whoohoo, a blog... reminds me of "B LOT"... blot! heh.

finally i have a new space, where parents can't access n read up about my life and become unnecessarily concerned...

today was last day of classes! time for finals, time for struggling to pass, but all i wanna do is stay up all night n listen to music and... well... i'd go for a drive but the fog is horrible ><

talking about fog... amy called me today, and she's going to LONDON! my god... she's right tho, it seems like i've given up on all my goals... i was supposed to do so much! ie. go to berkeley, study psychology n help mentally troubled ppl... ai-yai, what exactly happened? well i didn't study hard enuff so i didn't meet the requirements of berkeley... or didn't i? i still remember waking up at like 8am on sunday to get macdonald's breakfast b4 SAT class... and ugh god, can't possibly forget SAT class in tw during summer... everyday bright sun at 1pm and i'm walking to the metro station... all that hard work, so i got a slighty better vocab, but how does that help me? whenever i try to use SAT vocab, ppl just start thinking "oh, show off..." :(

positive thoughts! positive thoughts! heh. it's hard... every website/post board i've ever had eventually turns out to be some sort of emotional outlet... (more of a complaining space really).

talk about complaining! we have to pass the finals to pass the course? my god.. i'm so screwed. with a little bit of effort i know i can cruise thru university, even bio and chem (and yes, biochem...) but why do i never feel like trying anymore? maybe b/c studying hard didn't get me anywhere in highschool... i ended up in UBC with everybody else, and scholarships dun even matter cuz i'm just gonna fail the courses, have to retake them, and wasted the $$. precious $$... >____<

lalala... enuff complaining for one night... concentrate on waiting for the sunrise... if only i could be at the BEACH watching the sunrise... dumbass fog. oh NO, FOG... does that mean, no sunrise?? YIKES.
posted by melody at 11/30/2002 09:42:00 p.m.