didn't do much today... was up until 6:30am till i got so fainty i couldn't even bother to wash up... tho my hair really stank from the hot pot and smoke. :p didn't get up till 3, showered and later went to ubc to study with jenny and winnie... cept we barely studied... cuz i picked up jenny, went to get macdonald's, got winnie, got to north parkade, went out to snatch the huge collin farrell poster, went to put it back in the car, got to the library, got our UBCcards, took a while to find a seat, stacked all my things on the table.. in the end i only read half of "the caretaker"... and i still don't even know what a caretaker does... haha~

afterwards i ended up going to jenny's for hotpot, and omg i didn't know so many ppl can fit on that table... there was me jenny michael jackie jenny's mom mei jenny's mom's friend this girl alan matthew kent^2 alan's gf... 10 ppl... very scary. and i sat beside "fackie" (fat jackie) so he blocked me from the scary ppl, heh very very good. it was good dinner... and it was interesting, b/c it's all the ppl i kept seeing in gr8, since their lockers were close to mine. except now i can understand everything they're saying... very interesting... i'm so screwed, i'm becoming a total honger... ahhh. i must resist, by refusing to learn how to play majhong. and it's ok, i don't drink either.

learnt about the new cabinet and directors of CASS (tho yeah i'm not supposed to learn yet)... dunno what exactly are my thoughts on it.. can't exactly comment without insulting others i suppose... haha~ now i'm confused tho... should i bug jenny about letting me into sports, or should i just stay in PR, cuz the potential new directors of PR seem like it's gonna be an easy if not fun year... heh. trying to think of the pissed off jenny for the past two weeks, become the pissed off jenny year round..... AHHHH!

got to spend time with buu buu after i got home tonight... we pulled a couple chairs out onto the balcony and just sat there smoking and drinking coffee and chatting.. haven't done anything like that with him for so, so, soo long... i was happy and sad... *sigh* getting sad these days for no reason again... blame janice! it started when i bumped into her. haha~
posted by melody at 3/31/2003 05:05:00 p.m.

yay, i got good e-mails today... here's a short one to share with u.

【說話的溫度】文 / 陳傑夫

急事，慢慢的說
大事，清楚的說
小事，幽默的說
沒把握的事，謹慎的說
沒發生的事，不要胡說
做不到的事，別亂說
傷害人的事，不能說
討厭的事，對事不對人的說
開心的事，看場合說
傷心的事，不要見人就說
別人的事，小心的說
自己的事，聽聽自己的心怎麼說
現在的事，做了再說
未來的事，未來再說
如果，對我們有不滿意的地方，請一定要對我們說！
posted by melody at 3/31/2003 04:47:00 p.m.

oh... we should write a "acknowledgements" paragraph for the badminton event... like u would do if u published a scientific essay and u wanted to thank all the ppl who've helped... here's mine...

to jenny and winnie for just being in the horrible prep work with me. specifically, to winnie for taking photos and making the poster, to jenny for uh EVERYTHING, and not giving me a really hard time about screwing up the gym rentals... to eric for all that math, and court scheduling. to michelle for being the world's most collected and efficient scorekeeper. to vinci for constantly keeping guard of the prizes, medals and $$. to elvis for picking up the water dispensers and bottles. to all the ppl who found sponsors (only jenny elvis vinci me ><) b/c that was in my opinion the hardest part of it all. to the ppl who helped set up the gym... to all the ppl who showed up and played excellent games. to the nicest high school custodian i've ever met (danny?). to everybody who tried to help finish drinking that last bottle of water, hahaha. to... all the ETP ppl that bothered to come to the meetings... to the richmond school board n london secondary and all our sponsors (beautimax, elvis' uncle, rackets and runners, sportsmart, soccer link, canadian spring)...

and here's my UNofficial NO THANKS list:
to dragon lady who rented churchill away without asking if we don't want it anymore.
to the elusive members of the ETP program that i'm not quite sure even exist.
to the people who quitted less than 24 hours before the event, causing a lot of wasted work, extra work, and loss of $$.
to the many many many impolite people all of us had to deal with in making this event happen.

*ne-eh*... it was still fun, b/c we made it fun. with our jokes... ar dee and them cheering for roz and shao... me with my "goin' a kick some ass" (country accent), eugene with his jimmy neutron hair-do, shao's version of storm the bleacher wall. shao and jim "beat" michael and david. trying to drink up all that water (omg, 12 cups is way too much). and dinner at the jap place afterwards... which started quite weird but ended up ok, heh.

it's all good. it's all good.

see how happy i am now that i'm done complaining... excellent... i can go to sleep now... and later wake up to study for the rest of sunday. which will get me mad again. ><
posted by melody at 3/30/2003 09:50:00 p.m.

went to return the water dispensers and bottles today with jenny, cuz the guys are too cheap to do it. make two girls with 2-door cars go to the middle of no where in richmond to return super heavy water dispensers that have to stay upright and 18.9L bottles of water... we said abandon chauvinism and celebrate equality, but this is so not equality. i got this e-mail saying how only 14% of the women who lived over 100 years old were married, but all the men living over 100 years old were married. that's the thing... guys are the baggage in our lives... they always wreck it for us... in today's society, men and women both work. but the women go home and do house chores and take care of the kids. after lots of nagging, the men take the kids out to play, do sports. the kids favor the dad, who's the authority figure and has fun, and doesn't nag "like mom". the women get cancer from all that daily exposure to cooking fumes and potentially unsafe cleaning agents. have u ever seen that commercial where this old man talks about how his wife would always try to get him to quit smoking cuz it's lethal, and he didn't listen, but eventually his WIFE died of ung cancer from 2nd hand smoke? men pollute us... GRRR. i'm not a radical feminist, i'm just an angry feminist. and have u heard about the newest rape method...

instead of just drugging rape victims so they won't remember anything, some rapists now use sterilizers too. the type of sterilizer that are commonly used for rape is the type that is used on HORSES. what does this mean? it means that after the incident, the girl will not only not be able to recall what happened, she will also have no means of identifying her rapist thru DNA afterwards. why? because they sterilizer's effect is not temporary. in plain english, THE RAPE VICTIM WILL NEVER IN HER LIFETIME BE ABLE TO GIVE BIRTH. now i'm REALLY angry.. GRRR

i'm going totally off topic... let's go back to "returning water"... we got SOOO lost... and we were squished in the car seats cuz we had to fit the water dispensers in... especially jenny, her knees were practically touching the steering wheel... but we got lost, damn richmond crappy road signs... went up and down up and down up and down westminister hwy... *sigh*

i went to the sub in the evening to do some studying, and finally realized just how much work i have to do... but i made the mistake of going to all u can eat hot pot with jen win pin lin roz n ann... and going to shao's house afterwards. and staying till 3am.. craps. i guess it was fun tho... it was probably for the best, since buubuu didn't keep his promise about seeing me tonight again and went off to help barry with his math homework. never quite as eager to help me with my math homework... i hate that feeling when i'm always putting certain ppl's trivial things as my priorities, and them not noticing or appreciating... i'm getting so sick and tired of going out of my way to do things that i don't have to do, and not getting even any recognition for it... i'm not asking u to be eternally grateful here... if u would just fucking notice and say "appreciate it" or something it would likely be more than i expected from u already anyway.

i'm so.. angry right now... well i'm a little bit too tired to be angry, but greatly greatly annoyed... *sigh* i hope i didn't make u all angry too. warned u tho, didn't i. but i guess.. u didn't heed my warnings... oh well. I feel better after letting it out. how u feel about what i think is ur business.
posted by melody at 3/30/2003 09:28:00 p.m.

what should i talk about? i've been meaning to "talk to my blog" so much these days, but there's just no time... let's talk about the badminton tournament... i suppose i can only say that it sucked. why? let's see.
For those of u that DID do ur share of work too, bare with me, i really need to complain and get this all out...
1) all that prep work, so much prep work, half a tank of gas in 2 days?? ahhhh.
2) jenny was mean and mad looking... not always AT me (not visibly, tho i knew u were jenny. heh) but it's not easy being around a mad looking person for 2 weeks... not knowing if u're the reason they're ticked off and afriad of ticking them off again... tho i know it's 100x more stressful on her, being the leader of the ETP and all.
3) i set up the small gym by myself, with a little help from jerry n shao in the end (thanks!), then i went to the big gym to find that there were at least 15 cass execs there, and after maybe 20 minutes they haven't set up a THING. and so i had to help set up the big gym too. then there was all the running around looking for the custodian. me.. the little physically weak girl with asthma and 2 hours sleep the night before... i don't mind helping everyone get the event ready, but that was not called HELPING...
4) with all the organization before hand, it was all supposed to run smoothly, it was supposed to be a sold out event, we were supposed to be profiting. but none of those things happened. we were behind schedule to start, the facility wasn't good, a bunch of ppl couldn't even find the place, people cancelled on us the night before, and we're now IN DEBT. we went from making over 100 to IN DEBT. x___X"
5) none of my friends won first place. that sucked.

aside from that, it was fun.. like i've said before... the feeling of being part of something is good... i wouldn't mind doing it again. but i'd much much rather be doing a basketball related tournament... something that i actually care about... [roz, STOP reading] i mean badminton was all good and fun in highschool, it really was, but i don't wanna go beyond that level, where everyone takes it so freaking seriously, u can't even make fun of the sport... they don't wanna hit the birdie around, they wanna smash it into the ground... all the ego and stuff that goes with sports like football or basketball is now inherent in badminton... but it's just extra weird cuz this is a non contact sport... i dunno... i don't resent playing the sport but there's no point in playing anymore... ppl at my level can't be bothered to play, and if i played with roz n them i'll always feel like i'm just ruining the game for them.
posted by melody at 3/30/2003 09:07:00 p.m.

my god it's been a while. not as long as some ppl tho. *hint hint*

been so freakishly busy this week that i didn't even have time to check e-mail, so i've just spent the past 1.5 hours reading mail, and i'm not even half done yet. >< i think the biggest indication of my busy-ness was that i barely saw buubuu at all this week... cept for that morning when i just could not get up and walk on my feet and we just slept in... x___X" i don't even know what i was so busy doing... i mean there was the all nighter i pulled for the rat dissection prep. studying for the jap midterm. studying for the math midterm. working on the lab report and prelab. working on that math homework. a LOT of looking for sponsors... i felt so stupid looking for sponsors... here's my sponsor search journey...

after class on wednesday, armed with 3.5 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours, i went to richmond sportsmart to find sponsors, got a $15 gift certificate. then i went to richmond center to get a drink and tried a couple shops there, without luck. then i went to MAL, left a proposal but of course they didn't call back. went to tad's, where they said they don't want to do any sponsoring right now. got stuck in traffic all the way too. then went to downtown sportsmart, where there was even more traffic, and took maybe 15 minutes to find a parking space, only to find out that they ran out of sponsorship stuff... on thursday after class it was more driving.. rounding up everyone to go to richmond to eat, dropping everyone off again and then heading to cambie sportsmart. which also ran out of sponsorship goods. so the sponsor search didn't officially end till friday afternoon, 30 minutes before the badminton tournament... when i gave up, typed up a fake sponsorship proposal, and got jenny to pretend she was "olivia lee" and got another gift certificate from richmond sportsmart. haha~ PR is a very crappy job.
posted by melody at 3/30/2003 08:54:00 p.m.

the drive thru lady complimented my car this morning and it made my day. ... . ok, it made my day a bit better. but still... small things can make other ppl feel so good, how come ppl never seem to bother?

question: if u were driving in your car not particularly in a hurry to go anywhere, and u saw a car hit a dog and drive away... would u help the dog owner get the dog to a doctor? even if it means dog blood all over your car seat? or would u just leave it alone to die, u selfish bastard?? :p

so much to do today... tons of stuff to read and learn for tmw's rat dissection, tons of chem notes to copy, tons to read for english, tons to study for jap and math... oh and chem labS... but i'll worry about that later... much later... at least i wouldn't feel like i have to watch the oscars, cuz i haven't watched a single film that's been nominated this year. i think... since no one ever wants to go watch a movie w/ me... it can't be bad timing b/c u think of all the ppl i ask all the time someone would have time once to go... it can't be money since i ask ppl to go watch those $2 movies at the sub too and still no one wants to go... it can't be bad movies cuz sometimes i ask someone to go watch a movie and either they've seen it already or they go see it with someone else later on.. so it must be me then... *sigh* i'm making myself sound like a big loser, but who knows, maybe that's exactly what i am.
posted by melody at 3/24/2003 02:53:00 a.m.

munching away on 魷魚絲 right now, even though i really shouldn't - techniquely i'm still sick.. with a light fever and headache too.

i did go to class yesterday... lied in my bed till 8:10am before i could make up my mind about it tho... i didn't end up reading the tempest since i was up most of the night just plain thinking, but thankfully we didn't get a chance to discuss it in class. hastily copied some answers in math and handed the homework in. sometimes i think to myself, have some dignity girl, do it yourself or else just don't hand it in... but hey, i've had ppl copying off me for 8+ years, it oughta be my turn now... biol class was cancelled so i got to go home for a shower and a wee bit of sleep, then i got up late and RUSHED to the cass gathering, fast walking thru the rain cuz i didn't have time to go back to get my umbrella... but it turned out it was absolutely useless... cuz when they took the PR department photo nobody told me to go, and i didn't realize till jenny told me when they were almost done, so i'm not even in the photo. then predisential election speeches took forever, but the person who i thought was gonna win won anyway... and then the dinner party at the clubhouse was even worse... first of all i couldn't really eat the dinner... second of all there was nothing to do there... third of all before long the place was oozing of booze... fourth of all i was so sick and tired i just wanted to get home... *sigh*. friday just was not a good day. then i had an argument with david so i wasn't picking up his calls, but for whatever stupid reason i still wanted to make sure he got home ok, so i parked outside his car waiting for him to get home... somehow a police car pulled up and slowed down till it was in front of me. then it changed its mind and reversed and stopped behind me. then it changed its mind again and pulled up to the front of the block, then it changed its mind AGAIN and finally stopped behind me... then the police woman got out with a flashlight and apparently went to investigate david's neighbour's house... i dunno, my windows were all fogged up. but i just sat there for like 40 minutes, till david finally got home, took a while to get into the garage cuz the police car was blocking the driveway, and didn't notice i was there at all, even tho i turned the engine on and drove past him... i don't think i have ever felt quite so insignificant and invisible before. or actually i have.. but that's not the point...


posted by melody at 3/23/2003 09:23:00 a.m.

我想要談戀愛, 不是談relationship;
我想要歡樂談笑, 不是偷偷飲泣.
posted by melody at 3/22/2003 05:34:00 p.m.

interesting how taking an "o" away from "all bout me" changes it to "all but me"...

sucking on a sunkist vitamin C tablet for the sake of tasting some flavour, tho i don't think it's very good for my stomach... but it's just vitamin C, with artificial orange flavour.. shouldn't be too bad, is it?

i ought to be resting, or at least reading shakespeare... but something in a blog struck me... the girl in "香港有個hollywood", i can think of another girl in real life who's just like her... the twisted mentality and insecurity and the measures she takes to deal with her problems... no i'm not talking about myself... but... the similarity never struck me before and now it's so... i dunno... i can't quite put into words what's in my head right now...

i'm starting to think that i probably won't go to class tmw at all.. even tho i studied jap, i tried my math homework, and i copied my bio notes... physical tiredness is one thing... but i just don't feel like facing the world... still have to tho... cass gatherings starting at 4pm... *sigh*
posted by melody at 3/21/2003 06:24:00 p.m.

feeling like i've been given up upon.
life isn't a bitch. it's just that sometimes the ppl in your life turn into bitches. the ppl who are supposed to be telling you that life isn't a bitch.

think i got food poisoning after i ate at richmond sushi on wednesday night... had to stay home all day thursday, which isn't a nice thing to do, cuz that means i've missed my 3rd chem class in a row again, missed my 3rd jap quiz (about two more and they won't let me take the final), and i missed my CHEM LAB... which really really really sucks, since peter already sent me the lab report and was going to send me the prelab too... (thanks again...). but i didn't even have the energy to get up and rephrase and copy... i think if i had done that, i probably would've been able to drag my butt to the lab and finish it up real quick... but no, now i'm gonna have to hope for a make-up lab... otherwise i'll get a make-up worksheet, which means i can only get max 25/30, and i might not even get that high, since the worksheets aren't always easy... :p

getting so confused in japanese... mainly by that "causative" grammer... didn't know one thing could screw u up so much... got 4/10 on the last quiz, definetly the worst i've ever done on anything related to japanese.. heh. oh well... i dun have the determination to see anything thru these days, so i prob won't be taking any more courses in jap after this anyway.

finally decided on changing my planned major to psychology under science... since psychology under arts doesn't seem much more attractive, and i've already got so many science credits... this means that i'll still have to take physics 101 during the summer... i'm gonna sign up for math105 too, in case i fail math101... :p damn, should've taken math 105 in the first place, judging from winnie's notes it's so much easier. of course that's not to say that i'll be any better at it than i am now... heh.

got so sick of congee, so fast.... only been two meals.. maybe b/c the congee from 'the place under the place' really really sux... eveyrthing seems to "really really suck" to me lately.

went to richmond school board and finally got the badminton court booked... a lot of driving and not knowing where i'm at.. heh. damn. i just forgot why i mentioned that... nevermind...

ugh i still feel sick, but i'm supposed to at least read 3 acts of the tempest before i go to sleep... hmm... and i ought to, b/c somehow, even tho i've only gone to i think 3 discussion groups, and less than 7 lectures, my engl 110 discussion group TA (david... one of the davids.. heh) somehow knows my name. and can match a face to the name. and apparently an e-mail address to my face and name also... :p dun wanna get picked and have to admit that i haven't read the play at all, cept for a bit of coles notes on the first act... heh. it's funny... i can analyze the first act but can't cite a single line from the text... never really knew what this feels like, since i was always the goody goody who did the reading as soon as i got the text... of course this only applies to english... :p

better go read up now... or fall asleep trying...
posted by melody at 3/21/2003 04:54:00 p.m.

went to "the place under the place" with buu buu this afternoon, and i realized how long it's been since i've been there in the afternoon when it was still bright outside. well... it's been roughly a year. heh. it reminds me of how we used to go there afterschool for afternoon snacks all the time... and ann would always get the spaghetti and ever finish it... ah... memories. i was gonna make buubuu go walk around point grey with me, but then it was kinda cold... :p parked next to a 2002 or older model celica in the parking lot... heeheeHEE *laughs evily*. that celica had an interesting design tho... he had two arch thingies on the front hood next to the bigger air vent, that kinda resembles spoilers... but spoilers on the engine hood?? heh heh... probably just for decoation purposes... looked ok... but still... the kaka's on my block still have the best remodelling!! heh... oh yeah... i finally saw the owner of the white GT with carbon fiber engine hood... in UBC.... *uck*... u should always look at cars.. not the guys who drive them, just the CAR. heh that reminds me of me and jenny's funny discovery that there are a lot of ugly/disgusting guy drivers out there, but u don't see as much ugly/disgusting girl drivers... even if u do it's mainly just 師奶 type...

ok... now it's really 6am... i'd better get back to my essay... doesn't really matter tho, i've already overfulfilled the word count, and i haven't even put in the conclusion yet.. just wanted to work on the organization and development more... in those aspects it sux so far... looks like a C+ essay right now... >< (no, of course that's not good enuff... haha)

refute to roz: no, we don't need to have a thousand photos in our club site, b/c we don't feel an urgent need to declare to the world that we're having fun. we KNOW we're having fun.

heh... kidding.. all the photos are on an exec only ftp site... it's EXCLUSIVE fun.. muwahaha
posted by melody at 3/17/2003 10:06:00 p.m.

it's almost 6am, my essay's due at 9am, i'm not done. but my brain is wandering off again.. so rather than forcing myself to write crap, i'm just gonna blog for a bit instead. i think i might be the only person i know who has the courage to leave an english essay till 4am to start when it's due at 9am... and when i haven't attended a single class of poetry, and haven't read much of the poetry anthology so don't know which poem i'm writing on... i ended up writting on the T.S. Eliot poem ("Preludes") that i posted here sometime in feburary... sux how no one gave me any response on it, and i didn't attend the lecture when the prof covered it, and i didn't get to do my oral presentation on it afterall b/c of the strike... but i spent about an hour searching the web and now i think i understand the poem quite well... just don't REALLY get the significance of the last two lines yet.... "the worlds revolve like ancient women/ gathering fuel in vacant lots." i KNOW there's some deeper meaning to it besides repetition, mundanity, tedium, and struffle. MORE MEANING!! heh heh heh. i wanna know cuz i wanted that to be an opening quote... i love opening quotes... now i'm wondering how many ppl are skipping this part b/c i'm talking about poetry.. with so much enthusiasm... hahaha. can't help it, it's T.S. Eliot... gotta love the guy.
posted by melody at 3/17/2003 10:06:00 p.m.

mel's discovery --
there are a lot of rough looking, chubby guys in their 40s that like to eat KFC in their pick up trucks in the parking lot outside KFC. they also like to feed the birds. they also tend to throw their fries in the direction behind your car for the birds. when it should be obvious that you're just about to back out.

how nice. i know the birds usually fly away in time. but still...

was thinking in the shower yesterday and realized how much i drove in the past two days... home-ubc. ubc-home. home-jenny's. jenny's- dunbar stb. dunbar stb-ubc. ubc-david's. david's-jenn's. jenn's-jenny's. jenny's-richmond. richmond-home. home-david's. david's-home. home-richmond. richmond-bubble world. bubble-world-david's. david's-carwash. carwash-home. home-jenny's. jenny's-richmond. richmond-bubble world. bubble world-dewi's. dewi's-jenny's. jenny's-home...

got ppl to go to vogue yesterday, and we gave shao his birthday present and "card"... everyone couldn't stop laughing when winnie and roz brought out the "card"... it was a 3-D paper marche frog of about the size of.... 3 basketballs? hehheh.. it was very hilarious. but also it was a very nice frog... heeheehee it was hilarious.

woke up this morning and tried to read my poetry anthology so i can get started on that essay that's due early tomorrow morning, but i kept on falling asleep... and now that i'm really awake i don't feel like working on it at all... i'm probably just gonna surf the net and then go eat... sleep some more or watch some tv... then start panicking at around 11pm... heh heh... since there's also lots of other stuff to worry about. oh yeah, like biol presentation... or chem labS. or math. or jap. *frowns*

OHHH YEAH... i had this series of bizarre dreams this morning.. one vivid one was that we had to create some sort of project for CASS, and we were all kinda in this woodworking room, but the stuff we made were like kiddy arts stuff, like a cardboard box with decorations inside. i think the theme might've been kidergarton playground, judging from my project... i put half of mine somewhere, since there were two parts to mine... i saw jenny and we chatted... then i went back and the half was gone! someone had stolen it! and i had an ANXIETY ATTACK, IN MY DREAM. i remember not being able to breathe... and it's like the blood all rushed to my head and all flushed out really quick.. and i had to open a door and go stand outside to get my breathe back... that wasn't the most pleasant dream... tho there were some other ones... including one dream in which i was in some sort of beauty+talent contest, but i remembered being really fat, just around the waist, but it didn't make me feel very different, and i was doing alright in the competition... but this very ethnic girl who was in the top three for a particular segment of the contest showed obvious dislike towards me... etc... alright maybe particular parts of the dream weren't that great... but there were the good parts too. :)
posted by melody at 3/17/2003 08:04:00 a.m.

*everything always falls into place in time*

damn TAs... not quite sure i support them so much anymore.
i actually got up early this morning to get breakfast and go to school, and was gonna go to the library to do math afterwards... but the stinky little bastards at the picket line won't let me into the parking lot, and all the roadside parking were filled up... STINKING BASTARDS. i kept on thinking i should've said "oh, u dun wanna discuss my legal rights? well i'll show u my legal rights." and turned my car alarm on panic and just stayed there till they let me through. muwahaha... i'm sure there were lots of other students who really wanted to just get to class already too... but then it's not like i don't support them... it just feels so fucking stupid to get up at 8am, drive all the way there and just head back home again. have they SEEN the price of gas?!

that said though... hope they get what they want, otherwise they've just made a whole bunch of enemies for no reason... at least the couple TA's i have are nice enuff... my english TA e-mailed me to tell me that i got a B+ on the last essay! YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!! hee hee heeeeeeee!! i'm overjoyed... haha. i finally figured out one thing today tho.. BOTH my chem lab and english TAs are called david... that's why when "david" sent me an e-mail to "110 students", i was confused... hmm... i see now... YAY!! B+!!! hahaha.

went to starbucks afterwards to do math again... starbucks is ALWAYS full these days... shared a seat yesterday, but this morning was worse.. i sat OUTSIDE for like 20 minutes... it was cold and windy and rainy... not very nice... especially when u're drinking a frapp... *sigh*

anyway.. i'm here to remind myself what i've gotta do...
gotta call canadian springs to thank them for the sponsorship. (yay...)
gotta visit as many sportsmarts as i can to get sponsorship packages... i should make buubuu go to the meterotown one for me... even tho it might be a conflict, he being in a different club and all. hahaha~
gotta finish my math homework by tomorrow...
gotta finish my english essay for monday...
gotta figure out how to get past picket lines if there are any tomorrow...
gotta prepare for the biol 140 oral presentation that will really take place coming monday...
gotta start doing chem lab work, lots of it, damnit...
and gotta study.

and since jenny STILL hasn't told me about the meeting that's gonna take place in 3.5 hours, i'm gonna assume i'm not needed (or wanted, pish) and go to sleep now. :P
posted by melody at 3/14/2003 05:32:00 a.m.

and yay, i love the TA strike... heh. a lot of ppl are complaining that we aren't recieving the education we paid for, or the TAs are crazy for asking for 0 grad tuition... but i dunno, i can't help but support them. 0 grad tuition is kinda a crazy idea, but i think they did have 50% grad tuition relief before the contract ended in august... plus i really do wanna be a TA in the future when i'm a grad student, so i'm all for it. heh heh. not just that tho... b/c of them, i got one more very needed day to do my biol 140 report, my biol 140 oral presentation is being infinetly postponed, all chem labs are cancelled and will be presently replaced with online quizzes, and my chem midterm was multiple choice, MUWAHAHA. the chem midterm turned out to be so easy... i was a bit stressed the night before, since of course i didn't study at all... as usual i didn't even read all my notes before going in to write the exam... i ended up getting 31/45, which is what, 69%? B-? the class average was 73%, and there were some questions that i thought i should've gotten right, but whatever... it's so much better than i expected already. :) gotta luv my chem prof, teaches us in a systematic and simple way and gives the easiest midterms ever... heh. then i also got 72% on my biol test, which roughly estimating is at least top 30% of the class... i'm extra glad b/c i'm only 3% away from clarice's score, heh heh... it's all comparitive i tell u. i've been blessed in biol and chem so far. but doesn't mean i won't be rethinking biochem anyway... since i got 36% on my math midterm.. i've got some serious thinking to do.

oh, and more about the TA's -- my english in class essay this friday is now a at home essay due the following monday. hip hip huuray!! heh heh

getting so tired, gonna go to sleep now... even tho it's 6pm, and if i sleep now i probably won't be able to wake up till it's thursday... and i'll miss tv... i'll been sleeping thru tv an entire week now. :( and then i'll probably miss my chance on seeing buubuu tonight... but whatever, i blame him... he's doing club work or club activities nearly every single day and i see him less and less, and whenever i do see him he's always tired tired tired... GRR. screw it, i'm tired of waiting. i'll sleep my night away.
posted by melody at 3/13/2003 09:49:00 a.m.

my sleeping habit's been so weird there two days... there's no real pattern, but it goes something like... monday i slept from 3:30pm to tuesday's 2:30am... then tuesday i slept from 3:30pm to wednesday's 12:30am... i couldn't even wake up for anniversary dinner with buu buu.. he woke me up at 8:40pm and we agreed to go out to eat jap food or something, so i told him to let me sleep for another half hour, but no matter what he did he just couldn't wake me up again afterwards... >< so yesterday was kinda a rotten day... cuz i found out that we're not getting churchill for the badminton tournament, kinda my fault.. the story goes like this...

we pretty much had it set and agreed with VSB that the location was to be churchil, march 28th, 4:30-10:30... then the vsb "dragon lady" called on friday, 28th, to confirm the location and time. i didn't get that cell message till i think tuesday... slept till past 5pm on wednesday. called but couldn't reach her on thurs and fri. and when i called again on this tuesday, she said that she rented the gym to someone else, she'll have to call back about other possible locations... so jenny said we ought to go to vsb to get it done quick, and so we did... and there dragon lady said that there's no locations available on west side vancouver b/c the schools aren't willing to rent their gym out... so now we're gonna try richmond school board... *sigh*

this incident just makes me even more convinced that i'm wasting my time and energy by being in a club... david's doing it cuz he wants to become director or even prez. jenny's in it to become cabinet someday. winnie's in it to hang out with ppl. being twnese and thus an outsider i'll never become prez, director, or even cabinet. i don't like the type of work... i dun fit well with the other execs anyway... so why am i doing this again? giving myself unnecessary stress and work... feeling so dumb. if i'm just always gonna be CO, why dun i just sign up but never show up like the missing ~20 execs that are also in the club... or, quit. nothing seems to be worth the effort these days...

i went to starbucks by myself today after i went to biol and lunch with dewi... sat there for more than 1.5 hours furtively copying and reading missed math notes, but only finished 2 classes of notes (3 more to go), and don't understand a word of it either... unless i devote all my waking hours to math, i'm gonna fail it. but i don't wanna devote all my time to math... i also have to devote time to other subjects... however, if i DO fail math 101, i won't be able to go back to taiwan this summer at all, since i'll have to take phys 101 in term1 of summer and math 101 in term 2 of summer. there's no option of taking phys and math together, i'll just fail both that way. *sigh*. what the heck am i doing in science? if i just transfer to arts already all i've gotta do is take psyc100 to get into psychology, or keep these courses and go into english.. i have enough credits for nearly every type of major i'm slightly interested in... and i don't have the marks for biochem anyway.. *sigh sigh sigh*. can't make up my mind to alter my life's path with one click of the mouse. that's the bad thing about internet... they're always telling u that it makes like easy and convenient. but in one click of the mouse, lives are changing... u click enter and BOOM u've just lost a million bucks. u click submit and BOOM u've just failed an exam. u click open and BOOM u've just lost all the information in ur computer to a deadly virus. blah blah blah. it makes decisions too light... it makes life fickle... it alters human-human relationships forever...

but yeah. there's also the good stuff like pirating software, mp3s, and blogs.
i'm not gonna go into the bad side of all those tho.
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(pirating software is a CRIME, mp3s make ppl appreciate music less and artists don't get paid for their original work, blogs take away the meaning of "secrets" and "inner mind" forever.)
posted by melody at 3/13/2003 09:39:00 a.m.

massive compliant (mainly from roz) that i haven't been updating at all... :p

it's been so weird... my life in march so far... for example, last thurs, fri, and this mon n tues i attended every single class (besides english, of course)... 4 consecutive (sort of) days of class?? that's craziness. thursday night we had rehearsals at downtown success office from 7pm-11pm... took FOREVER. especially since we went there at 6pm, since they once again didn't notify us ahead of time that they changed the time... GRR.

then saturday we had the actual play.. so crazy, i got up at 8:30am to run around doing errands, faxing dewi her marked essay, dropping off tickets at roz's, getting breakfast at macdonalds, picked up winnie, then got to michael J. Fox theatre at 10:45am.. (wow i arrived EARLY. why am i not surprised.) i really don't see the point of us going so early tho, the entire morning passed with not much to do... we all had to sharpen really short pencils till we all got cuts on our finger tips... and we "kinda" arranged the props... but not really. then we had lunch, (yay, richmond sushi sponsored us with free sushi, LOTS of it.), and sat around watching and laughing at the actors as they got their dramatic stage make-up applied. heh heh... the guys looked especially funny. and out of the guys hans and (crazy) peter looked especially funny.. hahah~ imagine dark grey eyeshadow on the creases, dark gray thick powder eyeliner about 2mm under the lower lashes, and thick deep rouge on the cheekbones.. HEE HEE HEE. we didn't have anything real to do till around 2:30pm, when we finally started the first full rehearsal... which went smoothly enuff, cept that ar dee and nick forgot to move the sofa once, and OH... we broke the wine glass AGAIN (did that on thursday's rehearsal too)... thank god i bought two...

the real thing started at around 7:30pm... david brought whatshisface (barry) with him. *SIGH*. can't think of anyone who i hate more at this stage of my life... i do believe i hate him more than i hate george bush + bin laden + 50 cents put together...

the play went well enuff... i think... actually i have no idea how it went, since i was backstage and i didn't even go peek at how well it was going cuz i was still feeling sick from my stomach illness the night before... apparantly debbie called kelly "kelly jei" instead of "lily jei" in one scene tho, and someone thought that was a big hint that kelly was the murderer... haha. ohh, and in the end we got to push the sofa instead of lifting it, whoopee!! the murderer voting was interesting.. some ppl thought cheung sir was the murderer, and some ppl thought 8 sok was the murderer.... heh... dumb dumbs. a lot of ppl guessed ah may tho...

anyway. the play went well. there weren't too many empty seats (cept for the VIP section)... damn the pressure for selling 6 tickets... in the end dewi bought a ticket but didn't go, and i paid for ar buu to go... well if they forget to ask for that $30 then i'm not gonna give it to them. :p
posted by melody at 3/13/2003 09:23:00 a.m.

anyway let's go back to my b-day celebration.
took quite a bit of waiting around, but we finally got to 'golden bull hot pot' at maybe 10pm? ate and ate and ate!! in the end everyone was full except for me roz n winnie, and everyone else got real tired of waiting for us to get full... interesting conversations at lunch... and i was trying to turn the pot around so the bigger side of the fire would be under the satay side, but i set my paper napkin on fire and we had t o pat it out... hahaha... that was hilarious. and then there were various other things, but damnit i dun remember. oh well... got the lancome toner and clinque all about eyes i asked for and one of those foil things that block the sunlight on ur car and an air freshener... i'm too lazy to change it to a blue one, maybe i should just start using the black one... all kinds of stinks in my car... including skunk stink, ugh. that was it for my b-day celebration tho, since we ate till nearly 12 and everyone went home. it was a good birthday dinner tho, better than i thought it'd be... THANK YOU!!! :)

slept two hours and went to rehearsals for the whole day on saturday, then went to jenny's house to use her computer for research... sooo freakishly tired... i'm gonna go sleep now.. still gotta get up at 8am tmw morning... bloody hell... ><
posted by melody at 3/02/2003 07:33:00 p.m.

and my blogger twin once again proves our similarities.

"This time four years ago, everything was easy.

When I was in high school, I was smart. School was laughably easy. Every college wanted me. How could they not? I can honestly say that there's nothing that could possibly have made my applications any stronger. They danced around me and offered me money and I had my pick of where to go. And all of this seemed very natural. I grew up being told I could do anything, and it was always true.

I am no longer smart. My grades are all decent, but not stellar. (It isn't that I don't try.) I'm being rejected for job opportunities left and right. I got my first grad school rejection letter in the mail yesterday. (I'm sure there are two more on the way.) I feel so mediocre. I spent four years getting an education, and suddenly I don't have anything that anyone wants anymore."

EXACTLY how i feel... cept i'm only on the first year of U... *shivers*
posted by melody at 3/02/2003 07:22:00 p.m.

today was a good day! or, i mean friday was a good day...
except that i didn't get up for class, dang it! i was gonna, but buubuu turned the light switch off. what he didn't know was that the 'light switch' really is the power switch for the power outlet, and i was charging my cell phone.. so he turned it off, and my cell phone didn't charge... so when it went off in the morning and i hit snooze, it didn't ring again, and i slept well into the afternoon. i could've gone to the library for like an hour, but i was like forget it... then buubuu came to make amends, tho i dun think it's a very good idea to smoke before u come apologize... GRRR...

went to the crew meeting in ubc for a short while... kinda a waste, i was only there for maybe 20 minutes, and uhhh... and i have to go now. :p tell u about it later.
posted by melody at 3/01/2003 09:20:00 p.m.