and then he gets an accord coupe and s2000 within weeks?! :*(
heh he's prolly one of the s2000s i saw cruising down ubc beach last time. heh~

slept for a bit in the afternoon after i showered, so wet hair... i was trying to sleep off the slight fever (36.8) but then i woke up at 37.2... -____-" got some burger king and went to psyc... which was pretty interesting today, we learned why einstein is so smart, heh.

he's missing a divider space btwn the part of the brain that deals with mathematical reasoning and the part that is responsible for visual thought/interpretation! and also something was larger, can't remember what. they have never discovered any brain EVER dissected that is missing the divider space, so that means einstein has a truly unique brain... wow. i wonder if there's anything screwed up about my brain structure that's making me special, in a good way.. hmm.

damn tho, the psyc prof is going too slow, so we have read all of chapter 3 ourselves and take notes... it'll still be tested equally on the exam tho. it's kinda annoying... his lectures are interesting, but then he talks about interesting stuff for quite a while, then rushes thru the powerpoint notes, often not giving us enough time to copy everything, and now we have to study material on our own? *sigh* maybe it's better than boring lectures... maybe...

my new job is to join all the psyc researches that pay money, haha. it's pretty good, they usually pay $10/hr if they offer money option (instead of course credit). i've already signed up for enough stuff to fulfill my max 4% credit, so now i get to get MONEY!! teeheehee. it's like a job with high pay, flexible hours (since i pick the time slots), and i'm protected by the psychological research ehtics commitee... wow.... heh. and i'm HELPING PPL... WOW!! haha

after class i went to eat pho in richmond alone~ doesn't seem to be worth it to call ppl up and see if they wanna come... i know that everyone was watching tv and ate already... then i got almost home when buubuu finished his meeting, so i went back to his house to study till 12:40ish, when his mom came down and nagged about him going to sleep, so kinda telling me that i should go, haha~ i was really working on my physics notes tho.. got a bit done... :) i realized i really need to study, ai. i have two hectic weeks in summer. one is the coming week, i have one phys midterm, 2 phys labs, one psyc research, one psyc exam all on tuesday and thursday. then there's another week in june that i have one physics midterm, psyc exam, and physics final all on same week.. ARGHHH. i'd swear that i'll never take two courses together in summer again, but i'll prolly have to... heh.

okie.. i'd better go sleeeep now, quiz in the morning on errors.. dun wanna make errors on my errors quiz... tar tars~ (damn, i keep on saying yar, gar, tar, har now, all from winnie's "yar" i think)
posted by melody at 5/16/2003 05:25:00 p.m.