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Tuesday, April 29, 2003
so... what i did today (monday)...
i was up from 12am-10am reading comics and what-not.. then i slept for 2 hours, more comics.. then spent time with buubuu. sucks, it was supposed to be the WHOLE day just us for the first time in months, but his club friends kept on calling and he went to manhattan, and i was pressured to go too... that would be my bad moment of the day(28th): an hour spent watching ppl i dunno smoke drink and gamble... -__________-" good moment of the day was when me n buubuu were watching the leslie tv moment special in the afternoon, i was ridiculously happy for no reason... i didn't know that leslie had long hair for his entire 2000/2001 concert... but the 造型 he had when he was singing american pie is sooo good, he looks so nice. it was so funny, a fan shouted "你好sexy啊!" leslie: "sexy? gum dou sexy? 等間幾件更sexy wor, 我驚你流鼻血ar!" ^______________________________^ it makes it so sad that he's gone, but i refuse to mourn~! o-e. i think i'll mourn my hair instead... it's not quite silky anymore but the color's not even nice. whyyyy why didn't i pay more to get it done in a salon... ~(o-0)~ got to drive buubuu's eclipse again after we left manhattan~ so smooth... nooooo i mustn't envy other cars, that will be betraying kaka... nooo i can't do that!!
i've become scary spice. against my will, i swear!
so i bought the l'oreal color experte hair color in caramel glaze... not the color i intended at all but david convinced me somehow, must've used black magic. but it doesn't really matter since my hair color is nothing like "caramel glaze". :p the base shade of brown barely showed, which was kinda what i expected, so i thought i'll just work on the highlights, and it'll all be good... but no... i screwed up the highlighting. big time.. so now my hair resembles scary spice during her scariest phase, except in shades of brown... i was saying how this screwed up dye job reminds me of grade 9. then i thought, oh crap, i do look like i'm in gr9 now. then: wait, no. in gr9 my hair was like 20 shades lighter. :p and now since one of the answers to my quiz has changed, i guess i'll post the answers~ the correct answer is bolded, and the # of ppl who chose each answer is in ( ). 1. my legal nationality? annoying american (2) think people, think! if i were american, would i call myself annoying? candid canadian (2) not yet, not yet. toxic taiwanese (10) classic cantonese (0) cynical chinese (3) 2. what's my current dog's name? koka (1) this is my other dog's name, but we gave him away... feifei (8) this is tricky, this is what I call my dog... dodo (2) but this is his REAL name buubuu (4) *speechless*.... yorkshire terrier (2) well this is his species... 3. if i won the lottery, the first thing i'll do is donate to charity (adpot kids in africa) (0) hey, i'll eventually get around to that! heh. cosmetic surgery (liposuction, etc) (4) get a financial advisor, accountant... (4) contact michael ho (5) sooo little ppl got this right!! sooo disappointed!! tell everybody i know (4) 4. hair color i have NOT tried b4 black (3) i've dyed my hair jet black twice blue (2) TRIED dying my hair midnight blue twice too, but it never shows up properly... red (0) yes, i've tried numerous shades of red. wait. make that inumerable times... blonde (9) surprise surprise! i've had orangey blonde and strawberry blonde for a week brown (3) this is the ans that's changed... since i JUST tried dying my hair brown. note: TRIED... 5. i want to be __ (pick best ans) perfect (8) i hate perfectionists... super good at guitar (2) loved (2) only two ppl got this?? >_____< an A+ student in english forever (2) somebody else (3) 6. how do i like my coffee? cream, no sugar (4) irish (0) hey, very good! or is this b/c no one knows what irish coffee is... cream and sugar (5) buubuu picked this and claimed that he was thinking about caramel frap... err... black (3) multiple shot expresso (5) 7. my ride? white benz SL55 (0) white SMG BMW M3 (0) black celica GT (11) black celica GT-S (6) blue ferrari F360 spyder (0) 8. which language don't i speak? english (0) japanese (1) mandarin (3) some ppl REALLY don't know me... cantonese (0) why would ppl think i speak canto but not mandarin? that is just the weirdest thing... taiwanese (13) 9. who do i love love love myself (7) nicholas (2) money (1) buubuu (7) my dog (0) 10. which city have i not lived in vancouver (0) taipei (0) honolulu (2) i've lived there for two years~ lucky me. taichung (9) tahara (6) this is a small town in japan, i lived there during student exchange not bad lu, the quiz results... at first i thought they were horrible but everyone else did bad on jenny and winnie's quizzes too, haha. a little bit worse, too... :p congrats to buu buu who got the highest mark la (80), and then winnie (70) and jenny (60). damn, the rest of u failed me as friends... that's not good. haha~ j/king Monday, April 28, 2003
heard from rozzie that for science students we won't see our marks until 4/30. *sigh* 4/30 will be my doomsday, when i find out if i've failed math... i shouldn't let it bother me since there's really nothing i can do about it now, but i dunno.. still nervous anyway. and also nervous about taking phys101 in summer... i already suck at the subject, and i'm trying to take it in 6 weeks? what am i thinking... >__< and then there's also chem deferred final, with no fixed date... ARGHH why am i making myself worry when it's SUMMER?
it's been so sunny, i wish i could wash my car, it's seriously filthy right now. this once again proves how vain i am... it's sunny so i wanna be driving around in a shiny car, preferrably the cleanest and shiniest car... heh but it's not really possible, since dewi's brother got the manual polisher thing which waxes ur car for u, and all u have to do is hold the machine while it buffs, and he's supposedly been waxing his car twice per week... i don't understand tho, wouldn't there be like... a buildup of wax on the car... heh heh forms a thick layer.. :p i still firmly believe that everyone is subconciously competitive. not even subconsciously... everyone is competitive and protective about SOMETHING... whether it's a talent they have, some area where they feel superior about, or control over/ownership of objects or people or power or money or looks... so everyone's vain then? i mean, even with monks and priests. monks 'want not', but then they're priding themselves in being pure then, and achieving the purest form possible... priests compare piety, holiness, they wanna go to heaven, they wish they could become saintly... so that's also strong desire... we're all vain. i'm so so so weird, reading ranma 1/2 is just making me think that humans are so weak and powerless against nature. :p can u actually hate your own species? is there a scientific term for that?
suspicions.. i think i've had bad breath for the past two days, but i can't exactly breathe into someone's face and ask them if it stinks, heh. so i can only brush my teeth as much as i can and chew more and more gum... ai. must be bad digestion. been really sick that way too. >___<
let's see, saturday i wanted whitespot for breakfast but no one was up, but dewi finished her exam at 2pm and we went, yay~ except i think i got there near 3pm... :p circled around the block twice to find easy and free parking. heh~ i finally had dippin' with caesar, except i didnt't enjoy it cuz i got sick again... >< we wanted to go walk around kerrisdale carnival too, but i had to go home n be sick. :p o-e, can't believe i missed kerrisdale carnival. i always end up catching it every year... maybe b/c it used to be < 4 blocks away, :p i slept for a while, then got up later to go watch "bulletproof monk" with jenny lisa and dewi... lisa's weiiiird, haha. she put her legs up on the chair in front of her, which is normal. but she was wearing a knee length skirt and cute sandals with flowers on them... -_____-" the movie... it was... *ne-eh*. it wasn't that good, but it wasn't exactly a waste of money.. it entertained. cept the fighting scenes weren't that good, the special effects weren't good, they did the matrix bullet thing which is getting really old, the general filming angle and what-not (i guessing the directing) was bad.. or could've been a lot better... and the make-up effect sucked soo much... especially the ol chow yun fat... it just makes ppl laugh when u're supposed to be taking things seriously. tho that was the weird thing... no one laughed... even at the funny parts... weirdness. and there were so little ppl there too... in the entire theatre, not just our movie. hmm. been sleeping whenever i feel tired, which means been sleeping irregularly. extremely irregularly, haha. i woke up at 6am today and just lied in bed reading comics till 1pm... then me ann jenny went to eat 傳統, that was just the most silent lunch i ever sat thru.... it was a long lunch too, cuz i had to eat really slow so my stomach won't get sick again. there was a big big sign on a salon that said "haircut $8", so we went to see how much for hair wash, etc... and it's super cheap, kids haircut is $8, guy haircut $10, girl haircut $12, shampoo set blowdry $12... there was actually a LINE-UP outside the store, mostly parents bringing their kids. this store is 2 stores down from another hair place, salon republic. and a hair dresser from salon republic was just standing outside the store looking over with a very 無奈 expression... ai. i'd feel bad for her, but then if i need a haircut i'll probably still go to the cheap one, haha. maybe i will get a haircut actually, even if they suck i can just cut it again... have enough length for mistakes, heh. then we went to yaohan, i got a bunch of drinks and some candy... jenny bought $20 kobe steak for fackie (fat + jackie haha). note: it's ONE piece of steak... i'm still kinda skeptical whether the steak really is worth that much, cuz it's yaohan, it's like... everyday food store... heh. anyway, when we were lining up the woman behind us leaned over to look in our basket and made a funny expression, and when we got to the cashier tha cashier girl kept an incredulous expression on her face too... heh they probably thought jenny was spoiled child, even tho i said it was for her brother not for her. i realized afterwards that i should've said it's for her mom, then everyone will change from incredulous to "aww". heh heh heh. after that we spent the most eventless 2 hours ever at jenny's... i can't even recount what we did.. i read some comics... they watched some tv, ann read some news.. yeah... that about it... then i went home... slept slept slept. i heard the phone ring numerous times and i knew they were calling me to go for dessert, but i just didn't wanna get up. i wasn't even that tired, i just wanted to stay unconcious, rather than go out and make conversation... dunno why i'm not really conversational today... maybe all those comics are hurting my intelligence, if there's any left anyway. :p oh yeah.. i got a huge huge huge sac of comics from roz. so big that the bag broke... :p did i mention, i also got enough comics from david so that the bag that i used then broke too. :p there's a long row of comics at the head of my bed right now that i just grab, heh. i feel kinda bad about breaking buubuu's bag tho, it's one of those nice gift ones that u actually pay like $5-10 to BUY. ~>__<~ oh, update on my hand: it's started peeling now, it was pretty disgusting, and today i couldn't resist the temptation and peeled off some loose skin, which was probably a badidea... cuz even tho the skin underneath is kinda forming, it's still REALLY tender, and even tho i used the softest bandaging pad i've got, it still hurts with every movement of the hand. o-e but it's good to know it's healing... i think after this burnt layer of skin sheds, there's gonna be another layer or two to shed, before it's really "healed". the new skin is soooooo soft tho, i have to resist touching it... >__< (and resist peeling it!!) bad moment of the day (26th): stomach sickness after lunch happy moment of the day(26th): sleeping bad moment of the day (27th): hmm. there wasn't really one, but if i had to pick, maybe... maybe this lurking resentment i'm feeling... ha that's so vague. :p happy moment of the day(27th): food... 甜不辣, 餛飩湯, 舒跑, and candy. :) Saturday, April 26, 2003
here's this week's Friday Five. (the worst questions ever..)
1. What was the last TV show you watched? i watched the 千&千尋 anime, but that's a vcd. i watched most of "seven" (with brad pitt, yum), but that was on video tape. before that i watched... oh i watched friends. it's not making sense, that rachael likes joey... 2. What was the last thing you complained about and what was the problem? my hair. it's greasy. well, my scalp is. 3. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say? umm... well when we were at jenny's we complimented pin for having sexy legs. but pin's male... so i'm not quite sure that was a good thing... we (or jenny) wrote all over his legs in washable ink too. winnie drew a big turtle, with a 'spider', and a spider web, cuz we thought it'd be funny if ppl wondered what else was there and pin would have to keep on lifting his shorts... and we wrote "summer 2003, roz win jen pin mel", and "sexy legs", and "go canucks", and "win the cup"... yes. before that i complimented buubuu on being cute. but i haven't complimented any strangers lately... not to them, anyway. 4. What was the last thing you threw away? toilet paper...??? 5. What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited? content junkie's blog, so i didn't even go to fridayfive.org, i just got the questions from her. ok that was the worst friday five EVER... maybe next time they have crappy questions i'll just find a better set from their archives that i haven't answered before...
buubuu was sick today, after he got home from this glass factory. he has a fever so he's been wearing a mask at home, in fear that it's SARS, but it's kinda useless since he takes it off to eat.... -____-
and i just remembered something... here are two stories that happened one following the other in chronological order, which might or might not be connected. i don't want to be presumptuous or judgemental... event #1: me and buubuu were in 'the place under the place' on wednesday i think, and this couple came and sat behind our table (so i could see them). it was a man and a woman, and i can't judge how old they are, maybe 50ish? my instant thought was that they looked like homeless ppl, but of course i can't be sure.. they sat there for quite a while but no server came over to the area at all, so they just left afterwards. event #2: after we ate me n buubuu went downstairs to get the car, and there was a pile of feces in the parking lot that looked like it might've been human... and buubuu said there was tissue around it too (i really didn't want to look). o-e. those two events are NOT connected, are they? whatever it was tho, the feces was still there on thursday... damn ppl, why can't they clean up the parking lot, and the elevator lobby that u have to pass to get to the parking lot... it's really disgusting in there... eeee. i think event #2 was my bad moment of the day for 23rd.
after food me jen and dewi went to richmond... finally got the pj's i wanted from la senza, except there was only medium and larger left. (i was supposed to be XS....) oh well... i'll err. figure something out... pull the drawstrings really tight or something... or fatten myself... haha. then was yaohan. a very deserted yaohan... so sad, i feel bad for the merchants there, especially the second floor ppl. and maybe the food court ppl too. i wonder when arberdeen is gonna open? that would suck too... if no one goes after they open.
then i drove dewi home and went home myself.. it was 6 by then... i watched some tv and rebandaged my hand and went to sleep just when buubuu came, but i was so tired and weak and sad b/c my hand looked worse than it was before, so i was kinda cross w/ him. >< i just fell asleep thinking he went to eat with his friends, but it turned out he thought i was unhappy so he stayed from 8-11pm. >< my cell phone was screwed up so no one woke me today (friday), so i kinda just slept whenever i felt tired... i was probably asleep from 8pm-3am, 8am-12pm, 4pm-9pm... something like that... after i got up i took my time and went to buubuu's, where his mom prepared food for us.. yay, except i had a stomach ache and couldn't finish the food, so buubuu had to destroy what's left of it in the food processor before his mom found out, heh. then i was at jenny's from 12-1:30? let winnie drive home... and went driving myself for maybe 40 minutes... i went into ubc and then up and down w.16th and then back to w.10th and sev and broadway then home... :P so nice, i'm gonna go to school via w.16th from now on. :) yeah... that's what i've been up to. been considering really trying to work out.. not diet or lose weight, but work out... get muscles for once. but then things will get complicated if my hand gets sweaty. or if i had to wash my hair everyday, can't really do that right now. or i'd be lazy... haha. and u know what the weird thing is? i wouldn't mind being trim and muscular, but i think i'd miss my fat... seriously! it's comfy this way. i like to pinch my fat sometimes... ahaha~ all this pressure (from a certain SOMEONE!) to update, but i really don't have much to say right now. and i forgot what my happy and sad thoughts of the day were... lemmie try to recall... happy moment of the day (24th): i'm done my finals...? bad moment of the day (24th): when i was grumpy at buubuu when i wanted to sleep. and seeing that my hand got worse. yeah that was definetly the bad moment of the day... happy moment of the day (25th): err.. driving up and down w.16th. bad moment of the day (25th): when i'm kinda tired but kinda not, kinda restless but kinda lazy. no wait... bad moment of the day is kinda the entire day, cuz it's kinda been a bad hair day.. in the sense that i really need a hair wash... i'm gonna go attempt washing my hair with one hand soon. ><
so i thought i'd sit down and write some stuff down...
but really... what is there to say, hmm. i'll just report what i've been doing then. i spent the entire thursday morning studying, from approx 1-7am non-stop... that was... well. not a pleasant experience... i ended up with 13 solid pages of typed/written notes, summarizing biol 121... (i should sell these). there's 6 chapters on the test, and 8 questions on the test (we get to pick any 4), so i thought there'd be at least one question for each chapter. the last chapter was darwin's theory, the second last was mendelian genetics. i couldn't finish studying darwin, so i spent extra time on mendelian genetics, thinking there'll probably be a question on mendel... but NO, there was NOTHING on mendelian genetics, and there was an essay question on darwin! arghhh. don't think i did too good on the final then... cuz i ended up writing 3 short ans questions (total 11 paragraph answers) and one essay, but i skipped one short ans paragraph, and i totally screwed up on another one, and... argh. hope i get a B loh. damn i was hoping to get an A-... didn't study hard enuff, and picked the wrong questions to answer... maybe he'll give me pity marks, if he can identify my paper as "the girl with the burnt hand", and wrote 10 solid pages of answers. i only wrote one essay (balanced energy equation) but a lot of the short answers (ie coevolution) turned out to be the length of an essay too. and i finished sooo ahead of time too! we started at maybe 8:35 and i left at 10:15... WHOA, that's not even 2 hours. i didn't know that... that's like... 100 minutes... maybe i write too fast... then i went driving around, so stupid, i drove in home direction on w.10th, but i turned back on alma to go find buubuu... then we went to eat 傳統, i had 蹄花飯, but it didn't taste as good as usual, and it's so sick the pork legs always have some 毛 left on them. >< the 芭樂汁 tasted weird too... anyway. then we went to dunbar library to see if there were comics... there was this little girl playing on the computer just randomly hitting the keyboard, and when she left i logged on to the computer to check stuff, and she came back and kept on nagging to her dad (who was sitting next to me) "i wanna play gaga, i wanna... nnn, i wanna play gaga..." GRRR, I HATE KIDS! then i went to look thru magazines, and cookie crumbs fell out... ugh... >< buubuu had to go club meeting, so i woke up jenny and after a lot of idling we went to london drugs, and then to 'the place under the place'. i got 2 magazines but i got tired of them in like 2 seconds... o-e. what i really wanted from london drugs is the lancome eye-makeup set... it has the flextincils mascara, lancome eyemakeup remover, and lancome age-defying eye gel... and it was only $27!! but flextincils isn't waterproof, so i didn't end up getting it.. *sigh* i still want it tho. but i would never use a non-waterproof mascara, and i don't know anyone who would want one either... so... -_________-" why would they even bother producing non-waterproof mascara!! the other thing i wanted was the new l'oreal color experte haircolor.. i probably talked about this already... i just all of a sudden really want a hair change... into chestnut brown. but i probably can't acheive chestnut brown myself, unless i bleached my hair fairly light... can never get rid of the red tones. :( didn't get it tho, can't really dye my hair using one hand... and my hand! o-e. it hasn't been showing any signs of healing in the past two days. it'd better heal sufficiently before the camping trip... ha but i doubt it will. that'll suck.. i'll soak up the sun but the part where my hand is bandaged will remain white. :p Friday, April 25, 2003
here's a survey for u, about u.
DRIVING: do u honk? when the canucks win a game? ever hit and ran? ever been a victim of hit n run? dream car(s)? the difference btwn iv-tech and vvit-tech engine is? LOVE loved someone till it hurt? why does love hurt? is it worth the pain then? marry the man u love, or the man who loves u? yeah u know what... i suck at making surveys. haha. but i'll tell u what i think about the "honkers" after every canuck game... i hope the canucks DON'T win. it's not that i have a thing against hockey but isn't everyone taking this canuck pride a little too far? i mean, ppl are becoming so unreasonably excited and arrogant that canadians are turning into americans. soon they're all gonna go around boasting of that wonderful shot blah made, la la la. it's just... it's only a sport, it's only a game... i don't understand what all the fuss is about. they haven't won since 1994. that's nearly a DECADE ago. get over it... it's really disturbing with 10 godzillion cars honking and waving gigantic flags and teenage boys taking off their shirts and waving it at passing cars.. it's like a nation-wide mardi-gras celebration, it looks STUPID. the entire country is so drunk on vanity... i wanna be around to watch when they lose someday. call me satanical but what what do i care, i'm not even canadian. "... i saw myself as a creature driven and derided by vanity, whose eyes burned with anguish and anger." -- James Joyce, "Araby".
I'M DONE WITH MY FINALS!
WOW. that wasn't very stressful. of course it's mainly b/c i accept the fact that i'm doomed to fail math, i typed english on a laptop, and am temporarily exempt from the chemistry final. :p whatever, i'm done for now, i can rest. and i promise i'm so gonna clean up my living environment in the next couple days... o-e. i thought i'd check in for some major blogging, but i really am ever so tired... i didn't sleep last night since i was up all night studying biol nearly non-stop, then i went to take the biol final, ate lunch in richmond with buubuu, went to the dunbar library to flip thru magazines, went to meet up with jenny, went to london drugs, went to the place under the place, went to richmond center, went to yaohan, drove dewi home, and i'm finally, finally home. i'm so exhausted i don't think i'm gonna type anymore... it's dizzifying. maybe i'm just sick of the computer screen - i wasn't this tired till i started trying to blog... u see, i spend 12am-7am today staring at this screen typing up condensed biol notes... that's 7 hours... even when i rested i did so on the computer... UGH... i'm gonna shut this thing off now. so not gonna wanna look at one of these (monitors) for a long, long time... Wednesday, April 23, 2003
i am really an extremely vain person. thus, i have installed a counter at the end of my page. i have a feeling i'm gonna be disappointed by the #s... haha. that's why i didn't install it when i first started my blog. oh well~ it took me a while to work out the html, so i'm keeping it!
happy moment of the day (22nd): hmm. umm. hmm. oh yeah... watching chandler propose to monica on friends for the thousandth time, and thinking that if me n buubuu were that age, there'll be no question of whether or not we should get married. bad moment of the day (23rd): waking up and realizing, today, i must study. yay... 5.5 hours till my engl final, i'm sooo done studying. i actually finished reading the tempest! yay. tho as i thought it wasn't particulary helpful... coles notes was more than enough, haha. alright, so i'm not as prepared as i'd like to be, but it's all good enough... got used to jenny's laptop too... tho i can kinda type with my right hand now... as for biol final, the prof finally e-mailed me back and told me that i can either write the summer exam or contact the disability resource center, and according to the DRC website the most likely service i will get is to dictate my answers and someone will type it up for me... i'd really rather not do that.. how can i SPEAK an essay, on the spot?? so i might end up writing the final exam. by hand. yes. all four essays. can't imagine dictating, don't even want to imagine delaying ANOTHER final. >___< i really should just go to ubc right now and get busy studying, but i think i need some sleep first. or do i? i'm so used to writing engl essays when i'm sleep deprived, heh heh. still dunno how i'm gonna study for biol. for the midterm i only studied for less than two hours. i skipped engl to study, and then i went to math for 10 minutes to give roz her notes, and studied for maybe half an hour more... and i got 73%.. that was b/c i basically recopied all my notes, and kinda just spat the information back out word by word during the exam. i was even concerned that he'd say i was plagarizing the notes.:p but since i can't re-copy all the notes right now, kinda stranded.. arghhh. oh well. less thinking more action... i'll be done in... 28 hours? and i know i'll spend probably 8 of those 28 hours sleeping, and 3 of them running errands (see doctor, apply for more academic concession, buying medical supplies, eating), and at least 1 of them watching tv, and 3 to take my engl final, and MIN 2 for fooling around doing nothing... so it's really just 11 hours of grilling studying. ahh. that's comforting, that really is. wait... that means only 11 hours (and very likely less) to get all the info down... CRAP. :p ugh. things to do 28 hours from now sleep. go eat cheesecake. wash my car. take out the garbage. general house cleaning. laundry. shop. watch movie. facial. dye my hair(?). RELAX... (and perhaps chauffeur some drunk ppl). oh.. damn, and TAXES. :( Tuesday, April 22, 2003
"最糟糕的時候，曾經有一個禮拜，在我們小兒心臟外科的高難度手術中，
連續四個小孩過世了。那真是令人難以承受的一個禮拜。 我記得每天一早，我抓著小孩要打針，小孩哭著嚷著：「不要，不要……」 我們抓住了小孩，在手臂上打了針，我是那個讓他失去意識的人。 從此那個小孩沒有再醒來過。 連續過世了四個孩子，我碰到第五個小孩的時候， 他睜著圓滾滾的眼睛望著我，告訴我說：「我不要打針。」 無論如何，我再也無法對他注射麻醉藥。 那是我第一次為了說不出來的理由請假。" -- 侯文詠
happy moment of the day (21st): techniquely this is happy thought for the 22nd, but i'm looking at the super big photos of edison for the limited edition (999 copies) of his transition cd, and he's so freaking cute. @__@ (and looks so freaking much like buubuu, which is why i got the limited edition cd, ha, just to inch buubuu). (what, u think i bought it for the "music"? heh) (no it's not that bad actually. if u don't think about it as music.) (think about it as pop...)
bad moment of the day(21st): finally made up my mind to NOT take the chemistry final, which is in 3.5 hours. cuz i went to the doctor and that open flesh spot is still there, which is pretty sick already, but i got home and had to rebandage it (doctors suck at bandaging, really), i found out that almost all of my burnt skin wasn't connected to the flesh underneath anymore, it kinda just covers it, floats above it... so i have to be extra cautious with my hand now, eww. my chem prof said i'll have to take the deferred summer exam, which is alright i guess... when i get better i should start learning how to make molecular models, i heard they help... my english prof also agreed to me using a laptop, thank goodness. when i get around to it i'm gonna finish reading the tempest (i swear i will) and type up a draft of my essay, cuz i find that like blog entries, if i typed it once, it comes back to me pretty fast, heh. let's just hope my left hand can type as fast as i think... biol prof still hasn't replied my e-mail tho, i'm starting to wonder if he checks e-mail at all... he doesn't look like the type that does... and he can be all of a sudden mean too, still don't know if he'll let me type on the exam. boy oh boy i'll be screwed if he doesn't... got up at 7 today, went to the see the doctor, but didn't finish until after 9, the wait was sooo long. >< got a doctor's note too. me: "could i also get a note? for school." doc: "missing some work eh?" me: "yeah..." doc: "well it depends on what u're missing..." me: "oh it's an exam, i have to write like essays and stuff... (liar liar pants on fire) doc: "oh, yeah, that would be extremely uncomfortable. (scribbles) here you go." i think the doc thought i was a highschool student or something... if i had said university final maybe i wouldn't've gotten a note. not like that matters... i think i can convince any prof or paperwork person just by removing the bandages. eeek. i'm so tempted to just let it be, haha. i keep on wanting lemon cheesecake so bad these two days, but casa dolce was closed today... went to "the place under the place" with jenny instead, where i tried to use chopsticks... had "instant noodles with luncheon meat and egg", flipped the luncheon meat cuz i couldn't grip my chopsticks and nearly flicked soup all over jenny, haha. i think i'll stop thinking about what i ate, it just makes me want another iced lemon tea... it was my only meal in 48 hours tho... wow, i ran on some cookies and some wine gums for 48 hours, haha. not that i do much anyway, besides sit home and waste time on the computer... the night before my biol exam i'll be freaking out again and thinking about how i shouldn't write it, haha. i feel bad about not taking the chem tho, it feels like i'm trying to escape something i should be doing... everyone else is studying like crazy for it... i mean yes, it'll be bad for my hand if i did write it, but i dunno... a couple painkillers.. i'm sure i can pass. well, could pass, if i had started studying a couple hours ago. :p argh.. can't let guilt get to me... have to concentrate on biol and engl.. biol and engl!! thus ought to get off blogger. *sigh* and close the big colored edison photos. *SIGH* crazy buubuu is up on SFU mountain lining up for his parking permit... line up for the entire day and night (24 hours) for a $90 permit? out in the cold? yes, OUT. *shivers*. his friends and him made a ride out of it tho, they set up a table and chairs and started playing majhong, and somebody brought a tv and vcd player so they're watching vcds... o__0" aww, that reminded me, ubc summer parkade pass is like $264... and i'll have to get it b/c b lot parking is increased to $4, and U-PASS isn't in effect yet. :p the parking permit is may-aug tho, and supposedly we can return it whenever we're done school and get refunded according to the time we've kept it, so it might be like.. $200. that's still a lot. >< i need to CARPOOL, but damn everyone lives far away, it'll be a detour no matter who picks who up. why don't i know anyone in kits, who has the same crazy schedule as me, haha. come to think of it, i don't have class everyday... maybe B-lot will be cheaper... but walking... oh but it'll be warm. oh but then car baking in the sun all day... oh but by the time i get off class it'll be night... HMM. so indecisive. or... oh i'm so stupid, i can just drive to roz's house everyday, or roz drives to my house everyday, and... wait... argh, can't think anything thru. :p i got so tired of studying last night i sent most ppl "dun let exam stress get to u" e-cards, and i sent sandy a b-day e-card.... only b/c i noticed on icq that it's her b-day... but i dunno.. apparently getting a card from someone u weren't expecting it from makes ppl very happy... oh i should have a "good deed of the day" too, but then i won't be able to fill it everyday. :P it'll just be mainly stupid stuff like "i made the world a better place today by not driving, or tossed my scrap paper into the recycled bin..." Monday, April 21, 2003
oh boy. i'm so screwed...
so i figured out precisely why my hand's in pain. when the doc broke the blister, she used one of those small surgical knives called a... scapel? anyway, she broke the blister by making an approx. 8mm incision on my skin above the blister, and i believe that thru my excessive use of my right hand i might've teared that incision further. so now i'm stuck in a situation in which the slightest movement of my fingers or wrist will result in the incision being teared open and the expose the skin/muscle(?) underneath... it's pretty sick really, and when i was attempting to clean the wound and get rid of yesterday's ointment i more or less tugged at the incision opening. unknowingly! that's how i saw a patch of really red meat (think raw steak) underneath the ruined skin. ugh. so that, plus the following reasons, gave incentive for an e-mail to my chem prof explaining how i will not be able to attend the final exam on tuesday morning: 1) i do not want to further injure my hand and am hoping for a speedy recovery 2) the wound creates great difficulty and pain when i attempt (rather unsuccessfully) to grip a pen 3) i am not adequetly prepared for my chem exam and do not wish to cram all night. (this of course i did not mention in my e-mail. i also wrote to my english prof requesting either a further delay of my re-scheduled final or permission to use perhaps a keyboard to write my exam. same thing for my biol prof, who is expecting 4 essays (or 16 paragraphs or a mixture) on a 2.5 hour final... so i'm hoping the doc'll be nice and give me a note explaining my circumstances... pardon my formal english, i got rather accustomed to it after 3 e-mails to my profs and 2 hours of english reading... so now i will have possibly 3 finals together in the summer term... math105, chem123, and psyc100. plus phys101, but that comes earlier than the others, *sigh* it is so difficult to type with only my left hand, but i guess i might as well get used to it, since i'm hoping to do this for my biol... if he doesn't let me tho i suspect i will write it by hand anyway... i need the essay format questions... and if i had to take 4 finals in such a short period in the summer i will go nuts. so buubuu took my quiz and scored 80, the highest score but still a bit lower than i expected (try 20 lower...). he claimed he chose that i prefer coffee with cream and sugar b/c he was thinking about caramel frappuchinos, and i'm inclined to believe him, heh. it sucks so much how i don't even dare apply slight pressure on my hand now to ease the itchiness... i really hope i am fully recovered for the camping trip, otherwise it'll be reeeaaally difficult... >< i failed to study today, as i got up at 7 something, watched parts of the old movie version of the prince of eygpt, and then went to starbucks with roz n jenny. buubuu came (despite my protesting) in a bit, and the four of us played big2 till the store closed. roz and her amazing four 2's. :) and the racist guy who mumbled "typical chinese" (not at us). and my comment. "no, i dun mind, i'm racist too." :P ohh, that would be another good quiz question! :) so addicted. scored 33/48 on winnie's despite all the "hints", and sadly i was highest mark on jenny's with only 50/100 pts. and why doesn't anyone believe that i had blonde hair?? heh heh. the test might be reflective of reality tho, since crazy pete scored 10/100... geez ppl, ppl who think that i don't speak mandarin!! :p i've been so good today, i've learned to catch my tongue b4 i say things that will bring general discomfort. i'm aways only half glad when i manage to do this tho, b/c if i don't speak out about what i feel strongly about, then aren't i being decietful and FAKE?? (dung dung dung). *sigh*... still learning to cope with my fellow imperfect human beings. good moment of the day (20th): some vague moment with buubuu, i can't decide which one. just the time after we left stbs, i guess. :) bad moment of the day (20th): when i managed to hold back what i wanted to say, and the sentence just bloated up infinitely large inside me threatening to explode. that moment was almost as bad as later on when i had my nervous breakdown about chem final and how this is just the worst time to have a disabled right hand, etc. -________-" *sigh* alright... back to "studying" now... Sunday, April 20, 2003
7 Deadly Sins Survey (also courtesy of winnie)
GLUTTONY 1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? winnie: wut does yuppie mean? me: well my fav overpriced drink is juice blends from jugo juice. it's not THAT overpriced tho... or "the west coast" from cactus club cafe... 2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? i never figured out the diff. actually i don't really know what each means... i just know that the KFC guy said they've only got white meat, and that it's better, so i said ok and that day's fried chicken sucked... 3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? HAHAHA, that's hilarious. i guess it must've been the time the nurse swabbed my arm with medicinal alcohol when i went to the ER for acute stomach/intestinal infection. she already dried the pad as much as she can too. haha 4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? no. unless they locked me up and made me exercise in exchange for food, haha. i lack determination. i don't care enough either. heh. 5. Do you have an issue with your weight? yes. well actually no, weight-wise i'm alright, stable at 106-112 pounds. but that's only b/c i lack muscles. it's ALL fat. (or 26%, heh heh) 6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? SPICY!! yay~ i don't care how many times i've gotten acute stomach/intestinal infection (serious ones -3), i'm still gonna eat all the spicy food i want. 7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? hahaha NO! but when i look at my dog i sometimes remember that ppl eat dogs and get disgusted... OH!! OMG, i just remembered this, i'm DEAD sure that this happened, it's not one of my "fake" memories.. my grandpa was cleaning the fish tank and he has to get the gold fish out first, they were pretty big ones, size of my hand (i have a small hand tho). one leaped out and suffocated, so my grandpa ended up microwaving it and asked me if i wanted to eat some. i protested and he said something like fish is food... ai. i still like my grandpa after that tho. LUST 1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? haha, quite a few, b/c peter said there was this porn star that looked like winnie, and out of curiosity i looked, but there was a lot of stuff i really rather not see, and i closed it so fast i never did find out if the porn star looks like winnie. HAHAHA. 2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? what, are there peeping cameras in my house?? 3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? .... u know what. i'm just not gonna answer the questions from the LUST section. GREED 1. How many credit cards do you own? currently? i think 3. oh wait, 4. oh wait... i kinda lost count... since i only use two of them. 2. What's your guilty pleasure store? what's a guilty pleasure store... i don't usually feel bad about the things i buy, cuz i wouldn't buy them unless either i really need them or i can comfortably spare the $ or i "deserve" it. hahaha. but maybe london drugs, or those open stock cosmetics stores in taiwan... all those cosmetics stuff i don't need... and nail salon. heh. 3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? oh, if i told u, u'd know the answer to my quiz!! heh. but if it's only 1 million i'll probably give at least 90% of it to my parents... use whatever i keep to get some gifts for buubuu and close friends, not BIG presents but good ones, ones they'd want and they'd never buy for themselves. and my parents will probably end up telling me i should get to choose what i want to do with the money, that's what i'm counting on, so i can do what i want to do (can't give away quiz answer!!). heh. i'd insist that my dad get himself a cool car tho, and maybe they can move to a place with a big kitchen for mom. or oh, they could retire and live with me in vancouver! OHHH I WANT A MILLION DOLLARS!! it would be so awesome. i miss my parents so goddamn much now, damn surveys... 4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich. rich. rich. damnit. ALMOST gave away my quiz answer again. this kinda sucks... 5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? YES! YES! YES! well.. boring but not like taking up ALL my time, right? 6. Have you ever stolen anything? yeah. when i was a kid in hawaii i shoplifting a tiny tiny tiny toy car. it was more like a tiny tiny tiny car model... yes, my car fetish started THAT early, heh. i don't even recall doing it really, but it's in my toy collection.. heh. 7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? 500+, not quite sure exactly how many... but that's how many on my main playlist.. so... PRIDE 1. What's one thing have you done that you're most proud of? being the best friend that i can to my friends...? or maybe my near straight A's on highschool final transcript (damn AP calc). but then that's just grades, it's not what i'm MOST proud of... hmm. i dunno. i'll stick with first ans. heh. 2. What's one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? i'm so proud to say that they're probably most proud of me being me. ^___^ being responsible and hard-working and stuff. kinda slipping sometimes, but i keep that image.. heh. 3. What's one thing would you like to accomplish in your life? be rich. always be smart. find love, keep it. oh, did u say ONE thing...? stay true to myself, dun ever be fake (unless it's like a short term thing and i can get "megabucks", i might...) 4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? yeah. i won't show it probably, but i can be quite competitive. i'd like to think i'm not, i used to think i'm not... but when i do get second place, i always surprisingly find myself annoyed. 5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? yes. ie. the canadian citizenship test, what a joke and waste of time. and it's gonna be hard to make this not sound like boasting, but also on many english exams... 6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? hahaha DUH, of course. constantly. i haven't cheated on big things like provincials or finals tho. i would say "midterms" but i kinda did on my last math one, tho i still failed miserably cuz i thought if me and roz had the right set up for that work problem, then i must be integrating correctly, hahahaha. 7. What did you do today that you're proud of? umm. umm. delivering my "merry" friends safely thru all those police roadchecks...? haha. maybe just for getting up and maybe going to get my bandages changed instead of improvising at home, where i don't have saline and thus can't really clean the wound. ENVY 1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? so many... hendra's bank account, to start with. haha~ one of dewi's cars... i'd be happy with the porshce or sl500, cherokee is good for me too, if i got the jag i could sell it. hahaha. i want winnie's hair color right now... i need jenN's math and physics smarts... and i envy anyone who gets to live with their parents. omg i want so much stuff. haha. 2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? i don't get it, like, u trade homes...? i dunno... maybe... peter's house. either one of the peters... haha 3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? haven't i answered this question in like every survey? why?? does EVERYONE wanna be somebody else? 4. Have you ever been cheated on? not really. emotional betrayal then yes. *weep* he denies it but i knew! i knew! *sob* hahaha 5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? YES... would someone like to trade butt and thighs with me? oh wait, do u mean like, instead of hands i want wings or something?? 6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? brains. i want MORE brains. and charisma. and boldness. and i wanna be more unique. and creative. and... 7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no.. i'm content just answering it. whoever u are tho u've got some good questions. i salute u. 8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? as winnie said:"there's only 5 deadly sins you dumbass survey maker"... so i don't know all of them... but out of the 5 here, i guess LUST. or GLUTONNY? but i don't want to be fatter.. hmm.
ack, forget it, i'm tired of providing empty/pre-italicized surveys, i'm doing too many of them to do it everytime. i did a "cutting" survey before this next one, but i don't think i'll post it afterall. it'll just attract a lot of unnecessary concern, since i've stopped already. i was gonna do it to raise some awareness about self-mutilation in society, but i dun think most of my friends give a damn about society, cept roz and her african kids, hahaha. the sad thing was, the conclusion from doing that survey really was "nobody gave a damn", heh. anyway, here's the --
the nobody gives a damn survey.. (once again courtesy of winnie) WHO WAS/IS UR FAV TEACHER? OOYAMA SENSEI! i kinda liked mr lloyd too. and mr bruan, he tried so hard. WHAT KIND OF JELLY ON UR PB&J? what's pr&j? whatever, i don't like jelly. had too much when i lived in hawaii... there was this milky kind that i liked tho, i can't even remember what flavour it was, but it was opaque... i like twnese egg pudding... IF YOU COULD APOLOGIZE TO SOMEONE WHO WOULD IT BE? i dunno... i usually apologize if i need to and want to... maybe to my parents, b/c i know i've been distant, not just in actual miles... and i know i could share more of my life with them. and should. aww. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE DOING IN 20 YEARS? driving a cool car on a smooth road. heh. basically i wanna be rich. and have a lot of free time too. HAVE YOU SAID A PRAYER TODAY? no. i never do. STEAK OR CHICKEN? chicken! well... i eat a lot of chicken stuff, chicken burgers, chicken fingers... but if u're talking like a half-chicken, or a steak, i'd pick steak. medium rare sirloin please. FAV SEAFOOD? boiled shrimp. big ones. not over-cooked, just quickly dropped into hot water and quickly taken out. well... nevermind, i like tuna sashimi the best. then amaebi (that's japanese for sweet shrimp sashimi) DO YOU WISH YOU HAD MORE BROTHER/SISTERS? sometimes i want a slightly older brother, but i know they're not as great as u'd hope they'd be. ARE YOU THE OLDEST,YOUNGEST,IN BETWEEN? youngest of my parents, but i have two older half sisters. WHAT'S UR PARENTS FAV PUNISHMENT? when i find that i've hurt their feelings or disappointed them, that guilt and pain i feel is the worst punishment in the world. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO APOLOGIZE TO YOU? "it". but i don't think it'd change things. winnie has the best answer tho, apologies make no difference, revenge is better. SWEET TARTS OR SMARTIES? smarties! IF YOU COULD TAKE ONE THING TO A DESERT ISLAND WHAT WOULD IT BE? buubuu...? or ohhh from that commercial, i'll bring my own london drugs! hahaha. maybe a computer tho, if i can have internet access.. i'll blog my entire experience. and order books and groceries online. haha. COFFEE OR TEA? oh, ouch, tough choice... tea, if it's rose or jasmine. heh FAV MIDNIGHT MUNCHIES? omg, anything. i always want diff things. EGGS SCRAMBLED OR FRIED? aww, can't i choose sunny side up? or is that what u mean by fried? EVER LOST A CLOSE FRIEND? yes. quite a few. EVER GOSSIP ABOUT UR FRIENDS? haha yes, tho it's less fun now that ppl are dating instead of just liking each other. heh. FRIENDS EVER GOSSIP BOUT YOU? yes, stupid dewi, thinking i'll eventually go out with brandon. what the hell??? IF YOU COULD BE SOMEBODY ELSE, WHO? buubuu, b/c then i get to be loved by me. no wait, that sux, i'm so needy. hmm... need to think of some carefree, happy, rich, beautiful, smart, charismatic person. hmm... HAVE YOU TOLD UR MOM AND DAD TODAY THAT U LOVED THEM? no. >______< stop making me feel bad about not being nice enough to my parents!! damnit. SHOULD I SHAVE MY HEAD? yes. then u'll become ugly and i'll raise 1 place on world's most beautiful person. HAHAHA~ FAV PIZZA TOPPING? cheese. cheese. more cheese please. and some pepperoni. FAV SCHOOL SUBJECT? in highschool, it was jap and art. i think those choices were largely influenced by the friends i had in class tho. right now in U, probably english. since i don't have to attend and can get high marks without trying. MUWAHAHA (i have a strong feeling all my friends secretly resent me now, maybe i should stop bringing it up. but i really just want to share my joy, *weep*) IF LOVE'S SO GREAT WHAY DOES IT HURT SOME TIMES? that's why it's great. if it didn't hurt then there would just be something missing... if u didn't argue then u won't grow. i promised winnie i'd write that 2000 essay on this topic after my finals, so stay tuned, heh. DO U SLEEP ON UR LEFT,RIGHT, STOMACH OR BACK? left, mostly. never on my stomach. DREAM IN COLOR,BLACK AND WHITE,OR DON'T REMEMBER? color. WHEN WAS UR LAST SCARY DREAM? i dunno... DO U LIKE SNOWBALL FIGHTS? yeah, but i suck at aiming, and i never have gloves... ARE U SKINNY, FAT, OR JUST RIGHT? fat. i mean it, don't argue with me, i'm 26% body fat, and 27%+ would be considered OBESE. WAT WOULD U NAME UR FIRST CHILD? i would name the boy joey but jenny and winnie are both doing that already. maybe stephanie if it's a girl... i dunno. i wanna give my kid the same chinese name as david, 駿棋/琪, but he thinks that's weird. hahaha that's like... chinese version of "blah Jr."!! heh heh.
1. Can you whistle? NO! *weep* now what'd u go and bring that up for?
2. What's the best way to prepare beef? with bull's eye sauce! and some lemon, pepper, and cooking wine and a hint of soy sauce. that's a very mixed flavoured beef u got there tho. oh, toss on some sliced onions too. 3. If you could punch someone you hated just once, where would you punch said person? side of stomach. or actually i dun have that much strenth, so maybe neck, or armpit... wait... can i kick them? as in not using hands? if so, then GROIN! GROIN!! oh actually if i really hated them, i might knock their nose, u know, the thing u do that shatters their nose bone and sends it shooting up into their brains... (now u see how violent i really am...) 4. Do you ever click on ad banners? yeah i do that sometimes. there are actually some interesting sites out there. 5. Do you own any records? records of ppl?? heh. are we talking about those old style "cds", then no. but i have well ovre 200 cds.. (i'm talking about just the real ones, not burned ones. i'm very proud of my collection and devotion to supporting music) 6. What's your favorite cereal? kellogs frosted flakes. 7. Quick! Tell us something that you haven't mentioned on your OD (online diary) before! what...? i dun think there can be anything that i haven't mentioned here that i can mention. umm. umm... 8. Are surveys a waste of an entry? what, NO! well for ppl that give "yes no maybe sure" answers, yeah. but i always answer so much, and think so much.. 9. What was the longest time you went without whizzing? what the hell is "whizzing"... i really wanna know.. hmm. 10. Other than bananas, what do monkeys eat? uhh. uhh. uhh... apples? 11. If you were buying a new car, what color would it be? that's such a crappy question! ok, if it's a benz, white. bmw, white. ferrari, sterling blueish silver or red. most other cars, black. 12. What's your favorite chocolate candy? wow, i was gonna put this as a question on my quiz! heh. it's twix. 13. What kind of shampoo do you use? right now i use dove. i also recommend most shampoos from lush. 14. Do you read the emails in your Junk Mail folder? sometimes, cuz i get a lot of daily joke mails, and they get sorted into the bulk mail folder... 15. What's the nearest big city to you? i think i'm about equal distance from burnaby and richmond... 16. What color ink do you prefer to use? blue 17. Many surveys have a question missing for some reason. This is the one. Feel free to make up a random answer: hell yeah! hahaha. 18. Where do babies come from? the vaginal opening of the female. 19. What was the last thing you had to drink? iced lemon tea from #9. 23. What TV show do you know the most lines from? tv SHOW? umm... friends? 24. If you had a neon sign, what would it say? PSYCHIC!! 25. What's the worst advice someone gave you? "fine go cry" (PISH JE**Y) 26. What feature(s) do you like in the opposite sex? eyes. muscle build. face shape. hair. (haha i wanna say "butt" for fun) 27. So, do you like... stuff? huh... are we talking about weed...? 28. What's your favorite kind of cookie? oreo...? or good maple cookies, when i come across them. 29. Describe your current mood: kinda dazed out from so much icqing and blogging, kinda irritated by my itchy hand, kinda amused by everything. so... "complacent." (yes, i'm annoying ppl with my vocab again) 30. What was the nicest thing you've done today? maybe chauffeur jenny winnie pin to buy alcohol and then to #9 when my stomach was feeling ill and i can't drink and wasn't hungry. but it's all good, buying alcohol made me wake up so that was good, going to #9 was amusing so it's also good. 31. How many different MP3s do you have? different...? wha, why would i have the same one? heh. i dunno, 500+. 32. Did question 27 make any sense to you? yes. i thought we were talking about drugs. heh 33. What was the last thing you ate? well i'm chewing gum now. before that i had lemon tea... oh ATE. pork chop rice from edge. 34. So, what are you wearing? my favourite ape t-shirt and the green pants that i've been wearing since gr.9, haha. 35. How do you feel about ninjas? overrated. 36. Do you have/grow any plants? no... they all die in like... however long they can go without water. heh.
yay, another survey, courtesy winnie. as usual, here's the blank one first.
1. Can you whistle? 2. What's the best way to prepare beef? 3. If you could punch someone you hated just once, where would you punch said person? 4. Do you ever click on ad banners? 5. Do you own any records? 6. What's your favorite cereal? 7. Quick! Tell us something that you haven't mentioned on your OD before! 8. Are surveys a waste of an entry? 9. What was the longest time you went without whizzing? 10. Other than bananas, what do monkeys eat? 11. If you were buying a new car, what color would it be? 12. What's your favorite chocolate candy? 13. What kind of shampoo do you use? 14. Do you read the emails in your Junk Mail folder? 15. What's the nearest big city to you? 16. What color ink do you prefer to use? 17. Many surveys have a question missing for some reason. This is the one. Feel free to make up a random answer: 18. Where do babies come from? 19. What was the last thing you had to drink? 23. What TV show do you know the most lines from? 24. If you had a neon sign, what would it say? 25. What's the worst advice someone gave you? 26. What feature(s) do you like in the opposite sex? 27. So, do you like... stuff? 28. What's your favorite kind of cookie? 29. Describe your current mood: 30. What was the nicest thing you've done today? 31. How many different MP3s do you have? 32. Did question 27 make any sense to you? 33. What was the last thing you ate? 34. So, what are you wearing? 35. How do you feel about ninjas? 36. Do you have/grow any plants?
ARGH... damn blogger erased my entry. it was kinda long too... now i think i've lost my thoughts.
boy does it stink in here. from the many many left over foods i think... i should try flinging my garbage out the balcony and try to get it into the garbage container in the back alley... i think it could work. actually i'm not sure, it'll only work with my right hand and the only reason i'm not taking out the garbage properly is b/c i don't want to use my right hand... i know it's a poor excuse. but really, even if i hold the garbage bags with my left hand, i'll have to open doors with my right hand, which would suck b/c i can't wash my right hand. i can only attempt to wash the fingers. heh. but seriously, it stinks in here! maybe now is a good time to hire a maid. ahhh, i remember having all these good thoughts in my last entry that got deleted. u see, i wrote the entry and pressed "post and publish", and then i went out to eat, but when i come back i realized that it didn't work and my entry was lost, so i don't really remember what i posted anymore. oh well, i'll start over again by recounting once again what i did today... OHH i got one thought back! it's always amusing to find some random blogger out there who was watching the same tv show as u. i'm not talking about stuff like joe millionaire or american idol, i'm talking normal tv shows. right now specifically i'm talking about "prince of eygpt", which was on tv tonight. tho i guess a lot of ppl were watching that... i've watched it i dunno how many times.. maybe 4. not that many, but it's a cartoon... i really like it tho, it might be my favourite cartoon. well i really like that japanese anime jenny just lent me too, tho i can't recall the english name of it right now... soo good, soo good. i was thinking the disney cartoon rendition of the prince of eygpt storyline might be the only one out there that portrays pharoh as having some human traces in him, like caring for his brother, etc. might be wrong about that tho... got up at 6ish today. pm, that is. kinda read for a bit till winnie called and i went to get booze with them. then i had to go get my hand re-bandaged and i was feeling kinda sick so i didn't return to jenny's for chicken wings, heh. i expected the walk-in clinic to be kinda a bare-minimum mini-emergency center, like gordon campbell is trying to make it... but it wasn't like that at all, it looked like any other doctor's office... there was a reception room and a very nice reception guy, a painting on the wall, and they were playing classical music. very nice.. except i had to wait forever for the doc. i guess that's normal too... :p and awww there were tons of berenstein bears but there were these highschool girls there and i didn't wanna be weird, heh. so i guess i DO care about what others think about me, heh. and also maybe it's not such a good idea to touch all the books and magazines in a medical clinic when i can't wash my hands with soap afterwards... one of the girls there kept on coughing, and it was rather disconcerting, since there was a big SARS notice right in front of eyes too, haha. well she coughed a lot when she was outside talking on her cell, not as much when she was inside... it was interesting listening to a highschool girl talk... stuff like "okay, i was like..." i guess i talk like that too, but i dunno, it's just different, the intonation(?) or something... emphatic? no that's not really the word for it either... i guess one characteristic is that they have all these ideas that they feel is really urgent to share and the sentences never form, so it all becomes "so like, and like, and oh my god, like, you know?" heh when i finally got to see the doc, she just did exactly what i do at home... except she had saline so she could kinda wipe the old cream off. oh, and i had an approx 1.5cm^2 blister, so nasty. i didn't even see it at first cuz it was a big one but not that bulgy... so she popped that and cleaned it a bit... and then used a LOT of bandage to wrap it up, that ended up being too tight and didn't cover the part btwn my thumb and index finger, so i've re-wrapped it twice by now, heh. she was a really nice doctor tho, i wouldn't mind having her as my family doctor i think. i'm supposed to go in again tmw but i think if i can buy some saline and if there's no more blisters i'll just wrap it myself at home. i'll have to on monday anyway, can't afford to go out and wait like that before my chem final. which i REALLY should start studying for... biol too... ARGHHH. afterwards i watched tv (prince of eygpt) till buubuu came... then we cuddled and finished watching the movie. i love cuddling and watching tv... :) except buubuu was attempting to hide the fact he'd smoked half a cigarette, so he put on MY perfume... haha. it wasn't that weird tho, since i have "shi" and he has "hei", complementary scents both from alfred sung... he should be glad i dun use girly perfumes... heh. *imaginging* hahahaha then after a while of arguing why he doesn't like edge, we went to edge to get food... ahhh so nice, i love alexandra road at night on the weekend.. when all the cool cars come out to play... 350Z, s2000, various benz's, this really nice altered white rsx-s... etc etc etc. and buubuu's eclipse! hee. saw the owner at edge, cept i think i lost special status, i don't think i got a discount this time, heh. i dunno, buubuu didn't look at the bill. very amazing still, the dress-code there... the waitress was wearing a very little little black dress today... -___-|| i'd so want to work there if not for the dress code. it's all good tho, b/c the owner made my 蛋蜜汁 and it was super good. :) happy moment of the day (19th): we listened to lala世界 really loud on the way, and i was grinning for the entire duration of the song cuz that song makes me really happy, maybe b/c it's the background song of my birthday mtv that winnie made, heh. except afterwards buubuu said it's his turn to pick a song and we listened to juno's 愛上殺手 even louder. x__X" i'm starting to not hate the guy tho. he can kinda sing, and he kinda has a good voice, since it sounds so much like nicholas sometimes. heh. and he does look like a horse, but he's not bad looking... anyway.... what did i do afterwards... oh yeah... i came home and right after i finished eating my 排骨飯 and drink, jenny called to say that winnie and pin wanted to go to #9 (they were drinking at jenny's), so i went to pick them up but jenny's mom got home 15seconds before i got there and so jenny didn't come. pin and winnie said she didn't put up much of a fight to go out, damn u jenny! heh. j/king. i should've driven faster... but not really, there's a freakish amount of cops out there tonight. really freakishly a lot of cops. (damn that sentence is grammatically incorrect...) damn #9 waitress kept on trying to get us to leave. heh. and there was a puking girl in the washroom.. eee. shouldn't've gone at 3ish when dances end... i hate seeing those cbc or whatever girls with micro-minis, brown streaked long hair and wayyy too much make-up. i don't see how guys don't get scared away by them. (esp when the make-up comes off, hahaha) and well. now i'm home again, icqing and blogging instead of studying. >__< i'm so screwed. but i actually do have things to say. oh yeah, some quiz results came out for the -all about mel- quiz. PEOPLE! i'm SO disappointed! only jenny and winnie passed as my friends. haha~ and i can't believe some ppl actually think the langauge i can't speak is mandarin... weird. and no one knows my dog's name... i'd comment some more, but i'm not gonna give the results away before some ppl do the test. like buubuu... he claims his computer is screwed up... he'd better get a good score. heh. aww i want everyone to make a quiz so i can take it! but i have to warn u, u'll end up finding out that none of your friends know u, heh. i just have to say one last thing about the quiz... so smart roz, i'm soooo an "annoying american"!!! hahaha. u know, normal MC test-taking strategies do apply... through common sense u should be able to eliminate 2 or 3 answers.. like if i were american, would i call it "annoying" american? *tsk tsk tsk*. but anyway, i'll analyze the test later on. o-e, i'm gonna stop blogging, but i know i'm just gonna go icq some more till ppl go to sleep, and then read up on everyone else's blog, and then probably watch the japanese anime... >___< i should've at least read all my engl and biol tonight... i'm being so bad... AHHH. i should shut myself up in the library tmw but then my stomach's been feeling ill so that wouldn't really work... grr. Saturday, April 19, 2003
it's all rage!
take the "all about mel" quiz. boy did i have an uneventful "day" i officially got up at 7:50pm, with too many calls from buubuu asking if i'm awake yet throughout the day... i've made a new rule that unless u've got something REALLY exciting going on, or if u're waking me up for an exam or something, NEVER call me before 6pm... that's just torture, why would u do that to someone. my 6pm is ur 6am, alright? so tmw, i have to get up at *6am*.. which is 12 hours from now.. to get booze for jen n win n... they said they won't let pin drink... that is just the most ironic thing, ME buying BOOZE. ai~ jenny: "why god. why can't u drink." me: "b/c if i could i'd be an alcoholic." i overdose on everything... happiness, sadness, candy, food... OMG, i LOVE london drugs. i'm talking about the 24hour one on broadway and cambie(?)... i went there late tonight and there were tons of ppl shopping around, even more than u'd see at any other hour in any other longdon drugs, and there were at least 10 ppl crowded in the candy aisle, all going crazy over sugar like me. :) i feel sooo at home... i'm glad that i had to go to kerr london drugs and then safeway and find out that both pharmacies were closed. i'm glad i went to the 24hr london drugs... now i know what to do when i'm bored at night! even the pharmacy and photo developing is 24 hours, this is so, so, soo cool. anyway... besides spending an hour trying to fill my presciption, i went to #9 for dinner with jenny... it's so weird, the last meal i had was thursday night at 10pm. but on friday night at 10pm, i still wasn't hungry... i just thought it was about time i ate something... hmm. maybe i should just dine once everyday at 10pm... it's like a brunch for me. and then i just eat some candy here and there for the rest of the day... anyway... after "dinner" i drove jenny home and kinda drove all around the place, i don't even know what i was doing... i kinda reached kerrisdale (like blockbuster or something) and turned back to go down to ubc beach, circled around in a parking lot there, then headed right back to the highway... then right before the highway ended i u-turned and went half way to ubc again, and then u-turned again and finally headed home, cuz i had to pee... ah, that was fun... not THAT fun cuz gripping the wheel still kinda hurts my hand... anything that stretched the skin on the back of my hand hurts actually.. ie typing... but i've done so little talking today i need SOME sort of venue to express myself. after i got home i watched tv. for 5 hours. straight. maybe it was a little bit longer than that, i don't know... there's a lot to watch on friday late night. or saturday early morning... whatever u want to call it... the conclusion is tho, i'm SO SCREWED FOR MY UPCOMING FINALS. whatever tho. passing won't be hard. the hard part is doing all that writing in 3 consecutive days, cuz my hand's not healing very fast... i'm not exactly giving it the nutrients and rest and water that it needs... kinda in a state of permanent thirst, but if i drink too much water (ie 2 glasses) at once i feel sick... >__< i haven't done any of the things i planned to do on friday... studying, washing car, enjoying massage bed, etc. i doubt i'll do it tmw, either. oh well... things have a funny way of working out in the end, don't they? health and emotional contentment should come before academics. i've always gotten that wrong all through highschool... so while i was smart i was also being stupid. :p ohhh.. *slobbers*, l'oreal color experte hair dye set... looks sooo tempting, but i have no faith in it actually working on my hair. the idea of it is two simple short steps. step one, u color ur hair like any other hair dye product. step two, u highlight ur hair in streaks with a patent wand to create a signature, unique look. the thing is, with hair as dark as mine, step one won't work. and with as much hair as mine, it'll be hard to get step two to work as well. aiii. i should just pay up and get it done professionally. it's just having bad grades kinda means less financial freedom... god i need a job... my favourite thing to do now is to think btwn commercial breaks. i get lots of thoughts, but i never have to complete them. it doesn't sound like a good thing, but it really is for me.. cuz i'm more pesimisstic than i am optimistic, so developing a thought means that i'm gonna realize none of it will work out... wait. i just lost my stream of thought. oh no... this isn't good actually, i haven't done my engl final.. i have to remember that. and i have to remember to finish reading the tempest and alice munro sometime... it's really not a good idea to write ur engl final without reading the books. whenever i ask my friends whether or not i should just become an english teacher, they always tell me maybe i should cuz i'm so good at it. (or are they being sarcastic.. heh) the thing is, i don't see a lot of ppl around me making a living out of what they're best at... could it be b/c... it's what u're best at already, but u enter the field and find out that a whole bunch of ppl do it better than u... and it disappoints you? i know not everyone needs to be the best in anything, but wouldn't we all like to be... everyone keeps on saying highschool was so easy, university is so much more stressful and hard. i argee U is harder... but i still remember them to be hella more stressed back in highschool... does everyone just hide it nowadays?? what'd i say, i said i was gonna sleep earlier today... ai. i can't ever seem to keep promises to myself. :p it's kinda hard to sleep tho. my hand's been itching all night, what a royal pain in the ass, seriously... i had to wrap it myself cuz i woke up a bit late to get my prescription and go to the walk-in clinic.. i'm not the best bandage wrapper but i'm getting the knack of it, so i don't think it's the way i bandaged it up... my hand just hurts, and itches... itches so much... but yeah yeah, i know, no scratching, ai. the most annoying thing of all is that i don't know if those couple blackish spots are recovering burned skin or just DIRTY, since i can't get my hand wet... so painful trying to wash only my fingers with soap. >< this is still better than the time they used liquid nitrogen to treat my fingertips tho... according to the guides that was a 3rd degree burn, since my skin turned white... and then yellow. and then a gigantic blister forms. and then after a week the gigantic blister dries up, and in another 4-6 days u can peel the dried blister off. it's pretty sick when u think about it. i think i'm the only person i know who can keep a huge blister on the tip of my finger unharmed till it dries up, haha... okay... gonna try to ignore the itchiness and go sleep now. ai. u know what would really cheer me up... a french manicure. but that would be weird, perfect nails sticking out of thick bandaging, heh. or a dye job!!! >< AHHH. i need to go to sleep!! sleep mel, sleep, damnit! Friday, April 18, 2003
wow... that was... a lot of blogging... and this day has only begun for 8 hours... i have only been home for 5.5 hours... but it feels like i accomplished so much. so much blogging... are you happy now roz? are you happy now jenny? are you happy now winnie? this should keep u guys reading for a LONG time. so to be the considerate friend that i am, i am gonna make the font size slightly larger, for a limited time only. oh wait, by the time u get to here u might've noticed already... what the hell. nooo, i'm not exercising quality control! and i'm not exercising self control... maybe i should just stay up and try to study something right now... but then it'll ruin all my plans for today... they're playing gangs of new york at the SUB too. aww. and oh yeah... there's chem review session on organic chem on saturday, hmm.
oh yeah, about "catch me if u can", i was right, the caption sux. the first mistake came at the very beginning, when they translated tom hanks into "tom cruise"... -__-|| but the movie itself was sooo freakishly good. new found respect for leonardo dicaprio too, hah. well he kinda redeemed his acting skills in "the beach", but this is good... very good. and i haven't even watched gangs of new york yet. good good good. anyway, yeah, i'd recommend the movie. waaa.. sudden dizziness attack. i'm so weird, i don't feel hunger, until PANG it hits me and i'm starving. i don't feel fullness, until PANG it hits me and i feel so bloated. i don't feel tired, till PANG it hits me and i'm nauseous... :p so i guess i'm finally going to go to sleep.. and stop blogging. for now.... *laughs mechanically*
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anyway, i finally showered... i was thinking about rebandaging my hand, cuz even tho i stuck my hand in a plastic bag and taped it air tight, it still feels kinda humid... but i took the bandaging off, looked at my head, and just didn't want to deal with it. haha. i was telling jenny today how if i had a serious wound on my limb and say if there was like total warfare or something and no medical ppl can tend to me, i'd probably wrap it up nicely the first time, and then never open it again... ha. my limb would rot and it'd spread to my whole body and i'll probably die from like a small burn or cut or whatever on one of my limbs. heh, yes, i'm THAT lazy. listening to my old mp3's again, so good. and so doomed, it's nearly 8am, and i'm still sitting here, AHHH! i wrote this for my icq info tho. unfortunately it can't be as descriptive and witty b/c of icq info word limit, and i'm too lazy to enhance it at the moment: "sightings of this nocturnal creature have been reported in taipei & vancouver. in the virtual world it is often seen online btwn 1-7am. it is extremely tempermental & sensitive to the speech & actions of others. the creature, thru listening, can often cure depression in others, yet it does not possess the power to self-heal from emotional pain. being an endangered species, it often experiences overwhelming loneliness & sadness.." and while i'm on icq infos, i've always wanted to post these old icq infos i had... some of them date REALLY far back, i don't even know how back, gr9 maybe... (oh, the order is from recent to past) maybe u're right. maybe i am naive. maybe i'm being stupid. maybe nobody really appreciates the things i do. but i think i'll go ahead and be stupid anyway. i don't want to be held responsible for making anyone feel the way they sometimes make me feel... oct 23. sometimes insight isn't a good thing... i remember about 3 years ago i was listening to 陳珊妮's song "過期" 這裡不夠安全 接近兩年 生命已經過期 每天都死去一點 他們沒有發現 你們沒有感覺 對年輕的長度 我不夠堅決 已經接近兩年 每天都死去一點 今天為明天多死去一點 今天比昨天還懦弱一些 接近兩年 每天都死去一點 每天都死去一年 now it's been more than 5 years lu.. oct 22. just remembered a word.. " feel / 感覺 ".. that's a very powerful word.. I hate it when you stare at me coldly and pretend that I'm your enemy. If only you could understand how much you truly mean to me. where do u feel secure? when do u feel secure? with whom do u feel secure? 人真的有完完全全放鬆, 卸下所有防備的時候嗎? 有一刻, 完全忘了形象, 只記得表達當下的心情... 不只是"開心就笑, 傷心就哭" 而是更徹底的我行我素... 我想要那樣子... ppl tell me that if i were to be that way, i'd never survive the outside world. but why do we always have to be so tough? or pretend to be weak to get certain things? why is it that so few people can be loved just for what they are, just the way they are? i'm not talking about perfection... i'm talking about seeing ur flaws as a part of u, not as something u urgently need to get rid of... may 4th music gym n beach everyday~ "watch and see" "listen and hear" "think and do" "learn and enjoy" life.. it's so simple and so complex i guess it's all about zen.. n ying n yang... and the big bang theory. haha may 6th "not waving but drowning" 原來這首詩的theme就是 "高處不勝寒" 果然還是中文最厲害 喜歡貓小姐寫的東東, 雖然我完全不認識她 她用她優美的文字, 輕易道出了我每日的小感想 最讓我們心動的文章啦, 歌啦, 都是因為一種熟悉的感覺吧 像"特別的朋友", 道出了很多人的心情, 但搞不好也毀很多未發芽的戀情 所以身為作者的我想說喔, 看看就好, 自己的未來, 怎麼說都是自己的, 該由自己來決定, 來掌握! 要學會為自己活一點... (對! 我是作者! 都沒有人信我... 唉~ [-____-"] ) 2/20 每個人都覺得自己是過的最慘 每個人都覺得自己的路走得最艱辛 今天... 一次掉了十根頭髮. but, whatever, right? 打這個電話! 寄SAT成績! 設定這個帳單的自動付費! 跟這個學校代表會談! 跟那個學校代表會談! 洗衣服! 收桌子! 修音響! 付房租! 申請這所大學! 申請這個獎學金! 考公民! 考駕照! 考LPI! 考數學比賽! 拿straight A! 煩不煩哪!!! :( 昨晚用手順一順頭髮 四根頭髮掉在手掌上... 又開始了~... 12/03 世界在轉 我被繞的昏頭暈轉 隱隱約約感覺到 我已被遠遠的拋在後方 埋沒在塵土中 我可以再爬起來追趕 but what's the point... 哈囉北鼻~ 活的還好嗎~ 很開心聽到妳開始認真讀書了, 雖然妳以前也說過很多次, 就像我也說過很多次"這次要盡力"一樣. 每過一次我回去的時候, 妳都會說, 我又變了. 你也是不停的在變啊, 你看不到嗎? 記得妳第一次說我變的很materialistic 我想我們五個現在都一樣了 活在昂貴社區的我 就讀出名有錢私立中學的你 只逛百貨公司的莉 去了紐約血拼的侯宜 ㄜ... 伶沒有... 記得以前都是伶不停的模仿著我們 希望成為我們 現在是誰羨慕誰呢? 卸了妝的臉蒼白到自己都被嚇到 眼睛乾乾紅紅的 可是閉上眼也睡不著 今天過的很充實 很開心 那我現在在幹嘛呢 我應該搬到一個沒黑夜的星球去. 期望這一只戒指可以代表我們的愛情 --- 一個完美的圓, 不會有終點. ｄａｖｉｄ~ 以前我不相信我可以跟一個人長期談戀愛; 我一直相信很快的雙方會開始厭倦對方. 是你改變了我, 讓我開始相信幸福的存在. 半年了~ 謝謝你一直這麼愛我, 包容我的任性. ｉ ｌｏｖｅ ｙｏｕ ｔｏｏ~ 今天, 我又收到來自遠方的信息. 已經很久沒收到信了, 今天突然從大雪中飄來了三封. 我告訴你了嗎? 今天下雪了... 應該是一個無論在哪方面, 都很開心的日子 可是... 我看著窗外 他凝視著前方 我不說話 他也沒有說話 時間和空間都靜止 停格的那一刻 在我腦海中--是永恆 2000/11/20 說什麼呢, 說什麼呢... 感覺... 空白~ === u ==== R ====== m === A ===== f === R === i ==== E ===== n == D ====== saa minni koko ni ai no niwa ni owari no nai yami wo nukete na mo nai hana ni kumo wa kataru saa minna wa koko de kanjita mama yeah claire北鼻... 我好想念過去, 為什麼要有改變, 為什麼我們踏上現在這條路... 每次聽孫燕姿的天黑黑, 都會有好深的感觸... 我也好想妳們... :( 我不想這樣的生活, 眼睛呆滯無神... 好想活在張震嶽的歌裡面~ ~我就像那浮萍一樣漂泊 誰能抓的住我呀~ 時間~ 不會充淡這一切 不會讓人對痛痲痺 只會讓記憶沉澱 只會讓人習慣了痛 不希望你不開心 但亦不願對你說謊 不要不理我好不好... 就算是敷衍都好... 你知不知道你痛的時候 我跟你一樣痛... please tell me we're going to be alright... 走到哪裡我也看見天空 原來我的心一直都沒有離開過 哪裡有屋簷能躲雨 那把傘在你心裡 進不去 [真的想了千萬次怎麼告訴你我還是喜歡你] [無奈提不起勇氣 卻也無法放棄 感到自己有小小失敗] 無奈戒不掉是想他的壞習慣 你一直說想知道我在想什麼 真的告訴你了 你又不相信我是認真的 那你到底要我怎樣才好呢 雖說了沒關係 但事實是我還很在意 擁有不擁有的問題 當他第一次看見紅色的時候, 他知道那不是祝福. 從那一刻開始, 對他來說, 那將永遠是象徵死亡的顏色... 不去講清楚 不代表就不會有人受傷 只是你看不見 我的內傷 有淚在我的眼框 唔知自己最近係點啊... 覺得我有點唔似以前o既我... 以前我唔係次次都為所欲為o架嗎? 以家真係唔知發生了乜事... 好似唔論做緊乜野都好在意 其他人會點想還是會有乜後果... o岩樣真係活得好煩呀!! 希望快D變回以前o既我啦! 唔好有o岩多顧忌啦... Let Go. --by ME! ha! "must wait will wait still waiting sometimes it's better to just let it go let him go let love go it's the only way to set urself free" 9/19 i know this is very very stupid, but lots of times when i'm troubled about an issue, i just tell myself that i if dun't think about it, it'll all go away, and history will be erased. but instead, i start thinking of it even more. so annoying! 9/15 不曉得 不懂得 晚上失眠的理由 也越來越不懂 我想要的生活 和堅持的理由 這不是記憶中的'我'... 但... 是我想要的'我'嗎? 只是站在原地不敢前進也不想退 9/12 "我愛你" 這是多麼簡單， 又多麼沈重的三個字啊， 輕鬆的不用一秒鐘就能說完， 沈重的有許多人用一生去猶豫， 終究沒有說出來。 --sonice 一段段凌亂的回想; 有些溫暖, 也有些遺憾... 我想... 就像這幾句話一樣... "if you love something very much, let it go free. if it comes back to you, love it always. if it doesn't, it was never meant to be." 心ズ穴ゎ空ゑ 最近感覺什麼都不想說 什麼都不想做 什麼都不去想 什麼都不再試著去分析/解釋 是懶了還是發現了生活就該這樣 走路的時候就是走路 看星星時就專心看星星 聽音樂就只管靜靜沉醉 不再去想下一刻的事情 不再去想過去的憂慮 明天變得很遙遠 很遙遠 遠到我不想去想 也不再在乎 我到底怎麼了 怎麼什麼都不想管 一大堆projects and tests 但是覺得自己又什麼都不在乎了 曾經很嚮往這樣的灑脫 現在只是害怕 但又像是連害怕也沒了 只是一片空白 沒有感覺 我又在發瘋了 別理我啦.. 回憶是我們擁有最美麗的東西, 也是我們一路走來的依據. 有時候, 拼命的尋找原因或答案只會加深你的困擾, 因為答案只是另一個答案的問題. 何必一定要有目標有依據? 不屬於什麼反而快樂些. 別庸人自擾了, 快樂地為自己活一次吧! 勇於嘗試, 別讓每個機會演化成遺憾. we are only what we are... and be proud of who you are. 有時候想起他, 會有種不能呼吸的感覺... 別人問起, 為難自己說不想念 說著笑著紅了眼... 微笑, 是我對你唯一的語言. 微笑, 也是我對你一切愛戀的唯一宣洩. 微笑, 是你給我的唯一回應. 微笑, 也代表著你已毫不在意. 微笑, 因為我們都有了自由. 微笑, 因為我其實已不知所措.
SHOWER SURVEY
1.do you start the water before or after you get in? yup. and then i always get carried away plucking my eyebrows or pulling out blackheads and waste a lot of hot water. 2.do you read the labels on your shampoo bottles? yes, i read labels on almost anything when i have time. 3.have you ever showered with someone else? hmm, what? what? what's that? 4.have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? i don't have siblings, muwaha. but i might've bathed together with my (girl) cousins when i was small. 5.have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? wow, that's a bizarre thing to do. no. 6.have you ever dropped the soap on your foot? i might've...? i dunno... i don't use soap much tho, mainly shower gel... 7.how old do you look while wet and when a towel is the only thing on your body? eh...? as old as i am at that time i guess... i have young skin, muwahahahaa. 8.what's the last song you sang in the shower? some random song i made up. i can't ever really sing real songs cuz i tend to forget lyrics in the shower. 9.when do you usually shower? whenever i feel dirty. :p 10.when is the last time you showered? aww, why do u have to ask that NOW... it was quite a while ago, not like WEEKS, no... but well over a day... it's not my fault tho, it's my burnt hand, i've been wanting a shower for so unbelievably long. 11.do you have fantasies of other people in the shower? i WHAT???!! hahaha that was a bizarre end to a survey, heh. hmm. maybe i shouldn't overuse the word "bizarre"... and maybe i should go to sleep, it's 5:48am, craps... i'm supposed to be up in at least 6 hours to do the stuff i'm supposed to do! i prob already said this but for the heck my own remembrance, i need to shower right now, that'll take a while... cuz i have to keep on right hand absolutely dry >< then i need to read b4 i sleep b/c i always do, and then sleep... then i've gotta get my prescription, get my hand wrapped, get some food, study at jenny's (ie. bug mike lee about organic chem), go to buubuu's to make him wash my car (HE GOT THE POWER WASHER!) and use his new $3600 massage bed (WHOA)... waaa, that sounds good. that sounds so good... but i wanna do more emode.com tests! ARGHH. and damn blogger is still down, i'm typing and saving this as a e-mail draft right now, and i've typed, let's see. WHOA!!! 24k!!! i'm crazy... must be all that pent up energy from not being able to write the english final, hahaha. ***************** the end of posts typed before 6am********************
1. Name: melody
2. If there were 3 wells (love, beauty, and creativity) and you could only drink from one of them, which one would you choose? oh, there was a well in japan for either love wisdom or health, and i picked love, but it ended up badly. well it kinda did, i suffered first, then 3 months later i found buubuu. so maybe it did work... oh right, anyway, if picking one would not change my status in the other ones, then i'd pick beauty, cuz i have a lot of love, and enough creativity i think. 3. Do you wish on stars? on shooting stars maybe. actually no i don't, i've seen quite a lot of shooting stars and i've never made a wish.. always afriad of it not coming true and then that's one less thing i believe in. :( 4. Which finger is your favorite? my left index finger b/c i tend to have the perfect fingernail shape on that finger and it's useful. for picking my nose. hahahaha (well, u asked.) 5. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten? hmm. there must be something...? oh, this stew thing we had at daycare when i was a kid. i remember the kids had to go help transport it from the kitchen that was in another building, and when i was doing that i discovered some RAT POOP in the stew. EWW. i remembered eating the stew anyway. i can't be sure if that was a dream or false memory, but since i can still kinda recall the TASTE, it's likely that it was truly... there was also that time mom made frog soup, and i'm ok with frog meat, i kinda like it.. but that time mom basically just boiled 3 skinned frogs in water, cuz the idea was for me to get nutrients, not enjoy the food... imagine 3 skinned frogs, perfect muscle structure and all, floating around in a pot of clear soup... and u finishing it all. it tasted good tho, even tho it looked real weird. 6. Would you kill someone? yes. yes. yes. wait... hmm. sooner or later. hahaha 7. When did you last cry? tears? when i typed that entry about buubuu waving at me in his gr11. crying? last night, i can't remember why tho, b/c i cried over 3 times yesterday. :p 8. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead? somebody unconventional. a little ditzy maybe. winoa ryder? i really don't know. 9.What TV show or movie TITLE best describes your life? i'm thinking the 70s show, cuz like those ppl me and my friends always seem to be doing the same things over n over... but maybe i'm just thinking of the theme song for the 70s show. 10. Do you like your handwriting? *weep* i can't handwrite!! but if u mean just printing, then yeah, i'm proud of it too. 11. Who are you jealous of? somebody i know immediately came to mind, but then not really cuz she has her downside too... so i must say, i'm jealous of perfect ppl. ha 12. What is your #1 priority in life? making my family and close friends happy. 13. What is your favorite lunch meat? ohh that italian peppered ham that they have in safeway! i can't describe it, it's coated with pepper and herbs, it's sooo good. 14. Do you have any bad habits? SOO many!! SOOO many. procrasination is the biggest one. procrasination also leads to my very bad living area sanitary concerns -- i'm too lazy to take out the garbage, or to even dump it in the garbage can. or to put the dishes into the dishwasher. or to throw out expired milk n stuff like that. 15. Are you a friendly person? to ppl i know, yeah. but the thing is, when i meet ppl, it's either we click or we don't, and once i consider that person my friend, i become the extremely straight forward person that i am, so i think i give some ppl the impression that i'm bossy or something.. i'm not, i just think we're friends enough to joke around like that... 16. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? yeah, i'm dying to meet someone as considerate as me, and someone who will come out whenever i call, LOL. 17. Are you a daredevil? eh, if it's gross stuff or humiliating stuff then no. i guess no then. 18. How big was the biggest mango you ever had? the size of an average... oh crap, what are those called? oh. the size of an average papaya. it was good. 19. Have you ever been told a secret that you swore you wouldn't repeat? on many occasions. have i kept those secrets? YES! heehee (another thing i'm proud of! wow, this survey is making me like myself more) 20. Who do you think is the most attractive animated character? i dun read a lot of comics or watch a lot of cartoons, but i like the guy in GTO. it's bizarre, i know. and oh, that skunk guy in bugs bunny cartoons is cute too, since he's so smooth and romantic, hahaha. 21. Do looks matter? yes. yes. yes. oh, when u're gonna be in a relationship i mean... i'd tell u that i don't think it matters but then i would be lying b/c i don't really envision myself being with someone really ugly... tho i think some ppl might want to say that that's not true... hey... dun diss my taste... 22. Do you pray? no. but i do silly things like folding 1001 cranes or catching 999 planes. WHOA, that rhymed. i've also folded 999 stars too. and in reality i've folded over 3000 cranes by now, but only with a wish twice tho. hey they both came true. :) i think it's b/c they were good will wishes. i'm very very glad they came true. :) 23. Have you ever met anyone famous? umm, refer to my fridayfive answer. heh. wait... ohhhhhh, does shao's mom count??? and ann's dad?? OHHHH!!! so i HAVE met celebrities!!!!! hahaha 24. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? i don't think that a rainbow actually ends... does it??? 25. What are your biggest fears? being LONELY! being UNWANTED! AHHHH!! and to some extent, being dumb. 26. What do you do to vent anger? i cry, wuu. and i whine to buubuu when it isn't him that pissed me off. and i go for drives. and i cry some more. i'm more often hurt than mad... but when i'm "angry" i swear at whoever pissed me off and get even. 27. Are you passive or aggressive? aggressive. 28. Who is/are your idol(s)? i don't really idolize anyone. nobody meets my expectations. ha 29. Who is your second family? buubuu. and my little circle of friends. (yah, now invite me to ur houses for dinner, i need dinner.) 30. Do you trust others easily? too easily than i should... 31. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? yes, buubuu! 32. Do you love him/her? *blush* yes.
hiphip hooray! winnie has another survey! heh.
here is a pre-italicized version for all you ppl out there first tho. this is an encouragement for u to also tell me ur answers in ur blog... heh~ ooo, tell me if u do this survey! heh. 1. Name: 2. If there were 3 wells (love, beauty, and creativity) and you could only drink from one of them, which one would you choose? 3. Do you wish on stars? 4. Which finger is your favorite? 5. What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten? 6. Would you kill someone? 7. When did you last cry? 8. If you were making a movie about yourself, who would play the lead? 9.What TV show or movie TITLE best describes your life? 10. Do you like your handwriting? 11. Who are you jealous of? 12. What is your #1 priority in life? 13. What is your favorite lunch meat? 14. Do you have any bad habits? 15. Are you a friendly person? 16. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? 17. Are you a daredevil? 18. How big was the biggest mango you ever had? 19. Have you ever been told a secret that you swore you wouldn't repeat? 20. Who do you think is the most attractive animated character? 21. Do looks matter? 22. Do you pray? 23. Have you ever met anyone famous? 24. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? 25. What are your biggest fears? 26. What do you do to vent anger? 27. Are you passive or aggressive? 28. Who is/are your idol(s)? 29. Who is your second family? 30. Do you trust others easily? 31. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? 32. Do you love him/her? SHOWER SURVEY 1.do you start the water before or after you get in? 2.do you read the labels on your shampoo bottles? 3.have you ever showered with someone else? 4.have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? 5.have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? 6.have you ever dropped the soap on your foot? 7.how old do you look while wet and when a towel is the only thing on your body? 8.what's the last song you sang in the shower? 9.when do you usually shower? 10.when is the last time you showered? 11.do you have fantasies of other people in the shower?
and oh, here's the Friday Five!
1. Who is your favorite celebrity? asian: nicholas tse!! for reasons view #5 other: i guess... umm. maybe jennifer lopez. it's most like respect tho, that she can be so successful, have so much charisma, overcome the big butt thing, be controversial yet universally loved... i was just watching much music's "hot/not" today, and a critic said that j.lo. is really just a mediocre singer/actress, and i think that's true. which is why i admire her even more, for being so successful anyway. and she's CURVY! this is so off topic, but when i heard that chantelle girl won "are you hot: the search for the sexiest ppl in america", i was so disappointed. i mean yes, i think she was the prettiest girl in the competition, but COME ON, she's STICK THIN!!! oh right. on to the next question... 2. Who is your least favorite? there's way too many... but the first one to hit my mind is shaggy, goddamned womanizer and most annoying singer EVER! how the F did he sell multi-million copies of that crap thing he calls music??? i also don't really like twins and other new canto singers just like them... not that i have a thing against them personally but the entire culture of talentless pretty faces disgusts me. oh, i also don't really like a lot of the punk or hard rock bands.. esp the kinds that paint their faces and pretend to be goth... i never really believe that they are really into that, i think it's just a show most of the time. so that's why marylin manson gets to be excluded from this "least favourite" catagory, cuz that guy is REALLY satanic... did u know that he is an actual (honorary?) priest of the most prestigious satan-worship church? 3. Have you ever met or seen any celebrities in real life? in concerts and other similar occasions. oh, did u say real life? i don't think so. but ohhh that would be so awesome. if it was someone i acutally like... not like seeing some washed out old canto soap actor when i go to drink tea... who, what? i didn't name anybody. in fact he was too washed out, i don't even remember his name... :p 4. Would you want to be famous? Why or why not? yeaaaa, cuz then i can make ppl do things, and i techniquely wouldn't be lonely again. u know, like i can at least always surround myself with ppl so i won't have to stop and realize how lonely i am, haha. this answer only applies if we're talking rich and famous tho. *cackles evily* 5. If you had to trade places with a celebrity for a day, who would you choose and why? male? nicholas tse for his looks, lifestyle, personality, talent, attitude, gf(s)? haha~ being edison wouldn't be bad either, actually it might be better, since nicholas crashed his modena, but edison still has his, and it's a nice sterling blue color, and edison just seems generally happier... and yes, he can pretty much score with any girl he wants. haha~ female? probably no one, i'm sick and tired of being a girl... but if it had to be a female celebrity, it would either be penelope cruz or j.lo. cruz b/c HEY, i get to be with tom cruise, and who can honestly say they don't want legs like that? and j.lo. b/c she's admired for her curves!! it's impossible to get that in today's society unless u're j.lo. ppl keep on saying she revolutionized the concept of beauty, but it's not true, she is just a successful exception... *sigh* wa, this issue of friday five is good! well the questions are common n mediocre but it made me think. :)  |