i was reading roz's blog just before i came to type up mine, and i didn't even finish reading her new entries, i'm so impatient to type in my own, even tho i'm not quite sure i came to say. it's probably because i'm so darn tired.. i've been doing way too much studying this week. it wasn't even that much, but b/c i actually sat down outside somewhere to do it, and i concentrated, it seemed like alot. however, most of it was just catching up on the 4 days of school that i skipped. :p

i haven't gone to english for 3 weeks now, cept for the one discussion group that turned out to be irrelevant, especially so since i didn't do my reading... i was reading some of ths assigned short stories just now tho (from Alice Munro's "Hateship, Friendship, Courtship, Loveship, Marriage"), and i didn't really get the meaning of some of them.. the theme, or whatever they specified the term to be. >< i blame myself for being lazy, this week i could've gone to eng, i would've just been 5~10 minutes late, but i'm always lazy and choose to sleep in the car for an extra 20 min instead. cept i dun even sleep, i just kinda lie there, and think about stuff... non-sense stuff. heh. my brain gets all the exercise it needs...

studying at the library n stb and jenny's house... and always dragging jenny along.. i think she'll get a real good mark in econ this term, haha... cuz while i was trying to balance math eng chem biol and jap, she just does econ econ econ... heh. i envy arts students... the only reason not to is b/c most art students don't know what they wanna do with their lives, but then i don't either... i keep on considering becoming a highschool english teacher... i could either tutor oin my spare time to get money, or i could write and try to publish, and eventually work towards a university prof... talking to jenny right now about the pros and cons about it all, but i still really don't know. it's weird... a couple years ago i'm always telling ppl to have confidence in anything they do, cuz they're all capable of most things they put their mind to.. and i do have some degree of confidence in anything i put my mind to... i just have trouble 'putting my mind to it'... it's all the laziness. i blame all the faults in my life on my laziness, i'm always to lazy to change or improve.

ach! my shoulder ache so bad. i had to carry my usual heavy backpack today (tho not quite as heavy as the engineers), plus a 2L bottle of raspberry juice for my chem lab. so i hung out with dewi for about an hour or so after jap, we walked all around (PAIN!), then she went home and i wanted a place near the chem building to study for an hour.. so i hiked up to the office but a whole bunch of ppl where there, ppl and also ceci's dog... so i lkeft, awkwardly, cuz they always all stare to look at whoever intrudes into the office, and they stop conversation to stare, and it's freakishlt awkward... anyway, yeah. i walked to angus, but no seats there.. i even went up to the second floor for a detour, i have no idea why. so i finally went to koerner... checked all the single tables on 2nd and 3rd floor, gave up and went to B1, copied chem notes for maybe 20, 25 minutes, and had to go back to chem lab... god, my shoulders hurt...and i didn't get much done either. i like my chem prof tho, he actually explains things real well... at least concept wise, i understand everything right now, which is cool. i mean i haven't even caught up with the 3 hours i've missed yet, and i still understand it all.

after the lab it was pouring rain tho, i dun like driving in the hard rain... i coudn't see much... i was gonna nap after i got home, but one thing leads to another and here i am, 1am already again, haven't gotten any sleep. the good news of the day is, i managed to do 75% of the math homework, tho roz informed me that i got at least 25% of the homework wrong, so that means i only had 50% correctly done... but that's alright, that's more than i thought i'd be able to do... i'm so lost in lectures. or.. the last two lectures i understood, but i just didn't have the time to seize the chance and review.

sometimes, i get tired of reading roz's blog, and i skim thru things, mainly the badminton part.. i guess ppl would do that with mine too... so that could also be the beauty of a blog... i talk sooo much, how can ppl possibly not tune me out at one point or another... so it's better if they just selected what they wanted to and didn't want to read themselves... hmm. at some point in my 18 years i must've yearned for someone who wanted to know EVERYTHING about my life. but now... now the thought of that brings into mind a picture of me being strangled and suffocated... haha


i've become so considerate of ppl in the past 3(?) years. i know some ppl wouldn't agree... but just GENERALLY... usually if i dun like someone or dunno someone, i would never fuss about hurting their feelings or causing inconvenience.. but now... now... now i'm being annoying to myself... seems like i'm overly concerned with manners, expected behaviour, unspoken courtesy... stuff they'd call "signs of maturity"... >____________< as much as i dislike this side of me, i know it's necessary... i'm getting a bit too old to "screw them all"... or i'm in that awkward age in the middle where i can't "screw them all"... when i get even older i plan to have the social position/money/fame or whatever it takes to do just that. again. :)

posted by melody at 1/31/2003 05:01:00 p.m.

i haven't gone to english for a while, as usual, but apparently he gave out the essay topics for next friday's in class, and one of them is comparing two short stories, which seems much easier than the ones that ask us to write about 4 short stories... but damn, i wasn't there to hear the explanation of those two stories. i haven't even read them yet... the darnest thing tho, is that i was on campus that day. but i was 5 minutes late, so i decided to just sleep/hang out in my car instead of going to class. hahaha.. how brilliant of me. i've been a total nerd these two days tho, lots of studying.working, etc. well not that much, compared to most ppl. but WAY more than i'd normally do in a MONTH last term. haha. i haven't even been taking naps, but i still sleep late... which totally sucks, i'm so tired right, i'm seeing blurs... which really isn't good for driving. alrights i'm gonna stop pretending to be tough, and go sleep.. hopefully i will be able to get up before 12am to do some work... i'm still quite behind in everything...
posted by melody at 1/29/2003 01:22:00 p.m.

what is my power hour?
(brought to me by emode and Zest soap)
well the psycoanalysts at emode have decided that i'm 'sharp at sunset'...
here's what they said... and i've crossed out the parts that don't apply...

That's right, when the sun goes down, your energy and creativity go way up. This is your on time, when you're most inspired thoughts come pouring in and when you're most motivated to venture out. Are you into sports, dinner parties, or just hanging out with friends as the sun sinks out of sight? We thought so. Because that's the time of day that really empowers you and makes you feel alert.

You're especially dynamic at dinner, cocktail parties, and early evening functions, when your persistent wit and wisdom are at their finest. And after dinner, when everyone else is putting on their jackets and preparing to head home, you're the kind of person who stays alert, inquisitive, and ready for more world-changing conversation.

Being such a superstar at sunset has its drawbacks too. Right when you're coming up with your most fantastic ideas, most of the world is too tired to listen. Sure, this might leave you with a limited audience from time to time, but when you're on, you're on, and those lucky enough to be around value your enthusiasm. But even superstars hit a slump at some point in the day. That's when you need to remind yourself that there are tricks to get you through. Like grabbing an extra cup of coffee, getting some fresh air, or taking a power shower to rejuvenate you. And when that happens, there's no stopping you. Every hour can be your power hour!
posted by melody at 1/29/2003 01:19:00 p.m.

DAY TWO of title contest!
no responses AT ALL... ><

today was a CRAZY DAY! i slept till two, had lunch with mom at white spot (OMG, bistro shrimp fettucini is soooo good). then.. this is the CRAZY part... me and jen went to study at woodworth library... it was only for, i dunno, 3~4 hours? but still... i've only done that three times, and this is the only time i really worked. especially b/c my biol 140 library research paper is due, and the books i need to use are in the reserve room in woodworth, and we got there at 5:10, and the library closes at 6... haha. so much rushing and finding books on shelves and hectic photo-copying. by the time i JUST got 3 texts (the minimum we're suposed to use), they started turning off the lights n kicking us out.. *phew*. couldn't study anymore after we left the library at 8 something tho, hanged out pointlessly in jenny's house, tho it wasn't boring... YAY!! i got the 'elements of ecology' book from genius mike... it's only a recommended text for biol 140, my crazy one credit course, but it costs $105 (w/o tax!!). even tho we're using 6th ed, and his is 4th ed, it's better than paying $100. or however much a 2nd hand one would cost... at least $50... YAY i get to borrow it for free. or maybe trade with some hi-chew... mom brought a LOT... i'm getting so fat on the candy i'm consuming constantly. then it was all u can eat at sui-shya-ya.. it was good, but it's so sad, i can only eat maybe 3/4 of what i used to be able to eat... or, that ought to be a good thing.. i've gotta watch my weight now.. as buu buu said, i'm going "beyond chubby"... hahaha. then we went back to jenny's to get my car, but i had to go pee, and i ended up staying there for another 30-40 minutes... poor jenny lost ALL HER CDS, cuz she put them all together in a carry around box, and they mysteriously disappeared. i think i'd go crazy if all my cds disappeared. especially b/c i roughly calculated today, and the total amount of money i've spent on buying cds is about $6000 canadian dollars... that's CRAZY... I'M CRAZY. haha.

o-e, no one is appreciating all the cleaning work gigi jackie winnie n jenny did in the cass office.. or maybe they just haven't seen it yet. we went to go see it today, but SURPRISE! there were ppl in the office, on sunday afternoon... NON-CASS PEOPLE!! the guy at the table said some explanation that he was edward (/edgar??)'s friend, and the girl reading on the couch said nothing... that was WEIRD... seeing the lights on and the door adjacent and all.. haha. it's amazing tho, i think.. yah, CSA, there was some guy in the CSA office too. it's weird... ppl hanging out in office on SUNDAY. tho maybe i would too... nah.. i'd fall asleep.. i need to be in the library, with someone... so i won't go for two secs and leave, and also i'd SHUT UP... i really talk too much. and type TOO MUCH! okay.. i'm sugar high or something... i'd better go read, got like 50 pages of engl and i dunno, 100 pages of biol that i'm supposed to read for class, and it's already 3:30am... CRAP. i was gonna say at least i got the car, but then... should i be driving?!

OH DAMN.. about the car.. i thought chris did the perfect job on the car repair, except for the rubber spacing, which i was gonna get him to fix when i send it in for polish... BUT!! today for the first time i looked at it under the sun, and THERE'S AIR BUBBLES IN THE PAINT!! that's NOT GOOD... in long term, the paint might chip off or crack and stuff from there... and i thought it was just one piece (of the metal), but it was TWO... the two BIG ones... that's so bad.. i dun wanna make him re-do it, i mean that's CRUEL, to re-paint those two pieces would normally cost like at least 800 bucks? but then i don't want my paint to chip and have to pay for it myself... dunno what to do... guess i'll think about it and talk to him about it in two weeks when it's polishing time... he can't just polish over the paint, right? OH... and also the paint is a wee bit scratched on the passenger door, on the edge. cept i dunno if it's chris' doing or if someone who sat in my car hit the door on a wall.. it looks like someone who opened the door hit it on a wall... but who's been in my passenger seat since the paint job?? chris, who is unlikely to ruin his handiwork.. david, who's quite careful with my car... myself, i'd NEVER harm my car... winnie and lisa, but when they got on n off there weren't any walls around... or mom...? aww mom... ><

WAA! i said i'd go read.. i gotta go read! i should find more cds to burn.. i just burned 4 cds for me n jenny... then i can't use the computer.. haha.

...............................................

fine... i'll shut it off...................... *sigh*
posted by melody at 1/27/2003 07:41:00 p.m.

POP QUIZ
who knows why my blog is called 4.5% acidic?
(besides buu buu)
i'll cook up some sort of prize for u... or something...
the answer will be revealed in 100 days!
if no one gets it before that, that is...
ok... this is officially DAY ONE!
this ought to be fun...
e-mail me ur answers @ lonely_tequila@geocities.com
posted by melody at 1/26/2003 07:09:00 p.m.

soooo... tired...
i'd update lots and lots, but i'm always so tired when i do...
i didn't get to sleep until 8am, cuz me n winnie were working on dewi's card... took FOREVER, and all lisa did for her card was take some photos to the shop to make a calendar, and of course it looked nicer than ours.. :p oh well, we spent the time and stuff on it...

then i got up at maybe 2pm? i got up at 12 but me n mom couldn't decide where to go for lunch, so i went back to sleep again... then i went to get flowers with buu buu, and we went to kerrisdale community center to see who's playing ball, saw cute guys, my someone's basketball hit my thigh and it's still kinda sore... >< then went to the place under the place to eat... home... tons of phone calls before we decided where to eat... pick up winnie, go to milestones on 4th... had really really dry baby back ribs... >< dinner was pretty fun tho, we had an amusing table.. we had to split into two again, and i was sitting with jenny jim kevin roz n winnie, the more usual bunch. for details see roz's blog, haha. then we went to dewi's house to eat cake and sat n chat... it was fun, we got the lively conversation and all, haha... like that the most... even tho i kept on yawning. damnit, i keep thinking now that yawning isn't about being tired, it's about trying to be alert... ever since that paper i wrote on yawning, it's been stuck in my head. i ought to post that when i've got the time, it's interesting... after driving lisa and winnie home (or.. winnie drove herself home), i got home... and went to ubc... and looped back... haha. i love doing that at night... i know it's crazy and pointless and waste of gas and all... but it's such a smooth ride n everything. i found out that they actually have securuty patrol on campus at night... amazing...

wow... it's amazing, but i don't have any thoughts in my head... maybe i'm REALLY tired.. the only thing i can think of is that the talk was good tonight... it's always amazing to me how ppl forget things... do i just hang on to memories too much? usually when i stop my writing habit it's becuz i'm feeling i'm spending too much time reminiscing than i am living... and it may be so with this blog sometimes, but if i don't recall memories every once in a while, i'll lose them... and i hate that... it's just like most of the time i look back on past relationships or friends that i had, and i can barely remember ANYTHING. it makes me sad... ai~ partly b/c i can't remember the good times as well as i do the bad times... the painful times. i don't remember events as much as i remember the emotional pain...

ah nineteen. i'll be nineteen soon too... i get to celebrate my birthday with a chem midterm... >__< i've forgotten about that... math isn't the only subject i'm in danger of failing this term... chem is truly a... horrifying experience... even tho chem 121 and chem 123 are registered separatly, most (~99%?) ppl still sign up in the same time slot in both terms... but so many familiar faces have disappeared... i sure dun look forward to the chem i'm supposed to take in second year... average fail rate every year is 70% of students... highest failing class in the entire undergraduate school. >< it's so depressing...

o-e. i'd better go get ready to sleep now. or read, i need to catch up on so much engl110 reading. and biol/chem lab research reports... lilian from chem 123 lab called today to discuss what we're gonna do for our chem experiment, and i was driving too, i was like "uhh no... i didn't do the research.. i didn't read the lab manual... i didn't think about it... sure ummm i'll analyze... rasberry juice?" haha. :p
posted by melody at 1/26/2003 06:55:00 p.m.

i came across this poem... it's... well. feel for urself.
"He has it all,
But there's still a wall,
That blinds this troll,
About his soul,
For he is someone,
Who has no one."

can't believe i actually went to all 4 classes today. >__< math was a real drag tho. i was trying to copy notes, compare jen and roz's answers, trying to help figure out who's right and why, and at the same time copying the right ans down on my empty homework assignment. :p i think i need to get a tutor, or at least go to the tutorials and all.. i don't wanna fail math... retaking math in summer with phys 101 is just... can't even bear to think about it.

i finally got the car back and i've got errands to run, but i dun think i have the confidence to drive anymore. >< i should get up at like 6 when it's light but there's little traffic... and practice practice practice! the thing is, i always say i will, but i never really concentrate on safe driving... i just, drive. and so far i've been lucky then i guess... just real clumsy whenever i'm in a parking lot. haha

oh boy oh boy i'm sooo tired right now, but i gotta get up at 8 to go help clean up the cass office at 9am... feel like i ought to contribute to the club SOMEHOW. david's club is crazy tho, they have a booth in the academic quadron EVERYDAY, and they have general meetings which everyone attends EVERY WEEK, and each one goes on for like 3 hours... so that's how they get all that work done with only ~35 execs... unlike our club... takes months of talk before we even start cleaning up the office.. haha.

alright well... love to sit n chat about my thoughts and all... but gotta go... do stuff... yes...
posted by melody at 1/25/2003 05:59:00 p.m.

ta-de-dum... it's 3:15am, which means it's blogger time! time to sum up the day "before"...
i got up and all, but i ended up skipped chem anyway, cuz i felt so horribly sick. oh right, back up to 5am, i was gonna start doing my japn 103 work, but all of a sudden this sea tide of sickness took over... it's like i was dizzy, weak, wanted to puke, and all... it was horrible... i had to drop absolutely everything to just lie down n go to sleep... so i was still kinda sick in the morning, and even right now too.. i'm telling u, the thought of school/work just DOES THIS TO ME. so anyway, i did go to jap tho, isn't that wonderful, going down to UBC for ONE HOUR ONLY. it was alright, i'm doing pretty good on the quizzes, my luck is absolutely amazing. haha. after jap there was a lot of pointless hanging around... me n dewi walked around, drove to her house. then dewi drove to pick jenny up from ubc then back to jenny's to get jenny's car, dewi went to drop off her car at her house, jenny came to pick me n winnie up in ubc, then pick dewi up, then go all the way to richmond to eat, almost died in the car 3 times (!! seriously !!), drove dewi home, drove winnie to ubc, drove down to the beach just to loop around, drove to bread garden for some cheese cake and tiramisu, drove me home, drive herself home.. my GOD did jenny so a lot of driving today... >< then i kinda slept for a bit, then went to burnaby to pick up kaka, BUT!! BUT!! chris forgot to say that he doesn't take cheques, so damnit i have to go get cash and go back to pick up the car tmw... cept i dunno how that's gonna work out.. david became exec for CSU lu (yes i'm disappointed) and he has a meeting at 4pm... ai, whatever happened to CASS, where's all the meetings... activities has all these prize money but i haven't been to a meeting yet to find sponsors?? ><

i tried to do math tonight.. i spent an hour on ONE question and didn't even really get it, so i'm just gonna copy everything from roz tmw... i feel bad, but oh well... i'm dumb in the head nowadays. but HEY, i think the tylenol i ate 3 hours ago is finally working... or... ok no, head still hurting since i just typed M-A-T-H... ok... no more updates, u don't wanna hear about my boring life and irrelevant thoughts anyway, i gotta sleep now. AHH! i didn't do my engl reading?! oh... well... errm... i'll b/s my way thru the discussion group, that's the one thing i learned from engl 112 and the science one ppl... u can b/s ur way thru life and others might never know.
posted by melody at 1/24/2003 07:15:00 p.m.

How Emotional Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

yay, what a cheer-upper...
posted by melody at 1/23/2003 06:09:00 p.m.

yeuck... it's 1am of thursday, i really plan to go to class today, cept i haven't started on all my work yet, i'm just sitting here having really tasteless caesar salad from bread garden and overly bitter cappuchino. in fact i'm gonna get up soon n pour some of my own caesar salad dressing on this.. it's THAT bad.

i attempted to clean up my room a bit today, but i got allergic and itchy and well, more importantly, tired. ;p i'll have to get it done before mom gets here tho, friday at 6:05pm. it seems like i've got lots of time, but not really.. with the work i need to catch up on, and especially the 5 page math hw due on friday... i'm running real short of time. i really ought to sacrifice sleep, but how? let's see what i gotta do, just for the sake of reminding myself.

by thursday 9:00am
study for jap quiz, catch up on missed material and missed assignments
finish copying 3 days of missed math notes

by friday 9am
finish engl reading, about 100 pages...
finish 5 pages of math homework
whatever jap assignment there is
pick up car... in burnaby?? ><

by friday 6pm
clean up house (that'll take like 5 hours)

then on the weekend there's dewi's b-day things to attend and attend to... hang out with mom... chem lab stuff (heard there's A LOT to do), biol 140 library research... catch up on all sorts of notes, esp. biol... oh boy. sounds like a loong weekend to me...

god... i dunno why i'm still eating this salad... it tastes like plain lettuce, with bits of things that u identify as shredded cheese. and really tasteless chargrilled chicken... the bread bits are the best part of the salad... and the cappuchino?? drinking it just for the caffeine now... ><

david interviewed today to be exec in CSU of SFU... i'm kinda pissed off cuz i dun want him to have a life. haha... kidding... i dunno, i guess i think he's already got a lot going on in his life... plus he's interviewing for activities dept... >____< which could be good news.. if he worked in PR too, then who'd go with me to find sponsors for MY club? heh. i guess his interview went well tho:
interviewer: "do u think u're a leader or follower?"
david: "well i'm a leader of the beavers of scout canada... so i would have to say leader." :)

oh yay, i get my car back tmw at 5pm... gotta drive it back, from either burnaby or richmond i think... *shivers* haven't driven for sooo long. haven't parallel parked in a month too, maybe longer. haha. i'd better add "practice driving" to my list of things to do... i REALLY dun wanna smash the car up again... >< all that money... and i probably didn't get the notetaking job for this term either... i KNEW i shouldn't have submitted my transcipt from last term, hahaha. alright. gotta go.. eat... and work... :(

and HEY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEWI!!
i dun't think she's reading... but oh well. :)
it's scary... being 19... being legal and all. hmm.
ok really.. i've gotta stop thinking and start working...
posted by melody at 1/23/2003 05:03:00 p.m.

yay!! i slept till 2pm today. i kinda love my life... actually no... not really. i'm in a lot of trouble from all this slacking off... but it's ok.. nothing irreple..ple... what's that word? irreplable?? ok what am i doing... i don't wanna think about school work... eww i feel sick...
posted by melody at 1/23/2003 02:36:00 p.m.

feeling reallly quite bored. btw i haven't done any of the work that i mentioned in my last entry. nope... just been sitting here chit-chatting on icq, checking out some club photos online, etc... music makes me a little less bored. it's already 1:45am tho, so i guess that means i'm not going to my morning classes tmw... it'll be a pain to miss eng and not know what the short stories are talking about, but then i haven't even read them anyway. i COULD borrow david what's his last name's notes, tho i dun really know him that well.. i just don't make an effort to make new acquaintances... knowing that i always end up hating 99% of the ppl i meet anyway. :p maybe it wouldn't be so if i kept my mind more open? but i dunno, i can be such a snobby perfectionist sometimes... i'm always thinking "if the person and i aren't a great match, then i won't miss having this person as a friend, so why bother finding out if i like the rest of this person. focus on the flaw, focus on the flaw." haha.. i can't quite describe it, but i guess u could say that i don't really TRY to learn to like ppl.

i don't really know why i'm sitting here typing random thoughts, instead of working or watch a movie or finishing a book... it doesn't matter tho, even for the sole purpose of entertaining my very small crowd of fans, if any. :p i still don't get why ppl would like to 'see' what i've got to say... i actually have a sort of 'introduction' to this blog. i entered it where they prompted me to enter it, but b/c of the format i picked, it won't show... but it goes like this :

"buula, buula... my master plan is to bore u to death with my constant droning on about my boring life, and then shock u with my occasional unexpected insights, and then make u addicted and read everyday..."

so far i think the master plan must be working well. u're still reading anyway, aren't u? and no.. i dunno what buula buula meant... i'm always making up these funny sounds that i utter over and over again just for the heck of it... that's how david became 'ar buu' or 'buu buu' anyway. this really sux, the abundance of 'david's in this world... my chem lab TA is called david too. he reminds me of mr lloyd tho, they have that book worm look. not as in nerdy, but in a nice way. and sure enuff, after we got started on our assignments for the day, he pulled out this really old green hard cover book n started reading it, heh. i really wanna know what the book was -- i'm always on the lookout for a good book. (tho my books to read list keeps growing and my books read list remains the same). it's still kinda bothering me really, not knowing what that book was. wonder if he'd still be reading the same book when we do our experiment next next thursday.... heh.. so unlikely. i'm the only person who's that slow at reading... for a person who enjoys it, anyway. i'm half-done so many books right now tho... let's see, books that i started reading from as far as 5 years ago, but haven't finished... "if life is a game, these are the rules", "the english patient", "the scarlett letter", "a dog's life", "the catcher in the rye", and i'm sure there's a couple more on my bookshelf. i'm not counting the ones that bored me before i got thru the first chapter... these books i'm actually interested in.. but once i forget about reading them for a week or so, i start forgetting the details in the beginning and i wanna read them all over again, but being the slow reader that i am, i don't have the time for it... so i never get around to finishing them... oh, and i never finished the last page of that book dewi recommended me.. this award winning book called blue eyes or something? i only kept reading it cuz dewi said it's good and it's award winning and in the oprah's book club and all, so i kept waiting for it to get good... and some parts were good, but amazingly, in the end, i didn't even bother to finish the last two pages. for crying out loud, TWO PAGES, i didn't even bother. :p i'm weird like that sometimes.

mien.. the way i write is always temporarily influenced by what i was recently reading, and now i feel like taking up the type of grammar in catcher in the rye... haha... wanna keep on saying "it just about killed me" and "for chissake" and "godamn" and all... :p

i'm allergic to alcohol, always have been, it's kinda weird but i really am. even medicinal alcohol on a cotton swab gives me rashes. but the last time we were in the club at the ski trip, i got some on me but nothing happened... so i was thinking about experimenting to see if i was still allergic to the stuff... start with ciders, then sours, then beer, etc. but then i decided not too. if i wasn't allergic to it, i can totally see myself becoming an alcoholic... even if i dun like alcohol, i'd probably still become one, haha. same thing with trying weed or pills... and i dread turning 19 and being able to legally buy cigarettes too. :p self control, self control!! and some anger management could come in handy too, sometimes.
posted by melody at 1/20/2003 05:42:00 p.m.

slept at 5am this morning b/c of my stupid plugged bathtub. or i should really blame my hair, which is falling out like crazy, which is responsible for the clogged tub... then i got up at.. i actually have no idea when i got up, around noon maybe? cuz cept to go to the washroom and get junk food, i stayed on my bed till 5pm, just lying there reading catcher in the rye.. i'm almost done with the book, but i still haven't figured out why exactly he's called catcher in the rye... i mean ok, there's a field of rye and he's the big kid that makes sure all the little kids don't fall off the cliff, but what's the significance of the title? i get it but i don't really get it. could someone explain to me someday? e-mail me about it or something, would ya?

i tried to do some biol 140 work, but it was boring me... me and ar buu went to eat pho... then we were gonna go study at bread garden, but there weren't any seats, so we went to 41st stb, but there weren't any seats either and ewww we ran into this white girl emily, who's had a sort of crush on david since he was gr 12 or something, and also her stupid friend... they took a photo with ar buu... sucks.. i really hate them but i'm much too polite to say anything. i dunno, i'm 10 thousand times relieve to see how OLD she got tho... it's rather amazing... i last saw her maybe half an year or less ago, and right now she's only gr 12, but she seriously looks OLD, lines under her eyes and all... see what alcohol weed n parties does to u? tsk. heh... ai. she looks horrible, but i'm still bitter anyway.

now i'm home again, it's already 11:30, and i've got TONS of work to do... ohh just ONE more week of busing to school... but then mom will be here on friday. i want to see her and all, but if right now, i see ar buu everyday and i still dun think it's enuff, what'll i do after mom comes? *sigh* i can't wait for the midterm break. even tho i've got tons of midterms and papers scheduled before and after the break...

sometimes i think about all the things i gave up for buu buu. waterloo, UT, $4500 scholarship, some guys :p... but what did he give up for me? i mean, he must've passed on some things too, but just doesn't mention it... he still remembers exactly what i was wearing when our PE class went ice skating in gr 8... and me? i don't even recall him being there. :(

feeling soooo weird right now.. i blame the horrible cappuchino from stb. if u can call it a cappuchino at all.. UGH.
posted by melody at 1/20/2003 03:27:00 p.m.

today was a good day spent with buubuu! :)
spent most of the daylight times in bed reading n what not, but went to eat whitespot with buubuu in the evening, then hanged out at his house for a change. around 7:30 we headed over to see the SFU-UBC game, just for the men's game tho... it was an ok bball game... i lost interest sometime during half time tho, so i didn't know what was going on in the end, just that UBC keeps on winning, even tho SFU was ranked #2 in canada last season, muwahaha. the carlos guy is really good tho, for a player of MY height.. (5'2)

then we saw ppl playing in the SRC gym, so we went over to see, and there was a 3 on 3 tournament going on!! wheeee, THAT was the fun part. 3 on 3 is always more fun than a 'real' game somehow. james was there... ai..... soooooooo cute. hahaha. except he lost... twice in a row, ouch ouch... he played good, but the team he lost to twice ended up was the champion team, kaka. david's friend "SFU vince carter" is so good tho... sooo freakishly good! i'd say that he's better than jacky, but david strongly disagrees... whatever... james is cute. *slobbers*. (ar buu, u dun mind, right? kakaka)

then i hung out with jenny from 12-2... FINALLY had to use the $100 daddy gave me in september. :*( i wanted to keep that, forever n ever n ever... but money always goes away from us anyway, right? stupid bubble tea places that don't take visa... chatting is always good tho, even tho it's always me blabbling on and on and on... haha. it entertains some ppl but i'm sure it irritates most ppl. haha

saw the cass ski trip photos, i'm once again the phantom that was there but isn't there, haha. as in i'm there, but there's never any photo evidence that i was anywhere, just like my prom. :p it's ok tho, i know i was there and i had a good time~ wheeheehee. it's kinda a funny thought but i feel like sometimes, at such events, i have a better time than ppl who spent like $50 trying to get themselves drunk and happy, muwahaha.

the 3 on 3 bball tournament today was good tho... it seemed rather unorganized, and it was late at night, and the sponsors weren't that good, but it wasn't as hectic as the cass one, and i guess maybe b/c of that, the players didn't all get pissed off at the refs or scorekeepers. and they didn't have to wear bibs or number tags either, the scorekeepers just recognized them as being on diff teams. well they didn't have to note WHO scored, so it was easier... need to LEARN and make better tournaments! but i'm not even in sports department.. jenny is right tho, everyone wants our club to have a good tournament, but no one wants to do the work... i'd do it, just for the sake of having some sort of purpose or goal in life... heh. what i really COULD do to help is to get more sponsors, but i dunno, it doesn't really seem to be my thing. not being confident enuff in cantonese is one of the biggies, heh... but i dunno, since ppl are constantly forgetting that i'm twnese, that must mean that my cantonese is really good, right? ek. i still think i sound weird.

o-e o-e o-e, just sitting here waiting for the drano to work on my tub... i'm sooo tired, but i've got sooo much to do... gotta clean up before mommy arrives on friday... need to check in on kaka, and see if i can get it back before friday... got a whole bunch of chem and bio lab research to do, plus other regular subject work, catching up n all... dewi's b-day stuff need planning.. but damnit, all i wanna do is lie in bed (ohh nice soft clean sheets) and finish reading catcher in the rye. why don't I get to do good novels in english?! being in the english text section in the ubc bookstore really sucks.. i wanna read all the books that they're reading in other sections. should i really TRY to become a good writer?? but i never think about writing as something u could WORK on... i'm really more of a... constant stream of conciousness sorta writer, heh. i'd never go back to fix a phrase or try to connect an idea or anything... i wanna see what i get in english this term tho. it's constant torture for me, not knowing whether i'm really a good writer or just b/c all my english teachers so far just happened to like me. well, mrs west didn't give me A's in gr8... it was always 84.7%.. but then i JUST came to canada back then... then ms haveman just didn't care about the class at all.. mr lloyd in gr10 & 11 i really think he just liked me or something, even tho i complained that the poetry book was "DENSE", haha... i think i'll always remember that.

"well.. i dunno... this book is just kinda dense."
"dense?? you mean... it's boring?"
"well... uh... yeah."
"oh... ok.. well um, the poems are interesting... maybe you just don't like the descriptive poems we're doing right now."
"yeah......... i guess that must be it........"

and then mr lloyd told ms inglis that i was a good writer, so SHE gave me A's... freakishly high A's, that i really don't think i deserved... but i dunno... i was counting on the provincial to prove everybody wrong, i thought i'd get a B or something, i mean come on, i didn't even pass my LPI... but then i got a 94% on the provincial... which is HIGH... for ENGLISH... >___< i dun get it. well at least i got B's in ENGL 112. haha, it's perverted, but i was more relieved than disappointed. well not really 'relieved'... just.. i guess i have proof that i'm an average person... i dun like to labelled as the 'smart one'. most of the time i don't, anyway. heh. or... i'd be ok with it if i could only believe that i was... x__X"
posted by melody at 1/19/2003 06:45:00 p.m.

sucky sucky sucky sucky...
stomach pain is always sucky.

got up at 8:30am today, not good enuff - i missed my eng discussion group. which probably isn't a good idea... the TA who directs the discussion group is the guy who's gonna mark all my essays this term - need to leave a good impression. i'm not quite good enuff to "let the work speak for itself". jap was good today tho, cuz we had the TA, and all we did was go over the homework. see, i think i could survive the course, and maybe even enjoy it, if it were a different prof... mom n dad called to check in and they were asking what i wanna do about jap, but i really don't know. i want to avoid thinking about it... cuz when i don't think about 'japanese', it's fine... i like japanese... i want to speak it, write it, read it... but once i think about JAPN 103, koizumi sensei -- my brain hurts and my stomach lurches. roz keeps on saying koizumi is supposedly the best jap prof. well she's the best jap prof like letourneau is the best math teacher. wait, that's not true. b/c i LIKED letourneau. :p

tried to do some dewi-b-day planning with jenny afterschool, but the stomach pain attacks! so i've been home pretty much all day today. which could be a good thing - i've only got about $1.25 to spend... i was watching "bodyshots" on tv, it's a VERY good movie... coarse language nudity intended for mature audience and all, it was very very successful as a FILM, that's what i mean... which is weird, cuz most of the time i'm just sucked into the plot, but for the past year or two i've been slowly (and mostly subconciously) learning to appreciate the directing, etc of a film... but still, i still wanna go see "just married", none the less. :p anyway, back to "bodyshots". it's about 4 guys n 4 girls in LA doing the club scene... cept it's not about THAT. it's errm. damnit, i can't say it as well as the director can show u, so just pull out five bucks and go rent the movie. if u need more incentive than my word, tara reid goes topless. :p

i was planning on going to watch the UBC/SFU bball game tonight, buubuu was going with his cousin... but i had to stay home n lie in bed. after the game buubuu called to say he's hungry and he's gonna go eat with some friends, so i called back a while later to see if he could bring me some congee or something, i figured it's this late he's probably at #9... but nope. he was in insomnia. and he promised he'd come see me before he goes home. right now it's errm 12am. what am i trying to say? i'm just too needy, right? a needy girl with pms. who just happens to be feeling blue and wishes someone was around... :*(
posted by melody at 1/18/2003 03:57:00 p.m.

took forever to figure out the math homework today, then finally got to go out to dinner with buu buu, if u can call it dinner at 9:30pm... now i got back but there's still tons to do for tomorrow... i'm still glad i went to dinner anyway. being with buu buu is a lot more important than most of these things i ought to be doing, and i'm not just writing this b/c he's reading either... :) what makes me happy is good for me. if it gives me pain (ie. jap) then it must be poisonous to my soul, right? oh i wish i could drop jap like TOMORROW, so i won't have to do the massive amount of work assigned for tmw...

after lunch i got a ride home to ubc from genius boi today... it's so sad, the two of us rushing off to biosci and chem buildings to our labs... biosci and chem are right across from each other... that is my future biochemistry major life, going back and forth btwn these buildings... aii. i dunno what else i would do tho... i ought to go check out the psyc courses, just to see if i'd like them.

i wish i could just unwind and relax on the weekend, but i've really piled up a lot of work for myself... gotta start doing them soon... like... NOW... >_____< sometimes i get too tired to even do my english reading, which is just scary... how can i not want to read... arghhh. we're reading james joyce's "dubliners", it's a collection of short stories mainly dealing with the poverty and alcolholism, etc in ireland in the early 20th century. in our discussion group the TA mentioned the similarity with "angela's ashes", and half the class shot their hands up in the air to present some insight, but it was basically just to all prove that they've all read "angela's ashes". made me wanna put my hand up and go "ohhh i read it TOO." haha...

chipped my nail for the first time i can remember today. or.. it probably wasn't the first time, but could be the wosrt time.. i think i had a horrible day b/c of it... can't stand the rough, slanted nail tip... >< oh BOY i'm sleepy... wish i could just go to sleep... and screw it all... skip jap, at least... *sigh*
posted by melody at 1/17/2003 04:01:00 p.m.

ARGH!!! i accidentally erased half the desceiption of my ski trip. damndamndamndamn.

well, it's back to school again... i can't get myself to do any work, but i'm proud that i'm still dragging my ass to every class on public transit, heh. trying to get rides home everyday. i'm seriously considering dropping jap tho. not only is it tremendously fustrating that i don't understand anything that we're doing, it's also taking up way too much time... having every single sentence crossed out or marked with red pen on my dialogue isn't very encouraging either. ai, i'm gonna tough it out for the rest of this week, but after that we'll see...

anyway, the ski trip... it was overall alright. there were good parts. and bad parts. errrm no neutral parts, haha, isn't that weird. so anyway, for my own record keeping purposes, this is what happened on the ski trip... friday passed by quick, packing at 6:30am, class from 9-1pm, on the bus from maybe 3-9? i won dewi a toque... the hotel sucked big time tho, it was really a MOTEL. and we had to drink tap water, that had black debris in it, which we came to find later. but we skipped the casino trip and went to safeway to get some food n water... then attempted to boil water using the expresso machines. we ended up having rather crispy instant noodles, haha. it was weird for me n jenny to share a room with iman and her bf tho. at least they weren't there most of the time. :) then... well that's about it... we hanged out in dewi ann jen chui and roz's room, but all we did was watch tv and eat junk food... this is what i meant about the bad part... BORED to death. :p at least bedtime talks is good, haha... slept at 1am and got up at 6:30am the next morning for a long day of painful snowboarding. actually, it wouldn't be right to call it snowboarding, since i spent the entire day trying to just get off my ass and actually stand on the board. >< everyone was really patient tho, even when i decided to just carry my board and walk half-way downhill. HAHA. it wasn't the best experience, but it was pretty fun, cuz all the snow looked so nice, i didn't really care that i kept falling on my ass. cept the few times i fell on the front side... OWW. my very first ski-lift experience was CRAZY tho.. note to jenny :the green route is SOOO not a fucking bunny hill!!!! haha... it just kept going up and up and up, and the slope was really steep, and halfway up the entire mountain was all fogged up, and i was just sitting there going "are we there yet??? are we there yet??? omg, are we there YET???" >< lunch sucked... then it was more boring hanging out at dewi's room while we waited forever for everyone to shower. then went to boston pizza for some real food. and then we went to the dance at gotcha's night club, YAY, BEST part of the entire ski trip!! heh. nobody wanted to dance, then dewi n roz left, jenny n ann start drinking like crazy, and me n jenN started dancing. about 5 minutes into it tho i kinda forgot about my surroundings... went into one of my natural high trances, so nobody cept jenny jenN ann and genius boi believed that i wasn't drinking, hah. since jenny n ann were pretty drunk, me and dewi went to sleep in my room, but 'the couple' wasn't there, so we ended up talking until 3am... ZZZzzz. i was gonna snowboard on sunday too, despite the aches and pains, but we kept on going the wrong way and walked back n forth, back n forth, and my asthma caught up with me, i couldn't breathe, ai... i figured later that the altitude at silver star was much higher than it was at big white, so it somehow affected my asthma... i tried boarding a bit on the bunny hill that afternoon, but every time i fell i had to sit and pant and pant, so i eventually gave up... it was too bad tho, the bunny hill at silver star was sooo nice, cuz it's in a diff direction from every other route so not a lot of ppl were there, it snowed long and hard the night before and all thru sunday, so the snow was nice n soft, and they even had a tissue box thing at the lift, haha... how thoughtful. oh well, guess snowboarding's not for me. then... then we embarked on the looooong bus ride home, i pretty much slept thru half of it, was so exhausted... and errm, that was extreme snow 03'... BOY this is a boring entry. whatever, it'll be useful information to me a couple years down the road, heh.
posted by melody at 1/15/2003 03:43:00 p.m.

yippee... ski trip... i seem the least enthusiastic person going on the trip. i also seem to be the only person bringing junk food to the trip... i emptied out half my cabinets to fill up an entire sports bag of junk food, they'd better appreciate it... haha. i was gonna go to safeway to get some pop and chips too, but then why should i spend the extra $$... come to think of it, bringing junk food that i brought all the way over from tw would be more expensive... oh well. i'll hog it all... haha

can't believe the snowboard rentals costed $75... 75 bloody dollars? it would've been $45 if we had gone to sportsmart earlier... oh well. it gets credited to my next snowboard purchase... if i ever buy one...

internal struggle -- should i take the part in the upcoming CASS play? in a theatre? in front of hundreds of ppl? ERRRMM. not very nice to turn captain vitasoy down (she's got super PR skills...) but then the thought of my acting is just hilarious too. vainity says yes, self-knowledge says no...

ai if only buu buu were coming to the ski trip... then we probably won't board at all... ha

mmm... it's gonna take $1850 to fix my car, and it's gonna take two weeks, starting today.. >< PAIN... PAIN... even tho it's a lot cheaper than i thought... hopefully chris is as good as david says he is...

okie, gotta finish up my chicken noodle soup and RACE to class now... this is freaky, me eating breakfast...
posted by melody at 1/10/2003 11:41:00 p.m.

okie... now we talk about jan 7th.. heh. i like to keep an exact record of what i did everyday... helps solve my horrible memory problem. i'd hate to be the guy in "momento"...

chem is really gonna suck this term, the prof says the tests are gonna be mainly on the lecture notes, so the text is optional reading, but he takes bad, incomplete notes, and he writes tiny... so that means if i wanna pass this time i'm gonna have to go to every class and pay attention and sit in the front... >< at least i have chem AND jap on tues n thurs... means more motivation to get up and go to class.

after jap we al walked around campus running errands, then after a LOT of errands me n jen went to richmond pho for lunch, then picked up rozzie n went to stb in kerr... sooo that means carsick and tired mel plus two cups of coffee... = pukingly dizzy feeling... THEN i went to eat again with buu buu, and london drugs, took forEVER to pick out pressed powder, heh. THEN home sweet home... my darling tv... and my darling bed... *sighz* that's life. but then i've really gotta start studying... not just going home n reading the assignments without thinking... hmm. o-e i'd better go read eng now...

posted by melody at 1/08/2003 09:25:00 p.m.

this is what i wrote for jan 6th... but blogger was down)
today was the first day of classes for term 2... pretty good day.. ended up driving to school anyway. have ppl to talk to in english, have roz n jeN in math, have clarice and a bunch of cass ppl in bio, have eveyrone in jap! and... and well biol 140 is gonna suck, almost the entire class is caucasion. :p i'm gonna try to switch to em and linda's on tuesday afternoon. i dun wanna study 9-5 on MONDAYS anyway. had lunch with roz dewi lisa jenny... then biol 140 ended early so i went to ubc bookstore to check out prices on my texts, walked all the way over to discount textbooks to find that they're not carrying any of the books i need, and walked back to ubc bookstore to stand in the mile long line up, then carried everything to b5... oh boy, i really hurt my shoulder today.. plus the tongue and heel of my shoes were cutting into my ankles.. >< but i got to buu buu's house and we went straight to richmond to see the doc... then walked around parker till it was time to meet up with chris to get a price on fixing my car... very excellent tho, he roughly estimated 1000 something, i thought it would be over 2000... heh. he still has to count exactly what he has to remove and fix tho, so he's gonna call back with a price tmw... at least it's cheaper than i thought loh... dave and his "diplomacy"... i didn't know u had to think that much... for example, mentioning he got a new car so meaning more biz for chris, or saying that since it's gonna take 2 weeks he'd rather let chris handle it than send it to some body shop and not know what they're gonna do with it... so that chris will make the price lower and also will be unlikely to take the car out for a joyride... haha.

i'm drop dead tired right now tho. i feel kinda bad cuz this afternoon i told david's mom that i'd go over to dinner, but then i decided i was way too tired to be polite at the dinner table... and i feel kinda bad b/c i feel like i'm not spending enuff time with buu buu, even tho i really am.. heh. it's not enuff. :p

so glad i have the temperature and humidity grid on my clock... i've been boiling water over the stove to make it more humid in the apartment... trying to constantly keep it above 65 loh. but it's so hard. this morning it was 70 and when i got back it was under 60 already... >< so dry. i've been extra patient with the crazy skin routines these two days, all that skin firming lotion, and daytime toner, nighttime toner, daytime face cream, UV protection cream, moisturizing lotion, night cream, exfoliating masks.. but b/c i haven't been getting sleep, i look as shitty as ever. :( BUT, but if u touch my face, it's freakishly soft.. it's like all the pores on my cheek shrunk till they're almost gone. heee. never realized the importance of tonor before.

ohhh, my bio prof looks like a TOAD. haha... he doesn't have much of a neck, he's got a big beer belly, great bulgy eyes, deepish voice, and he was wear a dark green long sleeve and brown jacket... haha. he seriously reminds me of a toad... but then i gotta pay attention this term lu, the final is gonna be worth SEVENTY-FIVE percent... f**k... also chem tmw.. AIII

i'd better go check if i've still got that biol note taking job for this term... i need $$. there's summer job opportunities, u have to interview, but the average income of the student managers they hired earned $16,000 last summer... that would REALLY help... but then, give up my entire summer? work for the whole summer and take physics also? HMMM. i know mommy would rather have me back in tw than go earn 16.000. heh.

oh i hope the humidity level is 70 now.. i wanna go to sleep... knowing that i'll wake up soon anyway. :(
posted by melody at 1/08/2003 09:19:00 p.m.

~~~~~>____________<~~~~~
just watched the saddest episode of "futurama", if it's possible at all for a satirical cartoon to be sad...
fry found the fossil of his old dog and they were going to clone the dog, until fry learned that 'seymour' had lived for 12 years after fry left, so he decided not to clone seymour, b/c "seymour lived a full life, he's forgetton me long before i've forgotten him." but then in the end we found out that seymour waited for fry to come back for 12 years until his own death. so sad... ><
posted by melody at 1/06/2003 11:33:00 a.m.

i'm baaaaack in vancouver! i think i had one of the best plane rides ever.. cept luggage took forever. i watched alll the movies (the man from elysian fields, sweet home alabama, and.. wow. i totally can't remember what else i watched.) and i went to peeeeeeeeee whenever i want -- that's sooo important. haha... plus the edible food... ahh...

skin so dry in vancouver... even tho i had a mini facial at richmond center shiseido after i got off the plane... one of the many perks of joining cass (join cass!!). then i spent my entire day with buu buu, shopped in richmond center (got ski pants n crazy colored nail polish..), ate lunch at honolulu cafe, went home to sleep... woke up later and went to 山喜屋... ai, vancouver version sux in comparison to the tw one... especially the beef 串燒 was horrible today. *_____* then went to take sticka pix... always my fav stix machine now has 2003 version!! yippee!! must drag ppl out to sing k and take sticka pix tmw... since i sold my old monitor to ann for $65. :)

mmm. being here is almost like being in tw.. i blog, i neopet, i check mail, i go out and shop, i even go to the same restaurant.. ha. cept the dry skin. and it's actually warmer here... x__X??
posted by melody at 1/05/2003 04:27:00 p.m.

had an alright last day in tw... (1/3)

got up at 2 for lunch... felt sick so didn't finish lunch.. slept again till 5pm... then took the metro with mom to 忠孝復興 to meet dad. we went to 山喜屋... yes, the "jap place", tw version! original version... it's sooo good, better than the one in vancouver. they sell a lot more 串燒, and the 神戶牛肉串燒 + 雞心串燒 + 雞肉串燒 + 豬肝串燒 are TO DIE FOR. yaki-udon and beef sukiyaki are only ok tho... sooo good.. mmm. wanna go again and again and again, but it's expensive to eat 串燒. :(

then i went to see the dentist, he said that i don't need to replace the silver fillings, cuz they were done really well, plus i probably ate more mercury thru seafood then i'll ever get out of my fillings... just like i thought, heh. but in the summer i'll have to get surgery to remove my wisdom teeth, if they still dun grow out... :(

then i went to shi-men.. by myself!! :( claire skipped evening class and slept... oh well... i got a red 'emily' sweater!! hee... i have to admit that it looks better on the model dummy than it does on me, as it is with most clothes... but whatever. kinda regretting the pattern i got tho, and the color... no no no, i shouldn't think about it. today was a very good 殺價 day... hee. wallet originally $390, i got 2 for $500. bag originally $490, owner agreed to $320, but i didn't want it... emily was 650, i got it for 580 (least successful, ha.) i love 殺價... the thrill of the activity beats buying and owning the merchandise... haha.

well... this is it... last night in taipei for this time... i wanna go play with feifei, but then it's cold and he's asleep. ai... i dun wanna go, so not looking forward to the plane flight... and also dun wanna leave mom dad n feifei... (feifei's my dog. whose name is actually 多多, but i like to call him 肥肥, even tho he isn't fat at all. yeah.) so freakishly melancholy... i shouldn't be, i have an entire suitcase devoted to junk food and shoes... muwahahahaha. even tho i didn't get the boots and that pair of amazingly soft leather flats... hmm. whatever... i got new shoelaces for all my shoes, so it'll be like i have a dozen new shoes... heh. the new ethnies came with a company catalogue, SLOBBERS... but i like the one i just got the best, so that's good news. heh...

still thinking if i should wake up for a hair cut tmw morning... my hair's out of style right now... but then it's winter.. i dun really care what my hair looks like.. i probably won't be able to wake up anyway, it's almost 4 and i've still got little stuff to do b4 i can sleep... outz lu... i get to see buu buu soon. ^_________^
posted by melody at 1/04/2003 03:46:00 a.m.

i'm so full i've got a stomach cramp. but i'm still sitting here eating.. :p
slept at 6am and got up at 12:30pm, so i'm really tired today... cept i didn't do anything this afternoon. i finally started using the webcam, but it didn't really work... buu buu could see and hear me, but i couldn't see or hear him. we dunno what's wrong, but we spent 40 minutes on long D phone call trying to figure it out... haha.
then i had dinner at home, and me and dad went to 公館. i got two pairs of jeans (about time...) and a knitted sweater and the ethnies!! :) i'm talking about the ones with the peel off ethnies sign... it comes with beige shoe strings too, so it's like i've got (4 logos) x (2 shoe strings) = 8 pairs of new shoes. haha... i re-designed now so it's white background, green logo, and beige strings... looks so nice, i don't care if they're not that comfy. and it's cheap too... they're 2680 at shi-men, 1800 at 通化街夜市, but i got them for 1290 at 熱賣鞋城. ^____________^
i ate a LOT too... 老胡麻辣豆腐, 小李豬血糕, 鴉片粉圓... mmm. got home at 12am... sooo tired, but i still gotta start packing... i think i got enuff junk food to fill up an entire suitcase. :)

got dentist appointment t 8:45pm tomorrow... >< kinda bad for plans... ohh... if u have a denture filling with silver powder, U ARE AT RISK OF MERCURY POISIONING, CONSULT YOUR DENTIST IMMEDIATELY!! that's what i gotta do tmw... then hopefully i'll meet up with claire, tho i'm really supposed to come home and do some last minute packing. what do i have to do tmw? get some more junk food... hopefully buy a hat. consider if i want more cds... and... that about it... oh right. and EAT. heh. sticky photos too...

mmm... my eyelids are getting very droopy right now..i ought to go see the eye doctor, wondering if my infection's completely cleared up yet... but no time... hmm... ZZZzzz... be back in boring ol' vancouver soon... at least i get to see buu buu... and watch LOTR2... :p
posted by melody at 1/03/2003 02:26:00 a.m.

been sitting here for a LONG while now... it's currently 4am in taipei... i just dun wanna sleep. maybe b/c i got up at 5pm... :p
found out that i'm still having denis sjerve for math next term.. the guy who can't teach... who doesn't change marks even tho the marker made a mistake.. but who also gives relatively easy midterms... heh. excellent... hope my background knowledge from ap calc will last me thru most of next term too... sjerve (sure-vee) sure can't teach... i guess it's true for anyone with a doctor degree from berkeley.. (ie. dr hawes.. uh-oh, for a second i forgot his name... my memory's totalling slipping.)

been listening for the ruien cd for hours now too... my headphones are hurting me. or, my earphones pressing on to my 4 earrings is hurting me... haha~ i ought to do something, if not sleep, right now. i wanna eat instant noodles... but then mom/dad will get REALLY annoyed if they wake up and find out. i'm starting to think that it's not fair to say that someone is "mad with me"... cuz most of the time they're not. they're annoyed by me, they don't like the way i'm doing things, they feel i've hurt their feelings, they feel used, they feel they're at a disadvangtage, etc. but not alway "mad"... damn SAT grammer. i'm always saying "mad at me" and then correcting myself... ex. i'm mad 'at' my dog, but i'm mad 'with' charlie... get it? heh. but when i'm mad 'with' someone, it usually feels more like i'm mad AT them... i dun see them as ppl. otherwise i'd understand that ppl make mistakes and wouldn't be mad. u'd think, wouldn't u... i dun't think i'm much of a forgiver... but a big forgetter. or am i? no i'm not... i subconciously try to forget the ppl who've done me wrong. but i subconciously never forgive... yeah... that's it. i wonder if most ppl are like this.. it's hard to say, after all the subciously is freakishly abstract...

watched moulin rouge yet again today... so fascinated by it... movies i NEVER get sick of... and the approx times i've watched each one...
sleepless in seattle(15+), u've got mail(6), moulin rouge(4), 半支煙(6), 新不了情(4), gone with the wind(7). shakespeare in love(6). romeo and juliet (the one with dicaprio, 7)... what else? there ought to be lots more...

books i never get sick of and u should go and read. or maybe i should stop telling u what u should do with ur life... but u've really got to read these...
gone with the wind, the novel :), almost everything by margaret atwood, especially the handmaid's tale. romeo and juliet, the play. 1984 by george orwell, even tho the vocab hurts my brain. 傷心咖啡店之歌 and 燕子. le petite prince. errrm... 張小嫻 novels are good too.

cds i never get sick of??? ohhh tooooo much... leehom, david tao, always always nic, lauren hill, india arie, now ruien, apparently. shunza, etc etc etc etc... (and of course burned cds... haha)

argh!!! i should go read in bed... been trying to finish "the scarlett letter" for months now... i think i actually bought the book in summer or earlier. :p ohh... "drowning ruth", "angela's ashes", "she came undone", "this much i know is true" are all good books too... books movies music and food... ahhh... *slobbers*
posted by melody at 1/02/2003 04:10:00 a.m.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
i got the ruien cd, finally... it feels so weird, that i've only bought one cd this time. usually winter vacation i get about 10.. summer at least 15...
soooo, i had a good new years eve... what i did on the 31st...
i got up early (10:30am is SO early) to go check out the car show at 世貿 with dad... it was alright... they had a few altered cars, subarus, one viper... there was one electric blue lotus (soo nice) there, one lamborghini, one ferrari... but it was mainly regular cars that they're selling in tw. honda isn't selling accords or civics in tw or something, so they import them in to sell, and the civic si and accord V6 are SOO expensive... but still, V6, 240hp... ai... what else? there weren't any cool cars there... and dad was shopping for a family car so i wasn't that interested. the thing is, car dealerships here, u talk price for so long, and they throw in so many free perks. well, u expect them to... the ford guy offered to take NT$75000 off the price, help us sell the DVD system for $30000 and throw in a panasonic 8-cd changer for free, free undercarriage rust protection, free whatchama-callits... much, MUCH unlike "access" toyota. "no... no sir, it's company policy u see, it would be unfair to the other customers, it's about honoring the system... no, we can't even give u a TRD baseball cap..." heh.

then me and dad walked around, got lost on the bus, etc... dad got the T200, cept instead of letting me use it in van, like we said, i think he wants to keep it. heh... whatever, i still dun think i can use anything cept nokia. claire got the nokia "蝴蝶機", so nice. i use nokia 8210 (tw code), but i changed the shell to make it look just like the 蝴蝶機, but still, my screen lights are green, not blue. *sigh*

then we went to 公館 to eat ramen and starbucks... we ate ramen at two different 和田屋 twice in the same day... heh. TWO miso ramen, soooo good. then we went to watch "the bourne identity" and "香港有個荷里活" at 僑興~ "bourne" was good as expected... the mini driving, so good, heh... and i know who drove the car in that scene... hah. but 香港有個荷里活 was sooooo weird. one family, dad, two boys, all ridiculously fat, have a fat pig as a pet, and maintains a pig food business... one skinny guy who acts as a pimp for his gf... one pretty girl from mainland china who lives up in "hollywood" and has sex with the fat brother and the skinny guy and then gets her lawyer bf to threaten them for money? and... well. the movie was kinda sick in a way, but the director managed to make it into a very very very good dark comedy... and the ending is hilarious. i dunno what the movie's point is tho... that it seems like hk ppl are taking advantage of china but in reality china is ripping hk off? b/c the old village gets torn down in the end, and "hollywood", where the china girl lives, prevails? i THINK that's the family... but then why would they just portray fat pork vendors and lil pimps as "hk"... if u dun think i've already ruined it for u, u should go watch it, and tell me what the film's trying to say. if u get turned off by fat guy vs pretty girl sex, or if u're under the age of 18, dun't bother...

then we went home at 11pm on the mrt.. 大家都是搭乘往台北的捷運, 只有極少比例的人是往新店的. 有一群國中生跟我們同路, 一路宣華著. 我覺得我好老, 有點"落伍"... claire 照我們的慣例往最熱鬧的方向跑去 -- 市政府的跨年演唱會. 有學妹殺手陪著, 瘋到天亮再回家. 我不知道為什麼我沒有跟她去... 我到底羨不羨慕claire的生活? no... 我太"懂事"了, 我不可能做到她那樣. 也許我享有連她也羨慕的一些東西, 父母, 出國讀書的機會, IQ, 自由, etc. 可是我也會偶爾想要她的生活... maybe b/c it was the way i was gonna live, b4 gr.7.

barely got to see everyone this time, and i'm almost leaving again... it doesn't feel like a new year... i watched fireworks on my balcony at 12:05am... i wish there was someone next to me at that moment to share the beauty with. for a few moments i asked myself why i didn't go to the concert... claire really wanted me to go... but oh well. then i went back in to watch tv... and that was my new year's eve.

i wonder what things are gonna be like in summer. with claire n laura finally in university (hopefully) and all... it sounds like fun, but hmm. i think we ought to go take 沙龍照... we were supposed to do that the past summer, celebrate that we're all 18 this year. colette's photos turned out pretty well, even tho i still think she's too into the modelling thing... it makes more sense if the three of us took the photos together. otherwise what would i do with a booklet of photos in which i don't look like me...

still haven't decided what i'm gonna do with my hair... i should at least get it trimmed... but bangs? no bangs? should i straighten it? and i realllly wanna dye it, ai. keep on thinking about the days when i changed hair color twice a month. OMG!! i just figured out what's been wrong with my life this break, why i'm so restless but lazy and bored too... there's been too much stability in my life... and to me, stability feels like inactivity, like i'm stuck... and when u get stuck in quicksand u just slowly get sucked in... wow... i just figured it out. heh

did a new emode.com test... what's my true color? it was a good test, b/c the result was what i like to read... haha~ i'm red... i'll let the results speak for itself...

*Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.*

i ought to post all the psyc test results that i've got... but then that'll require so much energy. plus i often forget the psyc test answers... only sometimes i come across some psyc test questions that get me thinking... i think i get the most out of being posed questions.... not recieving ans... makes me appreciate the psyc method more... if u go see a psychologist, he/she can't tell u what's wrong with u, even if they know... they can only try to ask the right questions, and u must come up with the answers. after all, would u listen to somebody if they told u that u're unhappy b/c u have a borderline personality disorder b/c when u were 5 ur piano teacher slapped ur fingers when u played the wrong tune on purpose??

wow, i see i've ranted on for quite a bit today... i ought to stop, but i've gotta say it again... the ruien cd... SO GOOD... GET IT GET IT GET IT GET IT GET IT GET IT...

posted by melody at 1/02/2003 02:33:00 a.m.